Saturday, September 12, 2015

Problem

Think you can just get away with all this?

Problem

I am not playing by my dad's stupidity to play a little game about behavior.

Problem

I can feel them observing me after they *beep* at me.

Problem

They are threatening my relationship.

Problem

They keep associating bad things with things I will think of later.

Problem

They are making me think badly of myself weirdly.

Problem

The hypnotic noises are really annoying.

Problem

I AM NOT A PROBLEM

Problem

They are doing bad things to my possible future kids and saying it's true.

THIS WAS LAST NIGHT

GET OVER IT

Problem

They're associating me with uncomfortable things with them.

Problem

They're having someone I happened to like think of someone else too much.

Problem

They keep making hypnotic noises!

Problem

Why don't you understand that people get mad, sometimes?

Problem

All these people are sending me nasty messages doing things that are mean.  They basically all throw in the towel like they're so cute.

Problem

Every time something goes wrong, something elaborate like Oompa Loompas singing happens.

Disfunctional

How can I function with all these bad things happening to me?

Problem

My oldest aunt is sending me mean secret messages.  She has no business in doing this!  Trying to say I need to be punished!!

Problem

They're reliving their hatred of what I said in glory.

Problem

They keep trying to punish me for telling my mom she was acting badly around me.

Figured It Out

I'm pursued after fixing one problem and this without reason.

Apology

If I got upset about anything sensitive.

Edited Posts

Corrected Post

Feeling Sad

I dunno, my mom tends to shout at me when I complain about things like I did, she makes the conversation go that way.

WAH

I wanted things not to go just wrong, but this is horrible.  I feel like my brain is bleeding.  You know, I did an exercise that used my head a lot, not an excuse, but..

I just wonder what to do about my brain.  I feel more aware and scaled down.  It's not so much what I lost but that it was so confusing and ended up with a dead end as always with my mom or dad etc.

Uh Oh

I have to deal with my dad tomorrow, too.  He can't be happy.  I didn't mean to keep fighting, but I didn't make a goal.

Lying

That's just what my mom thinks she should do..

I kept at her.

I'm not here..

..to figure this dribble, tho.

WELL

IF IT'S NOT ELLEN'S FAULT, THAT'S OKAY

Ya

Who cares about my mom, anyway?  (See previous posts, which makes this an appropriate, un-mean light.)

So

Why are you still onto me?

Problem

Things were going so well, and I was dealing with stuff.. just had a hard day and my mom made it even harder while I was eating from the day.

I don't "have" them..

..I can't fix my parents, I'll just have to ignore them.

Problem

They're going to extremes, "I want, I want."

It's like I lost something physically.

Correction

Why is it like my mom has a problem on purpose or Ellen did it?

Upestting

My mom seems able to manipulate me.

I was trying to stay positive this time.

I just had to see, and it came out like yelling a bit.

I guess you can go

and leave me alone, and I'll hopefully make my way outta my parents's lives.

Gave Up

My mom for a change was acting nicer about someone but then kept boring me down, like our relationship is not.

I probably can't take this.

Things were going so good.

Problem

My oldest aunt is being nuisance-ish.

1st

My music education major and singing courses are cancelled.

Then, I can't feel good at home on meds I don't need, and it's embarrassing.

I don't wish to lose anything..

..but to rectify

Ellen

She acts like my parents deserve to be in a rut.

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Well..

How shall I go about this?

Who cares?

My mom's not that important.

I sense..

..a disquietude

SO WHAT

IGNORE THE VOLUME I NEEDED TO SPURT THAT OUT

Problem

They are plotting against me!

Problem

I'll just ignore my mom.

What - am - I - gonna - do - now?

They'll take all the things I like cuz I don't want the meds!

Problem

I don't like how my dad treats me, but I haven't been able to get to him and figure it out.. just tell him he bothers me sometime.

Problem

I'm sorry, but my mom is a consistent nuisance and irritation because of this and that's stupid!

Get that woman.

No one has a right to be mean to me because I was confused and revealed my mom's age.  I didn't mean anything bad.

:(

So what if I speak with force sometimes?  I'm not schizophrenic!!

Problem

I wasn't hollering like my mom.  I was just expressing myself.

I see you evil idiots

looking at me take the meds like they're important.

I don't like you

being mean to me!!

Don't laugh..

..Ellen at what you did

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Problem

My mom won't stop acting like she's torturing someone I like.

HOW DARE YOU

HOW DARE YOU HAVE ME ON PSYCHOTIC MEDICINE IF I LIVE WITH MY PARENTS - WORTHLESS!

I just got my mom.

She was acting funnily after I told her about a video I posted on YouTube with her in it.

Problem

They're rattling on about when my mom, as usual, won't stop being mean to me.  I flipped on the kitchen sink handle when my mom acted like a boy I liked in Europe didn't matter to  see.  YOU STARTED IT.

Issue

My mom is just being trashy.