Problems

They just did a whole bunch of shit.  I am just innocently trying to live my life.

Sorry

it comes out rude.  It just goes by faster.  I think it'd take forever to change it.

Mistake

I don't think my brother should have been "made" like that to tempt me to think about it, like that matters.

Maybe, this is all a dream, so then why is my mom so tacky?  Does my dad want her to change?  Why did he inflict things like my brother, my younger girl cousin, my grandma .. on me?

Family

My dad has nothing on my brother.  He supposedly caused him his problems and limitations and seems to be just barking at my mom at any opportunity in secret code making her tacky and not the beautiful woman she once was, like he expects her there.

(You got nothing on me.  What I said is what I said.  You don't go and pick on words like they mean some extra insult cuz maybe you're looking for trouble.)

(This is for my mother.  I didn't mean it defiantly, and you can't tell me what to do cuz you never listen to me when I tell you you are.)

(This post is made for the well-being of a person and not a made up one by my dad.)

Rectifying

I probably owe a lot of apologies.

How do you feel about..

..people going into your private life and not making a good toy out of your favorite character of a movie you like?  Did the company say, "Okay?"  They could have made that decision.  Isn't it sick?  Those people are so perverted.  (Why do I feel Ellen DeGeneres would have a problem with the word "perverted" being used?  I didn't say it meant something particular necessarily, meaning I didn't!)  :(  I can sew, tho.  I think that's what the other table is for.  I was big on paper crafts, as a child.

Why?

Why would my mom get cancer, 1st behind her eye, because of "something I did" to Ellen, when it was not started with something I did?  I was upset about something, my mom got glasses from getting into 2 car accidents.  I just made a joke that wasn't "proper" but made sense only to me.  I went back and apologized and to ask if any reason was seen to take it down.  I went to take it down and it was gone.  I just said Ellen was indeed m*********** in pleasure over my mom's misfortune.  I believe she was, but I don't believe that's how I should have said it.  And I don't think it was really that word.  I don't remember if I blotted out what it was, and it was discussed by me on IMDb on her board under her name.  I guess it got cut out.  So, I thought to myself for some reason, this is adult humor, she can't do anything "about it," anyway, and forgot to add it was adult humor, maybe the meds I'm on are wrong, very possible.

So, why this happen to me?  Am I too invincible for it to have happened to me, yet?  I think I said sorry, too.  I am pretty sure my mom getting glasses has something to do either with Ellen or how I posted that I got glasses on my website before..

I do not wish anyone anything ill and apologize for the misinterpretations in this kidding state of mine.

So, maybe I should be nice.  I was cursing, too, because I felt upset, but I like blotted it out as *beep* or was not talking about a person, worried it'd be about Ellen, I used my dad when he hurt my feelings a lot.

I did not start any of this.  They just got mad at me.

Think about it more.  Why cancer??  Do people know how to give others cancer?

Yes, I do like being nice.  I actually made up a thing where I don't believe in being nice to people who are mean, and that might be what the problem for Ellen would be.  What is so bad about cursing on my own blog?  It wasn't to hurt anyone.  I decided that, too.  I kinda stopped.  I feel manipulated to have thought that would be necessary of me.

Apology

I didn't mean to be suggestive saying it was mean..