Friday, July 31, 2015
They aren't stopping.
They're being stupid. Don't push people in my life in ways I don't like.
I am me. I don't want to be anyone else, and if I did it wouldn't be any random person you pick. See, this is stupid, a stupid waste of my time, too. Or is this "war" really going on?
I'm not staying mum. These ideas don't need to come in stride.
If you're wondering, Dr. Phil is a great guy, but I don't know what you're doing, to me. I know he does not accept what I said. If you want it up close with someone, you don't all chose me. I don't even go up close like he does. He stopped seeming as nice on the show, too, and that was my escape. I found someone I liked, but I didn't feel prepared and think I lost it. What if I like Ellen or someone else? What is going on? This is my life.
Why don't you stop making fun of him?? People don't talk to everyone in the world.
If it doesn't matter and I don't need to say anything, what's wrong with saying?
I don't like people putting themselves onto me in weird ways.
I am me. I don't want to be anyone else, and if I did it wouldn't be any random person you pick. See, this is stupid, a stupid waste of my time, too. Or is this "war" really going on?
I'm not staying mum. These ideas don't need to come in stride.
If you're wondering, Dr. Phil is a great guy, but I don't know what you're doing, to me. I know he does not accept what I said. If you want it up close with someone, you don't all chose me. I don't even go up close like he does. He stopped seeming as nice on the show, too, and that was my escape. I found someone I liked, but I didn't feel prepared and think I lost it. What if I like Ellen or someone else? What is going on? This is my life.
Why don't you stop making fun of him?? People don't talk to everyone in the world.
If it doesn't matter and I don't need to say anything, what's wrong with saying?
I don't like people putting themselves onto me in weird ways.
You'll know that it's true.
They associated something else with Dr. Phil to remember on my birthday, with a force. Now, what's wrong with that picture?
I'm not here to talk about this..
..but they are beating at me! Away form someone I like.
They said something that says I won't get them, anymore.
They said something that says I won't get them, anymore.
Thursday, July 30, 2015
Problem
I think they wanna do away with my mom in their imagination. That's violence, showing off, and starting the fight. What the *beep*? I don't do this. I'm just kinda guessing, but it seems possible. I don't know who would think that. I'm just saying. Why does my mom have to suffer so much? It's like that for all Asians sometimes.
Now, they acted like someone I like said, "Christina, you didn't do a thing."
You're *beep* to keep dissing me and about something stupid like race.
Now, they acted like someone I like said, "Christina, you didn't do a thing."
You're *beep* to keep dissing me and about something stupid like race.
I'll put on a smile for you, Ellen.
Okay, you can have your baby.
What about the part about punishing me?
What about the part about punishing me?
Look
I'm sorry I get so uptight.
I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings. Maybe, I didn't say it right what was going on, but you don't have to like me. It just seems unfair.
Mostly, I thought I was reporting. I need help with some things. Do they realize they are wrong? I was better off w/o them. I wasn't in trouble. No one thought I owed anyone anything.
I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings. Maybe, I didn't say it right what was going on, but you don't have to like me. It just seems unfair.
Mostly, I thought I was reporting. I need help with some things. Do they realize they are wrong? I was better off w/o them. I wasn't in trouble. No one thought I owed anyone anything.
Problem
They said they would take back me being skinny as a kid and stupidly say I think someone said that give it to Bella! THEY CAN'T DO THAT! IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. THAT'S LIKE STEALING FROM ME! I don't sit around and wonder about that *beep*. Someone I like supposedly had my mom say no gymnastics.
Problem
Ellen is making it seem like anyone could be listening in on me on TV and stressing me out like *beep* about it.
Annoying
Ellen might be posting that someone I look up to is just a *beep* baby wanting *** every day. That's not the person who wanted to do that. None of ya'll's suggestions that she's "just" antsy for ***. You think I'm bad forever and I didn't do anything bad forever. My dad is racist and selfish. No one cares.
Keep cool. Look cool. http://t.co/qZgupPMglF pic.twitter.com/iFtV7HVC7T
— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) July 30, 2015
What is the meaning of this? Didn't know you were in.Why are you suggesting Leo DiCaprio to me? They keep rubbing this in.
Is Ellen a baby? I think so! Anything wrong with what I said?
You're just out to get me and think I'm bad.
Any other problems with me?
I feel like Hitler. You just wanted to rub in my dad to that person and annoy me with a byproduct in the form of a baby. I don't need your primitive hysteria over something I said I could not control like a werewolf. Ew, they're acting like I did something. I told you this upset me. You can't do *beep* cuz you don't like what I think or what is brought to my attention. Well, let's get down to this being rapidfire mean to me and punishing me wrongly. 1 I am already about 30 years old. You can't start up with me. I'm not *beep*. I'm not like you. You *beep*'d my life with stupidity. You hurt me and not others.'
This is your silly little punishment you actually did to make a statement, tho. You think it's so cool, but looks like you cheated and did something unspoken of. I don't care if it's for fun. You used it against me and didn't care if I said it made me mad. You don't realize how bad this it. And I haven't been talking to anyone specific. What? You all do it. Talking back to me like what I say is *beep*? Well, why should I care what you say?
This is your silly little punishment you actually did to make a statement, tho. You think it's so cool, but looks like you cheated and did something unspoken of. I don't care if it's for fun. You used it against me and didn't care if I said it made me mad. You don't realize how bad this it. And I haven't been talking to anyone specific. What? You all do it. Talking back to me like what I say is *beep*? Well, why should I care what you say?
Problem
I was careful to make a point about your pretend baby to say it was *beep* to me cuz it was a punishment to me with my dad walking around like a snot.
You think this is something, huh? I'm not being sarcastic.
Part of my mood is pent up anger of how bossy Ellen is dictating *beep* in my life.
Do you actually think this is nice?
You think this is something, huh? I'm not being sarcastic.
Part of my mood is pent up anger of how bossy Ellen is dictating *beep* in my life.
Do you actually think this is nice?
Problem
Why don't you be quiet! They just did something weird to prevent me from being "close" to someone "or else?" They did something weird again! I can say what I want you criminal! And maybe something else. And something else. Stop telling me I'm the one getting physical. You can't throw up *beep* on me whatever you want. I am not bad!!
I don't care if it's okay.
I already said no to your *beep* baby made with stealing someone I like and making *beep* as a baby with my dad, which is not okay because 1 reason is you think you can punish me.
You don't have to! Are you stupid? What's your problem? I'm just trying to live my life. And no I don't know who is saying this and am not talking to anyone directly.
I wonder why I sound right. Maybe, because you committed a sin in the Catholic church. You aren't worth criticizing the Catholic church.
Who caused this? Well, Ellen probably thinks this is an opportunity to "punish" me, which is something that does not need to happen and I didn't do anything!
What is your "nope" from? You can't influence other people to hate me, esp. the popular ones. They said my game I might play is a plot to punish me "for this." Well, I have freedom of speech and you always hurt me you *beep*. Someone on Twitter said they couldn't help me. I still have to call during the day to get my police forum username back.
And no you can't tell me what to say "or else" .. you can't influence people to be against me.
What is this? I CANNOT HAVE THIS *BEEP* GOING AROUND. You think you're all that punishing me. Well, you are *beep* cuz you "toss aside" the idea that other people are starting to be mean to me and I just don't accept it. Next time you slip a thought in a hard time, let's batter you down. I bet you are thinking the stupid idea that it means I am wrong, but no you were mean to me 1st every day.
Well, it isn't stopping now. They aren't tired, yet. *Beep* them. What is this? You all think this is so cool. Why do you even need to slash into my once stable life?? I don't know what or who the *beep* you are.
Do you deserve the capability to do this to me, one might suggest?
You don't have to! Are you stupid? What's your problem? I'm just trying to live my life. And no I don't know who is saying this and am not talking to anyone directly.
I wonder why I sound right. Maybe, because you committed a sin in the Catholic church. You aren't worth criticizing the Catholic church.
Who caused this? Well, Ellen probably thinks this is an opportunity to "punish" me, which is something that does not need to happen and I didn't do anything!
What is your "nope" from? You can't influence other people to hate me, esp. the popular ones. They said my game I might play is a plot to punish me "for this." Well, I have freedom of speech and you always hurt me you *beep*. Someone on Twitter said they couldn't help me. I still have to call during the day to get my police forum username back.
And no you can't tell me what to say "or else" .. you can't influence people to be against me.
What is this? I CANNOT HAVE THIS *BEEP* GOING AROUND. You think you're all that punishing me. Well, you are *beep* cuz you "toss aside" the idea that other people are starting to be mean to me and I just don't accept it. Next time you slip a thought in a hard time, let's batter you down. I bet you are thinking the stupid idea that it means I am wrong, but no you were mean to me 1st every day.
Well, it isn't stopping now. They aren't tired, yet. *Beep* them. What is this? You all think this is so cool. Why do you even need to slash into my once stable life?? I don't know what or who the *beep* you are.
Do you deserve the capability to do this to me, one might suggest?
Problems
They still are just *beep* to me that won't shut up.
How dare you pretend to create a baby with my dad and someone I like. You think he deserves that mismatched ***? This is pathetic. My dad is a loony machine. He's crass and wants to be gross like that. He annoys me when he touches me. Aside from all that, it just isn't right and maybe cuz you positioned it as a punishment to me. How pathetically inconvenient. You shouldn't be all up in here telling me hysterically what not to think. I said I don't want to think of cursing and violence. I said I simply had a hard time never thinking of a curse word because of how prevalent they are. What else? You put more pressure on me when you rub it in. When I post here, I control how it comes out, but sometimes I am known to just think it.
I heard a threat that they want to do something bad to me that no one can know.
They just made it sound like an icky baby with someone I like + my dad again. You used it as an inconvenient punishment for me when I don't really deserve one. Why won't they stop? You can't just do whatever you want to me. That imaginary baby is not good because of what you did and the idea is *beep*.
Don't you dare pose me as bad. You are bad. You think it's all some contest for me to be good and accept *beep*. Well, I don't. I don't believe in all the simple things Jesus said. You act like I deserve to go to H***.
How dare you pretend to create a baby with my dad and someone I like. You think he deserves that mismatched ***? This is pathetic. My dad is a loony machine. He's crass and wants to be gross like that. He annoys me when he touches me. Aside from all that, it just isn't right and maybe cuz you positioned it as a punishment to me. How pathetically inconvenient. You shouldn't be all up in here telling me hysterically what not to think. I said I don't want to think of cursing and violence. I said I simply had a hard time never thinking of a curse word because of how prevalent they are. What else? You put more pressure on me when you rub it in. When I post here, I control how it comes out, but sometimes I am known to just think it.
I heard a threat that they want to do something bad to me that no one can know.
They just made it sound like an icky baby with someone I like + my dad again. You used it as an inconvenient punishment for me when I don't really deserve one. Why won't they stop? You can't just do whatever you want to me. That imaginary baby is not good because of what you did and the idea is *beep*.
Don't you dare pose me as bad. You are bad. You think it's all some contest for me to be good and accept *beep*. Well, I don't. I don't believe in all the simple things Jesus said. You act like I deserve to go to H***.
Rude
411: They acted like my dad had *** with someone I like. They had a baby. They basically just spat in my face like it's a life of *** for a man who doesn't care and the creation of someone who gotta go it seems not to be rude but they did this to annoy me, that thing just talked in my face thinking it was finally a real kid from my dad like my mom is diddlysquat.
Problem
They are dictating watching me waiting to *beep* me off saying nasty things like if I meet someone I think of some *beep* they just said. Why am I the one with a *beep* life while you oversee me? "You seem like you don't wanna be there." You have an attitude. I'm tired of the demeaning silence that separates more demeanor. Oh well, they do that all the time. You're just wasting your life. I wish there were better social networking we could use online. People are so stupid!!
*beep*
I'm just saying this is *beep*, but I don't mean to hurt anyone innocent! as any dummy would know!
What? I can post whatever I want. You do not have the right to do this. You started this *beep*.
About the made up kid, that was just done to hurt me supposedly for something I did for my inconvenience but you were the wrong one I said already!!
What? I can post whatever I want. You do not have the right to do this. You started this *beep*.
About the made up kid, that was just done to hurt me supposedly for something I did for my inconvenience but you were the wrong one I said already!!
Problem
They won't quit acting like I'm bad. Don't make me mad! People're being so stupid they don't even know what they're doing! DUH! You were picking at me incessantly! I'm not lying! You just wanna see me sit here and post this while you do more. Well, I have goals. And sitting here til I'm 30 .. isn't one of them! Come on? Who knows about this in the works?
Realization
Being picky and wishing for perfection isn't gonna blow the sail.
When people mention things to me not to do that I don't wanna do, sometimes I do them.
When people mention things to me not to do that I don't wanna do, sometimes I do them.
What a Laugh
You can't just go around having more kids than you can keep alive!
This *beep* is more of your undue punishing.
You can pretend that, but I mean you can't steal what's mine, the idea. It can't be based on *beep*ing at me. It does in fact itch at me that it's mean and inappropriate and I'm afraid I'm gonna lose it! It's all based on something I did set on. It probably ruined my relationship. Who do some of you think you are ruining things for me? Anyway, they are being annoying, moreso than if there really was a "new baby" in this idiot family. THIS IS NOT A JOKE! (I felt something watching TV.) What, are you all more unoffensive than me, does that have to be true? Are you a Barbie doll? Get on the scale!! :D
I can't stand the idea my dad r****s people I like and has babies. What can I do? Did you create the joke? You shouldn't even suggest that to people! You don't do that at 65, neither! What is the problem? I don't feel right. I just happened to keep feeling bad and get a lot to say trying to figure out how to deal with this. I know I was really the good guy.
This *beep* is more of your undue punishing.
You can pretend that, but I mean you can't steal what's mine, the idea. It can't be based on *beep*ing at me. It does in fact itch at me that it's mean and inappropriate and I'm afraid I'm gonna lose it! It's all based on something I did set on. It probably ruined my relationship. Who do some of you think you are ruining things for me? Anyway, they are being annoying, moreso than if there really was a "new baby" in this idiot family. THIS IS NOT A JOKE! (I felt something watching TV.) What, are you all more unoffensive than me, does that have to be true? Are you a Barbie doll? Get on the scale!! :D
I can't stand the idea my dad r****s people I like and has babies. What can I do? Did you create the joke? You shouldn't even suggest that to people! You don't do that at 65, neither! What is the problem? I don't feel right. I just happened to keep feeling bad and get a lot to say trying to figure out how to deal with this. I know I was really the good guy.
Tossed Aside as S***
My dad does not really like me and won't stop being mean. He wanted to have *** with another woman and have kids based on tossing me aside as ****. I thought I said you were a bother to me in this. What's all this "admitting" things based on "finding out" about me? And it was someone I liked. If it weren't for me, he wouldn't care to "steal" this person from what they are to me. He's doing it based on "punishing" me. How would you feel? Why is everything about him when it's something about me?! Don't you think it's wrong they are mean to me? Would you think of something like a curse word if someone nagged at you and your life?
Commercial
Suggesting Ellen wants to make me look like as an infant a black Asian and hand me over to my dad. Don't you think it's time to stop trusting her? She keeps acting like I'm in trouble and tries to make it that way. She puts on a happy face, but this is crazy, changing my life in twisted ways and keeping hers okay but not mine. Whoever did this, we shouldn't trust them. I don't need blaspheme. No one cares about what things really mean with me cuz they're scared to and don't need to really. If Ellen acts like she didn't do it, she sometimes acts like she said it but I'm stupid cuz it's obvious she does.
Problem
They said I can't have something. You can't live it up, tho. It's unfair what you did to me. You keep acting like this is all my idea. Why do you think you can convince someone in how they feel about me? What, I never came out and attacked anyone. I'm trying to live my life. You're also lying about what I thought, which I didn't say!
What? You just jump to that conclusion? You tell people how to manipulate me?
What's going on? All this sudden insulting with not much to back it up. You act like yes someone told me to give you this message, too.
I realize I thought something was okay earlier today that wasn't moreso. Who are you to say that, tho, cuz you are the one who made me upset.
What can I do, now?
What? You just jump to that conclusion? You tell people how to manipulate me?
What's going on? All this sudden insulting with not much to back it up. You act like yes someone told me to give you this message, too.
I realize I thought something was okay earlier today that wasn't moreso. Who are you to say that, tho, cuz you are the one who made me upset.
What can I do, now?
Inappropriate Attitude
I don't deserve this. What, is everything for the predeveloped kids of premature parents?
Hurting Me
Well, well, well.
You think you have the right to barge in and judge and hurt me?
They are acting like I have a problem. No, you do!
You think you have the right to barge in and judge and hurt me?
They are acting like I have a problem. No, you do!
Problem
Why do people act like I'm really in trouble and I can't know it so I can't fight it? I get suggestions of it. Like, why did such and such visit at such and such time.. for something I did when I was 2? A private thought or string of thoughts. I never really did anything wrong. Why give and take and act iffy around me? You think I'm just some n***** biracial and also at age 2?
Thought-Probing
They just want me dead. How worthless they are. That is a bad sign. I mean, come on. What's it look like?
Wale! (Well)
I don't sit here wanting to k*** anyone nor curse at them. I'm sitting here alone. Can anybody help with this?
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Partially just so you don't do it..
..sometimes it brings me joy to envision putting people in their place, but it's a no no.. it should not be suggested, tho, cuz it "came up." It must have been suggested condescendingly or lackadaisically.
No Hard Feelings
I don't have all hard feelings on anyone.
I don't wanna hurt them.. who would? But I think they lied that I'm in trouble.
I don't wanna hurt them.. who would? But I think they lied that I'm in trouble.
Treated Badly
I don't deserve to be treated this way. Whatever you imagined, I said what I had to. I just overlooked it. I said I am not here to listen to you. I'm not the tough luck cookie!!
Sorry to Anyone
who has suffered direct contact, blog posts, or thoughts by me
I still wanna have fun making fun of the underdogs. Well, I can do that alone on my blog..
I just don't wanna be on people's bad side, if you possibly know what I mean.
I still wanna have fun making fun of the underdogs. Well, I can do that alone on my blog..
I just don't wanna be on people's bad side, if you possibly know what I mean.
I just disagree..
..with punishing me for pleasure all the time.
I don't really agree with many people who have a say. What is it about, that I like not being all white and I'm racially inferior?
I can't believe such prestigious people would stoop so low as to barge in on me just to, like, tell me they hate me and I have no hope of meeting anyone as cool as I am.
I don't really agree with many people who have a say. What is it about, that I like not being all white and I'm racially inferior?
I can't believe such prestigious people would stoop so low as to barge in on me just to, like, tell me they hate me and I have no hope of meeting anyone as cool as I am.
So, "what are my options?"
Points off, I'm in prison? I do not collect $200. I do not pass Go.
What, does every "criminal" get mistreated privately, at 1st?
I did find things to be especially arousing. I always come out and try to be nice, but people are still mean to me. I have to wait until I'm alone so they can go about doing whatever they do rather than focus on fighting with me. If we fought, it'd be to the end.
You know, a lotta people talk to me condescendingly. When they do that, I find it harder to be nice to them and do as they wish, whatever that may be.
So, no, I didn't even mean it when I did what you thought I did. If someone did, so what? Life must go on for all, not just the bad popular people.
How is it that you all monitor my thoughts but keep acting aggressively around me? Central Florida knows it has better family behavior than mine.
I do feel I did it as guilty, but it is not that no one was pushing me around. I just blame these other people for ruining it for me. It's not right.
What, does every "criminal" get mistreated privately, at 1st?
I did find things to be especially arousing. I always come out and try to be nice, but people are still mean to me. I have to wait until I'm alone so they can go about doing whatever they do rather than focus on fighting with me. If we fought, it'd be to the end.
You know, a lotta people talk to me condescendingly. When they do that, I find it harder to be nice to them and do as they wish, whatever that may be.
So, no, I didn't even mean it when I did what you thought I did. If someone did, so what? Life must go on for all, not just the bad popular people.
How is it that you all monitor my thoughts but keep acting aggressively around me? Central Florida knows it has better family behavior than mine.
I do feel I did it as guilty, but it is not that no one was pushing me around. I just blame these other people for ruining it for me. It's not right.
What?
I already explained what happened. I was being attacked. I'll try not to attack..
They kept going and I guess I could not think. I guess I'm working on it. Like I said. Can I pretend to blow a person down? I have to have something ready, in case, so I think of the right thing, tho I don't wanna think about that. This'll be on you if "something happens." Or just the fact I can't really control this. You know, I'm 1/2 Asian and often not treated normally like I act. I think that has messed with my mind. Deep in the roots.
They kept going and I guess I could not think. I guess I'm working on it. Like I said. Can I pretend to blow a person down? I have to have something ready, in case, so I think of the right thing, tho I don't wanna think about that. This'll be on you if "something happens." Or just the fact I can't really control this. You know, I'm 1/2 Asian and often not treated normally like I act. I think that has messed with my mind. Deep in the roots.
Secrets
You secretly quite give a *beep* about Ellen after she was mean to me. She'd just roll her eyes were she to follow this post. And it's about it, too, isn't it? I didn't start anything mean with you. You just don't like me cuz you stopped caring, you all stopped. It's all for Bella and no one else, everything I do. I don't expect anything, but I don't want to be on someone's bad list cuz you all won't quit *beep*ing me!!
Oh, yes, I see people are nice but if I get upset at something they take it out on me and made me wish I hadn't known about them, yet. Like I said, wish I hadn't watched Ellen yet! IT'S NOT OKAY. You lie if you think it's okay to watch your show cuz it's not worth being made fun of and getting in trouble for watching cuz we "aren't ready."
You think of things that I didn't think but thought of. It seems my life is about it, now. It's about the insults I get which throw off my thinking.. or maybe this is a bad opportunity?
What about Ellen? Who's "ready?"
Oh, yes, I see people are nice but if I get upset at something they take it out on me and made me wish I hadn't known about them, yet. Like I said, wish I hadn't watched Ellen yet! IT'S NOT OKAY. You lie if you think it's okay to watch your show cuz it's not worth being made fun of and getting in trouble for watching cuz we "aren't ready."
You think of things that I didn't think but thought of. It seems my life is about it, now. It's about the insults I get which throw off my thinking.. or maybe this is a bad opportunity?
What about Ellen? Who's "ready?"
So, what did you think of this ordeal?
Like, nothing happened?
My dad acting like I'm like my opposite brother and that he's having *** with someone else to possess them?
My dad acting like I'm like my opposite brother and that he's having *** with someone else to possess them?
You know what it was?
Did you know Whitney Houston's daughter died? I thought she did it in sync for the experiment.
What else?
Prevent bad things.. never throw anything at people.. check. That's the kind of thing to prepare for not doing. You don't seem to have it together. Any ideas? I still haven't thrown anything at anyone. I haven't thrown any dishes. If I mess up, this is on you.
Problem
They are still trying to affect me more just because I thought of applying force to a person WHO WAS BEING MEAN TO ME. So what? I just lost control of my thinking! You did it! Don't go and tell me it wasn't them this late in the game. Now, they think I owe them something. No, they're bullies. I said I went in and realized it wasn't a good idea. I controlled myself more physically.
Also, they think that people I like can affect me cuz I accidentally gave away my mom's age online before and my dad doesn't touch me much, neither, much less not make others feel good inside. So, they are pairing me with people I don't wanna. How cooky is that. You can't throw away an innocent life!
Also, they think that people I like can affect me cuz I accidentally gave away my mom's age online before and my dad doesn't touch me much, neither, much less not make others feel good inside. So, they are pairing me with people I don't wanna. How cooky is that. You can't throw away an innocent life!
Issue
I don't care about you, but I still wish I could go back and do it over. What's the big deal? I said I didn't mean it violently. They kept threatening years of my life. They were acting annoying, too. I just wanna make a point about who says what. It seems I can't do anything about it, tho. I probably have negative energy from the rest of Central Florida. About the imagining of others, they kept acting mockingly and trashily towards me. Sorry about that, but they were being mean. They threatened my relationship. That's not safe around them, but you were making fun of me. I'll try not to do it again. This is stupid, tho. You make a living/life out of stupid things like curse words and "imaging violence." Psychologists understand we think that sometimes. What can you do about that? I don't even get into things like that as video games, what I had in my dream I think today. Why is that so serious? I just had 1 goal, not to get physical. I didn't even mean it as violence. It was a byproduct. I just had that kind of thought stuck like that because of you. I can feel Ellen making fun of me. That's a big problem. I need peace and quiet and some privacy. Ellen does things without thinking of why. She probably went wild in Hollywood, or crazy. What can you say? She doesn't try to make things make sense. She wants them to be hard and violent, like some younger person. Anyone would know what I'm talking about who knows of her from either the Disney ride or the show.
Oh, and I "don't care" about you but that I wish I were better cuz you keep bothering me and poking fun.
What can I do? You know what also entered my dreams? Dr. Phil. He had a louder, lower voice. I saw him mostly from the back. He is silly. All he does is say someone was mean and his revolutionary statement "that it needs to change." He's smart, yes. But that's all he can do. He does it over and over with different people.
Okay, I'll try to control my thoughts from violence and the words that people are s***, n*****s.. what else? Well, curse words and to deliberate the word "stupid."
I already offended them with this snap decision. They never really talk about it much. Maybe, they want it to be a mystery. I don't do that. They never said why. They get mad if I stomp my foot or grit my teeth in private.
Why ruin my relationships? Does it depend on if the deed was done on them? It wasn't to go out and hurt anyone innocent. I kept thinking about it, but they kept going! What is this, anyway? Why can you threaten me, with years of *beep* suggested? Are you holding a smile about my past 10? What's wrong with me asking that? So what if my dad is 65 and I was born in 1985?? My mom's age is secret. I think differently than families with people younger than my parents!
Well, okay, might be in jail for being black, but I will try not to think of violence nor cursing, save my wrath for private sorting out.
Oh, and I "don't care" about you but that I wish I were better cuz you keep bothering me and poking fun.
What can I do? You know what also entered my dreams? Dr. Phil. He had a louder, lower voice. I saw him mostly from the back. He is silly. All he does is say someone was mean and his revolutionary statement "that it needs to change." He's smart, yes. But that's all he can do. He does it over and over with different people.
Okay, I'll try to control my thoughts from violence and the words that people are s***, n*****s.. what else? Well, curse words and to deliberate the word "stupid."
I already offended them with this snap decision. They never really talk about it much. Maybe, they want it to be a mystery. I don't do that. They never said why. They get mad if I stomp my foot or grit my teeth in private.
Why ruin my relationships? Does it depend on if the deed was done on them? It wasn't to go out and hurt anyone innocent. I kept thinking about it, but they kept going! What is this, anyway? Why can you threaten me, with years of *beep* suggested? Are you holding a smile about my past 10? What's wrong with me asking that? So what if my dad is 65 and I was born in 1985?? My mom's age is secret. I think differently than families with people younger than my parents!
Well, okay, might be in jail for being black, but I will try not to think of violence nor cursing, save my wrath for private sorting out.
YOU RUINED MY DAY
probably my week and sprinklings in what my future entails.
Look, sorry, if you didn't do it. I never know! That's why I went crazy.
It's not a crime, tho! You'd be in trouble and not me.
Look, sorry, if you didn't do it. I never know! That's why I went crazy.
It's not a crime, tho! You'd be in trouble and not me.
Well, they don't like it.
What if they don't like something that is necessary?
Okay, I'll be nice, but I don't approve of like my dad acting all fuzzy around me. He does it in an annoying way. He does it like a punishment for being in trouble.
What did I do wrong? What lesson do I need to be taught at this point? I don't see anything there.
Okay, I'll be nice, but I don't approve of like my dad acting all fuzzy around me. He does it in an annoying way. He does it like a punishment for being in trouble.
What did I do wrong? What lesson do I need to be taught at this point? I don't see anything there.
Am I?
Sorry? Not when you're sitting there making me feel guilty. The point was not to literally imagine injury but a force. I'm sorry it had a little blood, but I thought about stitches recently, too. I made it up. It was not really harmful. I guess I can't fight the *beep* in my head in person. I probably should not be posting it because this is literally an attempt to overthrow the experiment. Lotta people agree, tho.
I don't mean it
so much against her as I wanted to make a statement. I don't care who said it. I ain't takin' it. It's rude and mean and only I suffer thru it.
How dare you suggest that.
You're just crazy and don't care about the world. Do you wanna be joked around like that about being locked up?
Problem
They keep fitting in *beep*. They threatened me on execution. Well, you are accused of causing people to commit suicide. I don't care if you got the police's okay. It's wrong. And you used it as something against me. They said I was locked up for something. I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING BAD. I flunked college cuza noises and it being messed up in class.
I don't care what you think Ellen wants.
You can't tell me what I am racially and dictate bad things for my possible future kids. They keep bothering me about my possible future kids. Who are you, Coco the Chimp? I hope that's not as offensive as calling me Asian or possible Vietnamese or Thai. It was a joke, I wasn't literally saying they were a monkey. They act like I am.
Still
They're acting like someone I look up to is saying stupid *beep* and threats. I bet you don't do that to Bella Thorne. Not that I want you to do it to anyone. I'm just making a point. (!) Want me to come on? I plan to post this on the police forums. What you bringing on me? Who do you think you are, some elevated race? I AM WHITE and I am not to hear otherwise. Who do you all think you are? You're the one bothering me and suggesting things. I don't want to get mad at you. This is not okay in life! Sometimes, they blame other people. Well, I don't like them. I never met anyone I completely knew I hated, tho, so I dunno. They seem pretty "energetic." This is not the way to pass time. What good does this do for the world and those who need in life? Sorry, if anything offended anyone, like anyone nice. I'm not trying to rile anyone up nor make a threat. But I am sick and tired of being in trouble when I'm not doing anything wrong.
Problem?
I did end up mentioning Ellen in my posts. I have established the fact that she's playing in the experiment against me. I do recall Ellen acts okay mostly but has hidden agendas. I keep recepting images of her stereotype being mean.. to me. How can that be? She won't stop affecting the lives of me and those I care about. I guess she doesn't let things go. She may be wrong and ditzy, so I don't have to listen. All I did was curse about noises she wanted put in my room. So, if Ellen is being good would be fine then of course.. but if she's doing all these secret messages against me, I just don't feel things settling in well. She has hidden agendas. I feel as tho people I care about are in danger and so am I. She didn't really tell me very clearly to stop cursing about the noises, tho I know for sure she wouldn't want me to. That's not to her to decide. I hope or tried not to direct it at her specifically. I don't think I called her things much. When I did, it was a big thing, which I probably apologized for, or I *bleeped* it out. You know, she does this probably because she's so harsh.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Issue
If someone is mean to me, you are mean to me. Like, if I stomp my foot or something. You're weren't that close to me that you'd notice things like that going on that mean something. Like, it's none of your business, to punish me and stuff. You are getting personal. Can you say it with a clear conscience?
Something Strange
Ellen is not posting today/yet cuz I didn't tell my dad not to do something for me, tho I suggested it.
Why does she treat me like I'm her bad little toddler? I do the right things, and often she doesn't, tho it's just cuz she's not paying attention. I have situations that aren't simple. She thinks only people with roots in certain places can figure out complex things rather than just be submissive.
I'm not being sarcastic, just telling it like it is. She speaks to me thru an experiment on me tho does not actually seem to acknowledge it publicly.
Why does she treat me like I'm her bad little toddler? I do the right things, and often she doesn't, tho it's just cuz she's not paying attention. I have situations that aren't simple. She thinks only people with roots in certain places can figure out complex things rather than just be submissive.
I'm not being sarcastic, just telling it like it is. She speaks to me thru an experiment on me tho does not actually seem to acknowledge it publicly.
New Antsy Threat
That I have to be with someone and not the people I want. It's mean how they group these people, so I'm not saying who it is. I just know they did it in an inappropriate way. Nothing makes sense, and the extremity of this doesn't, neither.
My Parents and Ellen Are Crazy
I'm not lying and I'm not sarcastic.
One of the people who did something supposedly for me/others, they said okay now wish it back so that it isn't so. Why would I do that? I already didn't push it on them. There was probably some explanation but nothing for me to do.
Even Chaz Dean of Wen is involved in Ellen this way.
One of the people who did something supposedly for me/others, they said okay now wish it back so that it isn't so. Why would I do that? I already didn't push it on them. There was probably some explanation but nothing for me to do.
Even Chaz Dean of Wen is involved in Ellen this way.
Sad
I don't wanna lose my own relationship with Central Florida. They were just all so mean taking things from me. I was upset that some people acted like.. like Ellen or someone experimenting on me maybe this time told people on the road to walk like I was wrapping my legs around my dad, which I said I'd hate.. You must be some kinda perv. What made me mad was I didn't agree with some *beep* acting like I get turned on by *beep* and Bella Thorne gets what I had, like Tim Burton and all the best. So, he started marching and said "maybe my dad" and it off'd my walking, too. He was pretty trashy. I don't agree with that kinda thinking.
And why does everyone act like I'm bad? I might be inhibitedly lazy and tired, but that's all for my situation. I only get mad at people who physically come onto me or like act wrong to me.
They are threatening now my mom being there for me, which I'm there for myself anyway, so I don't think you're really getting anywhere. So what if I was upset? You can't tell me not to get upset when people are affecting me physically and stuff. Look, they did it again. YOU CAN'T DICTATE MY LIFE. They are acting like someone I like is doing it, too. Why do you think I was mean to this person, anyway? They have affected me thru physical abuse and threats, and that's when I am upset. I don't attack them with curse words. They just come up when I'm around others, namely. That's final! I sense an attack coming where a curse word is due, tho, not that I care to use one for that reason. These people don't deserve this, neither.
They just made a weird noise like those people with a hole in the middle of their closed lips. I know Bella Thorne did this to her lips, but now I don't want to be pressured to do things I don't like all the time. It was never this way before, and I won't take this *beep* now.
What's next?
And why does everyone act like I'm bad? I might be inhibitedly lazy and tired, but that's all for my situation. I only get mad at people who physically come onto me or like act wrong to me.
They are threatening now my mom being there for me, which I'm there for myself anyway, so I don't think you're really getting anywhere. So what if I was upset? You can't tell me not to get upset when people are affecting me physically and stuff. Look, they did it again. YOU CAN'T DICTATE MY LIFE. They are acting like someone I like is doing it, too. Why do you think I was mean to this person, anyway? They have affected me thru physical abuse and threats, and that's when I am upset. I don't attack them with curse words. They just come up when I'm around others, namely. That's final! I sense an attack coming where a curse word is due, tho, not that I care to use one for that reason. These people don't deserve this, neither.
They just made a weird noise like those people with a hole in the middle of their closed lips. I know Bella Thorne did this to her lips, but now I don't want to be pressured to do things I don't like all the time. It was never this way before, and I won't take this *beep* now.
What's next?
Didn't Think of This
I don't stomp in front of my parents, but in public I did, I ran and stomped the floor. I guess I just need to remember the people here are *beep* like most all of them to be mean to me as they are.
I see other people go out for jogs and no one does this to them. Also, most people from Europe or out-of-the-US and especially those who are white are treated with more respect. I'm sick of living the rip-off, the stupid, dumb idea that it has to be like this for me.
Also, why is Ellen mad I stomped my feet at the grocery store? People were being mean to me, and no one cared. It might not be good, but still. I didn't start it. What if I weren't at the grocery store? Would you call the police? The police might arrest you if they found you knew I didn't do anything and other people were poking at me like a little kid. Anyway, I have this image of Ellen going over the edge being mad at me. She herself has an attitude, like all the time. I hope she's not showing off because she thinks she should be the baby. You probably are trying to get back at me for saying that like I think people can't be at one with their baby side. Anyway, I also said she had an attitude. I didn't just call her *beep*. I said she had a strong attitude.
I see other people go out for jogs and no one does this to them. Also, most people from Europe or out-of-the-US and especially those who are white are treated with more respect. I'm sick of living the rip-off, the stupid, dumb idea that it has to be like this for me.
Also, why is Ellen mad I stomped my feet at the grocery store? People were being mean to me, and no one cared. It might not be good, but still. I didn't start it. What if I weren't at the grocery store? Would you call the police? The police might arrest you if they found you knew I didn't do anything and other people were poking at me like a little kid. Anyway, I have this image of Ellen going over the edge being mad at me. She herself has an attitude, like all the time. I hope she's not showing off because she thinks she should be the baby. You probably are trying to get back at me for saying that like I think people can't be at one with their baby side. Anyway, I also said she had an attitude. I didn't just call her *beep*. I said she had a strong attitude.
Issue
The question is why do I keep getting abused?
They wanted to make my forehead feel like a horn was sticking out of it when I went to bed this morning.
They also made it feel like I was m********ing on my dad, which is highly offensive to me.
I don't know if my dad caused this, but I do not accept it.
All people do is be mean to me all day.
They wanted to make my forehead feel like a horn was sticking out of it when I went to bed this morning.
They also made it feel like I was m********ing on my dad, which is highly offensive to me.
I don't know if my dad caused this, but I do not accept it.
All people do is be mean to me all day.
Random Things
Why do you bring up random things you shouldn't say, like single me out from others like you just said for "..children." You just say it on a whim or plan out something simple. They like said it all in a rush. You just think you have the right to try to punish me and be mean to me.
Something That Doesn't Make Sense
You think I'm bad for thinking of the word "k***" or my dad said to be.
When people are making awful suggestions to me over and over every day, things come up, but I don't mean to add to the potluck.
I don't want to think that word, anyway, nor the other bad curse words. They only come up.
I didn't ask for anything from anyone. I saw people said they watched me in private and therefore went out to especially dislike me. Why would you find yourself obliged to talk to me like my dad says? I don't wanna be talked to just to be hurt. If you don't want to, you shouldn't do it. You're acting like I told you to. You did, and I was surprised. Why are you acting mean to me like I say what to do? Who talks to who? I could have been the most famous person in the world. Is famous people and teenagers all that get respected? I do like talking to people, but I don't act like they are not prestigious people. Speaking of which, I always wanted to be a singer and dancer, but it seems my parent can't add 1 and 1. (Because why are they mad at me now like I didn't achieve anything when they were right there when I was growing up?) What about me is not really that prestigious, anyway? I don't mean to go off topic, but if you talk to me then it matters.
I'm sorry if anything sounds directed at anyone or seems so fact-based it's impolite. I did feel I got these messages a lot and wasn't sure what I could do. It seems too late. You know, most people don't push people to be mad, and the words come up themselves when I'm upset. I don't mean it. I noticed I get be mean to and others no but maybe don't get talked to, like the general public individually. Why can you all be mean to me? I never started any problems.
I don't know what this applies to!
When people are making awful suggestions to me over and over every day, things come up, but I don't mean to add to the potluck.
I don't want to think that word, anyway, nor the other bad curse words. They only come up.
I didn't ask for anything from anyone. I saw people said they watched me in private and therefore went out to especially dislike me. Why would you find yourself obliged to talk to me like my dad says? I don't wanna be talked to just to be hurt. If you don't want to, you shouldn't do it. You're acting like I told you to. You did, and I was surprised. Why are you acting mean to me like I say what to do? Who talks to who? I could have been the most famous person in the world. Is famous people and teenagers all that get respected? I do like talking to people, but I don't act like they are not prestigious people. Speaking of which, I always wanted to be a singer and dancer, but it seems my parent can't add 1 and 1. (Because why are they mad at me now like I didn't achieve anything when they were right there when I was growing up?) What about me is not really that prestigious, anyway? I don't mean to go off topic, but if you talk to me then it matters.
I'm sorry if anything sounds directed at anyone or seems so fact-based it's impolite. I did feel I got these messages a lot and wasn't sure what I could do. It seems too late. You know, most people don't push people to be mad, and the words come up themselves when I'm upset. I don't mean it. I noticed I get be mean to and others no but maybe don't get talked to, like the general public individually. Why can you all be mean to me? I never started any problems.
I don't know what this applies to!
Monday, July 27, 2015
Death Threats to Me
They want to surround and stimulate people I look up to so I can't look up to them anymore. They also think Americans can tell me not to be affiliated with non-Americans.
Invalidation?
Did they make it so someone I like seemed to dictate when Whitney Houston, who died, 's daughter died or made a group decision? They were threatening me that people I like can tell people when to k*** themselves to make me feel bad. I also noticed someone said "thank you" in Finnish, which I am trying to learn at least some, and it sounds partially like the word "k***." That disturbs me every time I would ever use that word. It was someone I looked up to, too. I see other "correlations," too.
Sometimes, the word "k***" comes up to me, but people won't stop snapping at me. I do think they are wrong, but I don't really mean to say something stupid like that. They keep hurting me. I'm not the only bad person in the world and everyone else is good.
They are being mean to me now, too, like they're all that, like they told all these people to k*** themselves. Do you think they could get executed?
Sometimes, the word "k***" comes up to me, but people won't stop snapping at me. I do think they are wrong, but I don't really mean to say something stupid like that. They keep hurting me. I'm not the only bad person in the world and everyone else is good.
They are being mean to me now, too, like they're all that, like they told all these people to k*** themselves. Do you think they could get executed?
What's up with this one?
They tried to talk again!
They want the person I like to be someone else to be mean, that person they wanna give them to.
They want the person I like to be someone else to be mean, that person they wanna give them to.
More Impersonation
What?
They said I'm not it is 1 ton. They pretend to knock me out and strangely hypnotize me.. YOU CAN'T DO THAT! to get me away from someone I like who I'm not physically with.
They said I'm not it is 1 ton. They pretend to knock me out and strangely hypnotize me.. YOU CAN'T DO THAT! to get me away from someone I like who I'm not physically with.
More
They have another point to make. They are "welcoming" people who are older than this person to be allowed with the person they act like they wanna be with, honestly, but I dunno for sure.
This is all cuza Ellen. We don't have to do what anyone says. I just cursed at illegal harmful noises she supposedly put in my room, all the time! I'm tired of getting the new news from this *beep*. You can't do that. If you did it by force, I could call the police.
The way this won't work out is it's not really happening. I forget what else.
They said something stupid again, that I got this person for a long time. I've never met them in person even! I didn't shove them into my face so I can not like nor see them because you bring them up all the time.
Why are they crushing my dreams to be pretty, liked, and either strong or "dainty" etc.. They said since my dad is born in 1950 I can't have anything. That I'm not the cute one.
This is all cuza Ellen. We don't have to do what anyone says. I just cursed at illegal harmful noises she supposedly put in my room, all the time! I'm tired of getting the new news from this *beep*. You can't do that. If you did it by force, I could call the police.
The way this won't work out is it's not really happening. I forget what else.
They said something stupid again, that I got this person for a long time. I've never met them in person even! I didn't shove them into my face so I can not like nor see them because you bring them up all the time.
Why are they crushing my dreams to be pretty, liked, and either strong or "dainty" etc.. They said since my dad is born in 1950 I can't have anything. That I'm not the cute one.
Dad Trying to Steal My Attention
He kept staring at me like he wanted it to kill me. I didn't wanna be associated with him!! like that. He does wrong things.
He kept getting at me. He spoke for someone I found I liked and burped annoyingly thinking about me making tomato soup in my NutriBullet, which heats it up.
He kept getting at me. He spoke for someone I found I liked and burped annoyingly thinking about me making tomato soup in my NutriBullet, which heats it up.
Faked Deaths
Steve Irwin
Brittany Murphy
Heath Ledger
Michael Jackson
Whitney Houston
Shirley Temple
Alice from The Brady Bunch
Robin Williams
Brittany Murphy
Heath Ledger
Michael Jackson
Whitney Houston
Shirley Temple
Alice from The Brady Bunch
Robin Williams
Why have they been so stupid?
They are semi-threatening me about joking around about a killing tragedy.. like pretending someone I like is guilty of it so I can't look up to/trust them. How crazy can you get? Don't you have a heart??
Feeling Bad
A New Trick - remember everything
They keep making ticking noises that unsettle me. I can't see well right now, neither.
If I can't go to college, blame them, the people experimenting on me/etc., who make the noises.
They keep making ticking noises that unsettle me. I can't see well right now, neither.
If I can't go to college, blame them, the people experimenting on me/etc., who make the noises.
What..
Are they talking back to me? Something bothered me. I just wanna forget about it. You know, I'm pretty sure they're dissing me or have a lot. It kinda hurts.. stuff like associating bad memories with my possible future kids cuz they can't hold it in, supposedly. Saying I can't have something weirdly that I might not have obsessively.
It just seems a bit sneaky, stuck up, and snooty. They "just go" to their next move if they aren't happy with me reporting them. I'm not sure what it is. I just noticed that, tho. I can see how it's pleasure-inducing to press a button to try to say I'm in trouble. Anyone could have done it.
It just seems a bit sneaky, stuck up, and snooty. They "just go" to their next move if they aren't happy with me reporting them. I'm not sure what it is. I just noticed that, tho. I can see how it's pleasure-inducing to press a button to try to say I'm in trouble. Anyone could have done it.
Sunday, July 26, 2015
Problem
They are acting like I have to listen to them, stupid little bad things, like I'm a little kid and just being *beep* when I'm not doing anything.
They also made it so my mouse won't turn the screen back on, tho it always was a bit iffy. I have a Chromebook.
They are still saying stuff, too.
They also made it so my mouse won't turn the screen back on, tho it always was a bit iffy. I have a Chromebook.
They are still saying stuff, too.
What's this?
More inserting bad words and insults to me via posters online? Who's gonna fess up to this?
Issue
They keep acting all *beep* to me, all tacky in what they do. They send cruel messages with like a lisp or something of that nature. Isn't that sad? It is nice in some ways, but it's actually an insulting message.
Why does it seem like Ellen is or people/also act like she is trying to keep me from meeting really cool people I like? and treating me like property to abuse? That's sad.
Why does it seem like Ellen is or people/also act like she is trying to keep me from meeting really cool people I like? and treating me like property to abuse? That's sad.
Problem
Why can you tell people I like what to do?
I think they just went and stimulated someone away from me. Is this for Ellen? I hope not, it shouldn't be/should stop. They have no right to be doing this to someone. Successful people don't want to be demented by that (her) kind of ***. What if we did it to her, would it bounce off like rubber? What if we surprised anyone, it would probably work for them, too? If you just now realized this is a bad thing, why are you doing it? You should not be hurting me! and destroying all my other relationships!!
I don't care if this is even done for Ellen and she didn't do it! It still defines my life now!
I think they just went and stimulated someone away from me. Is this for Ellen? I hope not, it shouldn't be/should stop. They have no right to be doing this to someone. Successful people don't want to be demented by that (her) kind of ***. What if we did it to her, would it bounce off like rubber? What if we surprised anyone, it would probably work for them, too? If you just now realized this is a bad thing, why are you doing it? You should not be hurting me! and destroying all my other relationships!!
I don't care if this is even done for Ellen and she didn't do it! It still defines my life now!
Another Joke
They joked around when I was excited Bella Thorne was going to where I was from and pathetically teased with me about death, a relationship. They later made amends like they weren't really gonna talk about it now but had to before. They come up, it comes up. They are being cruel to me showing me someone giving up their online life for this message/"occurrence."
More Things to "Take in Stride"
They are trying to rub in things for me to admit that I believe otherwise on.
Messing With Me
They are trying to train me with their stupidity. They are messing with my future possible kids.
What're you gonna do now?
Sit there and call me names when I did nothing to harm you? Someone on IMDb just called me an idiot, and I don't care if it was not them.
You know what Ellen's doing?
(Edit)
I feel I'm in trouble with her and that she has a punishing stereotype you sense in the shadows.
I feel I'm in trouble with her and that she has a punishing stereotype you sense in the shadows.
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Apology
I was so upset I thought I would not support hard workers cuz they didn't support me. It was complex and I meant no harm, but it was inappropriate and out-of-place. I don't know what I can do to make people happier. Work hard? Where? Everyone also deserves the chance to perform.
Hurting Me for Attention
They are following me and manipulating me and messing up my face by startling me.
More Clues, Tho
They are bringing up things with something/someone important to me just cuz they made me physically upset all this week. It's actually an idea of how some people are using specific people.
So what? You shouldn't be able to do these things. What happened to something else I liked, the spirit of being like Ellen? I remember I got upset all that week and they put someone else in my life from there instead.
So what? *beep* happens and so does other people. You can't single me out and ruin my life.
So what? You shouldn't be able to do these things. What happened to something else I liked, the spirit of being like Ellen? I remember I got upset all that week and they put someone else in my life from there instead.
So what? *beep* happens and so does other people. You can't single me out and ruin my life.
Upset/Apology
I wanted to not talk as much on here. My last postings were some abstract thoughts that seem rightly dismissed. Who cares about what I say here about that? Well, some people.
I think I was shocked at the negativity I recepted and tried not to blame anyone.
Well.. OK. I hope everyone is doing well with what shouldn't be going on. I dunno what I shoulda thought. I can think about it. I was actually talking about some abstract thought. It wasn't to address anything specific. I guess I felt unstable about my surroundings. I just wanted to jot down my feelings, but I didn't like the result.
So, I hope everyone's lives turn peaceful and better and that they learn that problems in life can be solved. There's a way out. True, I'm the one in trouble, tho, to be honest, I never start it and don't wanna stay and fight. I don't wanna be a problem to anyone. This is so crazy, the sacrifice people make to try to punish me "for nothing." That's probably making them grumpy, the wasting of their time or their anger at me possibly, maybe from a related experience. Who knows?
So, let's hope we can solve those problems and have a better time. *dodges flying object nearby*
I think I was shocked at the negativity I recepted and tried not to blame anyone.
Well.. OK. I hope everyone is doing well with what shouldn't be going on. I dunno what I shoulda thought. I can think about it. I was actually talking about some abstract thought. It wasn't to address anything specific. I guess I felt unstable about my surroundings. I just wanted to jot down my feelings, but I didn't like the result.
So, I hope everyone's lives turn peaceful and better and that they learn that problems in life can be solved. There's a way out. True, I'm the one in trouble, tho, to be honest, I never start it and don't wanna stay and fight. I don't wanna be a problem to anyone. This is so crazy, the sacrifice people make to try to punish me "for nothing." That's probably making them grumpy, the wasting of their time or their anger at me possibly, maybe from a related experience. Who knows?
So, let's hope we can solve those problems and have a better time. *dodges flying object nearby*
You can't say
whatever you want.
They keep threatening me, like inflicting weird ideas. I WILL NOT BE SINGLED OUT LIKE THIS.
They keep threatening me, like inflicting weird ideas. I WILL NOT BE SINGLED OUT LIKE THIS.
What It Is
Down to the bone this mess is Ellen's attempt to justify things that should not have become an issue.
Nothing to Do?
They make up extremities of "problems" they have with me, these sinners.
That's very rude, even online. Why do I hear someone make a point out of what I post on BlogSpot being bad cuz they think I'm a n***** and someone to be jealous of and therefore to them have no authority? Are you just connecting yourself to what I say and think it's wrong? I didn't name anyone and tried to cover "whatever's" going on, in general. I'm not the one fighting, which would moreso indicate attacking for something innocent for no good reason. All this paragraph turned into was explaining why I don't mean ill.
All I have to say it's rude and I argued it was sin. The rest was disclaiming meanness. I don't know if they can improve their situation, if they started acting sly as opposed to flat out rude. I didn't say much. Maybe, this is some overtone. You can't tell me I can't solve my problems, too, like finding out what made me upset after instead of before saying this. Maybe, I couldn't.
I guess it isn't a huge deal, but I believe what I believe happens. Look, if you want something else, you may as well see if you can pursue it, if it's a good thing. You don't need to waste your time degrading me racially like some joke - "A Ha Ha - I can say it." No, it's wrong. I don't really inflict myself racially on others when I talk to them. I need a life as much as anyone has.
This worrying is so stupid. I thought I was getting off of this. I think someone wants to talk to me, tho.
I'm getting threats, too. It's done via secret messages. Remember, my point is some thing I thought about. Most of this is an apology for what it is. This should not result in more trouble from the same people, but it will. They probably need to avoid me, from the look of it. I mean, I still do what I still do, in what I figure or figure otherwise. I don't mean I want to be alone and hurt. I just feel so threatened for getting upset at the noises in my room and cursing about it. Whoever made me mad feels ill towards anyone who are good to me and seem bloodthirsty to try to teach me some lesson I don't need. Look, I'm trying to go on with my life without being a lunatic who gets nasty secret messages.
That's very rude, even online. Why do I hear someone make a point out of what I post on BlogSpot being bad cuz they think I'm a n***** and someone to be jealous of and therefore to them have no authority? Are you just connecting yourself to what I say and think it's wrong? I didn't name anyone and tried to cover "whatever's" going on, in general. I'm not the one fighting, which would moreso indicate attacking for something innocent for no good reason. All this paragraph turned into was explaining why I don't mean ill.
All I have to say it's rude and I argued it was sin. The rest was disclaiming meanness. I don't know if they can improve their situation, if they started acting sly as opposed to flat out rude. I didn't say much. Maybe, this is some overtone. You can't tell me I can't solve my problems, too, like finding out what made me upset after instead of before saying this. Maybe, I couldn't.
I guess it isn't a huge deal, but I believe what I believe happens. Look, if you want something else, you may as well see if you can pursue it, if it's a good thing. You don't need to waste your time degrading me racially like some joke - "A Ha Ha - I can say it." No, it's wrong. I don't really inflict myself racially on others when I talk to them. I need a life as much as anyone has.
This worrying is so stupid. I thought I was getting off of this. I think someone wants to talk to me, tho.
I'm getting threats, too. It's done via secret messages. Remember, my point is some thing I thought about. Most of this is an apology for what it is. This should not result in more trouble from the same people, but it will. They probably need to avoid me, from the look of it. I mean, I still do what I still do, in what I figure or figure otherwise. I don't mean I want to be alone and hurt. I just feel so threatened for getting upset at the noises in my room and cursing about it. Whoever made me mad feels ill towards anyone who are good to me and seem bloodthirsty to try to teach me some lesson I don't need. Look, I'm trying to go on with my life without being a lunatic who gets nasty secret messages.
Problem
I'm being attacked for some reason by Ellen now. I could tell she was making fun of me that I can't think, "Gosh, I'm gonna k*** so-and-so," "because she said." Well, she acted like she annoys me with these noises in my room, which is sometimes fun for me now. I thought she was over it. I don't need to have her express her anger, do I? Come on, I freaked. She never flat out acted like, "Whoops, I did it," so, "I did it again."
Punishment?
For what? You can't do this to me! You just keep attacking me. I could call the police. That's all that I could tell with.
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Perpetuation
They keep saying things to ruin my life but help others. Like, "you're gonna d**." "You don't know so-and-so." "Don't think about such-and-such."
Upset
I don't need a cutesy act like dropping pellets in my bowl. I will not do something this stupid. I mean, if someone acts weirdly and inhumanly around me, I have a right to dislike it. I'm not crazy. No offense to anyone. They were being picky about it just now and didn't even make sense.
Apology
I dunno, but I got a funny message and it was kinda annoying.
They just made me feel lesser and off, too. Like with my surroundings. Someone went in for the k***. They, whoever that is, sure are bossy and ignorant of things, feelings, how to deal with emotions.
Whatever it was.. I don't like this new detachment/attachment I'm feeling with my surroundings. How will I get better and know if it's back to normal? They illuminated it.
They just made me feel lesser and off, too. Like with my surroundings. Someone went in for the k***. They, whoever that is, sure are bossy and ignorant of things, feelings, how to deal with emotions.
Whatever it was.. I don't like this new detachment/attachment I'm feeling with my surroundings. How will I get better and know if it's back to normal? They illuminated it.
Apology
I don't want anyone tossing and turning over something I said that's okay but seen a certain way. It makes me wonder about that catch phrase. It's like everything I say is bad. I did change the arrangement. I guess how you treat me just kinda comes up in its own good time. I wonder if you can think of a better way of saying or not saying that. Maybe, I just have to suffer the special effects for myself. Make sure these superstitions don't turn viral into a problem. I'll be interested to know what the problem is in people's fetishes of interpretation and false associations for whatever reason, seems to exist, at least I think I know. It is a weird thing to say, in a way, what I said. I tried to change it and used the phrase just on myself. It still seems a source of negative energy. Some things are "best left unsaid," others I dunno.. I know the time thinking can go overboard into impossibility, at least for me in my experience, I think. Ugh! So hard, but sorry, whatever it is.
Problem
They are turning things that I did that aren't that bad into legends to center on. *Beep* I wonder if they had to pay to get people to promote things like that. Some people have *beep*d up my relationships with other people in the world. What do you think I am, some toy for sinners to experiment on and play around with?
Sneaking up on Me!!
They acted like someone else deserves someone I care about and not me like at all anymore.
I was upset once by accident about something like that, so what!!
I was upset once by accident about something like that, so what!!
What about me?
Why is Ellen acting like I'm punished every day? Who do you think I am? What's this, a long time/forever, just joking around laughing at me? This all sounds very illegal to me.
I don't mean to be mean and risque.
I can deal with this. }:) Or can I? I'll still come posting here about my irritations.
WHAT IS THIS ARE YOU CRAZY
the world going against me? They're rubbing in my dad. I'm not even supposed to be with him, necessarily, tho I would like a good relationship and not sure how much I should still be with my parents.
Being Mean..
This person they said made me close to my dad. That's not something I want. I already have a working relationship or used to.
I don't care about
Ellen and people going crazy that I'm some loon in trouble. I'm being violated. Like it doesn't matter--but just for me.
I don't wanna sit here
listening for perverted things said to me that shouldn't be.
I don't care if I kick if I'm mad.
I don't care if I kick if I'm mad.
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
What can I do?
To stop Ellen or the experimenters from doing things against me.. things in the past hurt about in the far future?
Apology
Did I say something that is upsetting to Ellen? She wants someone to torture me? I said I didn't agree that what I did was that altogether 100% wrong. Of course, I don't wanna suffer like this, and I don't have to. This seems really stupid, no answers or anything, just everyone hurting me.
I dunno, she made a pretty big statement for what it's worth. That makes me sad.
I dunno, she made a pretty big statement for what it's worth. That makes me sad.
In Trouble
What do you think of being teased when you didn't do anything and didn't know someone had special needs? Mustn't matter, huh?
No One to Help Me Out
nor rub off as a good influence. I should have had a blog, etc. See the opportunity around me, like money-related.
Even if it's healthy
to punch an expensive sofa.. I don't really want to do that. I get mad.. but I found a way to hold it in.
Being Mean?
What's wrong with what's going on with Ellen? She wants people to be mean to me, and she's being suggestive about those who aren't. That's totally wrong! To tell someone to be mean. I'm not to be thrown out by Ellen!
Problems
These people are literally surrounding me with random insults that hurt, like that I will be totally m*****ed by my father's skill cuz him doing that some made me squeam in my chair. So, why does everyone do that? Be m*****ed? What about the m*****er? Now, they are pretending I just want him to m***** me, like it's exciting and special but just for me. How stupid is that?
MORE THREATS
just a "poopin'" on out
"I am not one of them.
I picked Bella out carefully.
You can never meet met!"
Why do they go around saying I could never meet someone etc.?
This was my thing, not someone else's. You just give everything I earn to Bella!
They are putting in more things for Bella telling me, too.
I didn't do anything. Ellen did!
"I am not one of them.
I picked Bella out carefully.
You can never meet met!"
Why do they go around saying I could never meet someone etc.?
This was my thing, not someone else's. You just give everything I earn to Bella!
They are putting in more things for Bella telling me, too.
I didn't do anything. Ellen did!
Made Me Mad
I was stomping my feet on what more I could jog.
They said this person was a cute little kid to rip out my hair in shame of my race.
They said this person was a cute little kid to rip out my hair in shame of my race.
More Stupid Messages From Who Knows Who
They made it look like a certain body part like I'm icky to touch it.
Hurt My Feelings
Another message underneath a message.
They took something I knew about like it wasn't for me and "knocked me out" and gave it to someone else.
They took something I knew about like it wasn't for me and "knocked me out" and gave it to someone else.
I bet that person
turned on more. Like, making it seem like Ellen is laughing at me trying to be nice.
So, did that person do it?
Probably. However, I see more going on I can talk about.
I see it's all some game. Poo!
I see it's all some game. Poo!
Something's wrong
with my dad. He's getting more and more of a nuisance in my presence. I want them to stop and they don't. Then, I have to wait until I get here to post about it.
What right do you have to abuse me?
Much less say this is my dad's house and he can have noises in the garage if he wants?
I don't care about your judgement
in what I say. If something comes up, I like to discuss it, but apparently you're not much of at least a writer yourself and so won't know about that from experience. How did you even know everything that you need to from someone you don't talk to? We agreed I had a point it seemed, tho I went back and deleted it. You're being pretty nasty. I think I know who has the straw that broke the camel's back.
They won't shut the *beep* up.
They keep being pathetically annoying, dishing in more and more news. You all are on a craze.
Why do you keep saying
or acting like I did something and am *beep*? You can't do this to people/anyone.
Messing Around
Just to me, they act like I am out cold while someone else gets the attention and not me. That's a mean picture. I already said I didn't care, why would anyone, about if other people get attention?? What's the joke, tho? Why in general is this message in the other meanings? What did I do wrong? No one likes me, thanks to Johnny Depp, Tim Burton, and Ellen DeGeneres. I want back the *beep* I "lost." My are they a pack of pretty puppies.
Harming Me
They did something to make me feel off and said someone I like needs to teach me a lesson. No one needs to teach me a lesson! What's up with my dad? I've suffered for years. Did I do 1 thing and now you take advantage of my life, like an evil creature sucking the breath from a kid?
Something I Can't Fix
Sorry to Ellen if she'd be offended. I dealt with whatever just happened with the laughing at me not being allowed to think of the word "k***."
Look, they won't shut up.
I don't wanna get important things zonked from my life. And things ruining it.
Bossing Me Around
They said if I think I have a technological experience it's dea** for my dad. Dea**?
They're threatening my lifestyle, too.
They're threatening my lifestyle, too.
Monday, July 20, 2015
"It's not it for me."
..I didn't mean any harm. I just didn't feel well about something but guess it's too late sorta. It probably isn't what you think. It's another bad idea, tho, in a way. I didn't mean to do anything. I might come to. Sorry. I guess I was mistaken about you all. What counts.
Illegal Activity
So, she was kinda physically violating me in what she really meant. Whoever told her to do this is doing something illegal.
Incompetency
This is not being handled appropriately.
It sounds like a lotta air between what happened and what was done about it. Like a decision just had to be made.
It sounds like a lotta air between what happened and what was done about it. Like a decision just had to be made.
Who is she to you all?
The Queen?
Well, she's been pretty mean in her secret messages to me and what other people vye for with her.
Well, she's been pretty mean in her secret messages to me and what other people vye for with her.
At Least
when I thought of the k word it was a spin off my wanting to be violent and throw something at her rather than an original thought.
I am really upset about these people *beeping* at me.
I am sorry I thought of such a violent thought to my mom. I see Ellen is mad because I had some episodes about her being mean to me acting like I deserve nothing. Why would she tell me not to get upset with a certain word and then have it come up more and in hard times with others? You guys are just wasting my life.
I am really upset about these people *beeping* at me.
I am sorry I thought of such a violent thought to my mom. I see Ellen is mad because I had some episodes about her being mean to me acting like I deserve nothing. Why would she tell me not to get upset with a certain word and then have it come up more and in hard times with others? You guys are just wasting my life.
Pretty Sneaky and Nasty
So what if I don't like someone else getting something and me not cuza Ellen. She doesn't have the right to do this to me.
Problem
My mom acted like someone gets something special and I don't and that my possible future daughter is counting over and over so many times and then just got louder. I felt like thr*wing my cup at her. So, I thought of, "K*** yourself." I could not stand it and she would not quit it! If this is true, I can't get the police to believe me. What can I think of that? And someone I like might have done it? Told her that message? How can you expect illogically for all of a sudden bad things like this happening to you? If I messed up in life I did not realize it. I am innocent and people keep wanting me to look bad like I'm nothing but dirt under their dirty nails.
Psyching Me Out
They said I am not special with someone but then mentioned another person for something very special.
Strange
It's as tho something else upset Ellen, my authority over her treatment of me.. she cannot trap me like a prisoner. How animalistic is doing something like that because it's like she can't help it but to try to punish or harm me and those I like or who like me. That's pretty much what that says.
This is kinda an important blog. I can't just remain. I feel that my life has been intruded upon.
I said I didn't mean anything, but I was put up to a lotta stress.
Isn't it funny tho about the authority I have over my life?
By animalistic, I don't mean to be sarcastic. I just mean, it seems like "just being human."
This is kinda an important blog. I can't just remain. I feel that my life has been intruded upon.
I said I didn't mean anything, but I was put up to a lotta stress.
Isn't it funny tho about the authority I have over my life?
By animalistic, I don't mean to be sarcastic. I just mean, it seems like "just being human."
You know something's wrong when
every time you eat or are with people you could get upset and wanna throw something at them.
A Clash in the Maze
I'm not doing anything now. Even if I don't for a long time, I'm still in trouble. I just get upset when people bother me, that's "what I do wrong."
Dependency
I don't like the dependency on this blog I seem to have at all hours. See, I'm all aired out now and ready for a day.
How Casually She Says It
I think Ellen's accent is funny, but it's also mocking towards all. "It's Gunna Be'a BaBy." That's what she seems to say when she thinks she should "punish" us.
Trapped
I AM A GOOD PERSON - What is this happening to me, trying to punish me if I get mad at something that was done wrong to me?
Why does my dad keep going "batshit crazy?" Maybe, he was laughing at me trying to overpower me as though I were submitting when I try to be nice. Crazy Central Florida.
Why does my dad keep going "batshit crazy?" Maybe, he was laughing at me trying to overpower me as though I were submitting when I try to be nice. Crazy Central Florida.
I NEED TO LIVE MY LIFE
without it being because I cursed because Ellen acted like she was responsible for the annoying noises put in my room.
So what?
People get mad at Ellen, and I'm not living in her confines!!
All my problem is is her being mean to me and telling me what to think of it then and making fun of me like she wanted me trying not to think of the word "k***." I can hear her laughing at me, just wasting my life telling me what to do. I'm not "Gonna Give up a BaBy." You are in the wrong! Anyone who doesn't get it is pathetic.
All my problem is is her being mean to me and telling me what to think of it then and making fun of me like she wanted me trying not to think of the word "k***." I can hear her laughing at me, just wasting my life telling me what to do. I'm not "Gonna Give up a BaBy." You are in the wrong! Anyone who doesn't get it is pathetic.
Pathetic Old Boulder
My dad keeps acting possessive with a bad impression of trying to be a motherly woman.
How pathetic
Ellen is so mean. She acts like only people from Down South can be how they are. If she thinks I'm bad, she thinks about trying to punish me that, "It's gonna Be'a BaBy." She got upset when I didn't like Bella being mean to me as a punishment and posted a picture of a baby.
Ellen feels the need
Only 2 more days to send your @Nest video and win a trip to my show! I can’t wait to see what your kids are up to. http://t.co/QWQPGfMu6L
— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) July 20, 2015
I will not bow down to that person she wants me to to punish me. I'm not trapped under her claws.
Something Else to Be Upset Over
I care about my relationship with my dad, but everyone isn't cooperating and making me closer than I want to be that means nothing to me in certain ways. I am not here to just push me away from others and too much with my dad!
Also, he wiggled something at the grocery store like he was "feeling" for my nose and losened it up. I could feel it.
Also, he wiggled something at the grocery store like he was "feeling" for my nose and losened it up. I could feel it.
Sunday, July 19, 2015
Reason for Everything
I know this is all wrong punishment, but it's good to consider there's a reason for everything. I started ignoring people.
I asked you what..
..you can't just takeaway my relationships like that.
I don't mean to ever have inflicted any of me on anyone.
I don't mean to ever have inflicted any of me on anyone.
I'll get it.
So, let's fight about them. I was eating and kept thinking of the word "k***" because that's exactly what they don't want. I don't care about it and don't really wanna say it. I'm not s***ing up for you, tho.
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