Annoying People

I think Ellen and all are trying to brainwash me.

Put Off

My mom came in busting a move that she was Bella with everything I had for little reasons that aren't reasons, and now Bella is picking on me for the curse words coming to mind when I didn't know what to do or think and saying she had a good time with someone I just met.  Is that a way to put superiority in your day?

The Most Annoying Thing

Ellen online

No More Threats

I don't want this "oh so and so will never read a word you say" and "oh you don't deserve this but someone else does."

Won't Sit Here

and wait for you to just tell me off each time

I don't believe in

trying to mess me up.

"1st Impressions"

If you only want to count one of my first impressions, you'd have to promise not to be unreasonable.  My life is so unfair.

cont.

It's very hard to remember to ignore things when people are under your skin.  They seem like a total distraction and totally wrong.

In case I haven't said this on my blog..

..I don't think I can hold up to perfect thoughts.  I can say whoops!

How can you escalate my mood to being so mad I

blog a fuse and you bring to mind curse words?  I am mad, but I mean to settle down and not curse, not hear of bad news as in news that is bad.

I'll just have to try and remember I can chose not to get mad and can ignore the situation.

Try Try Try

At least, I am trying.  I have that feeling when you've done something wrong, cuz when you try and solve the problem the mistake is easy to see, too.

Chose not to be.

I just wish I chose to ignore.  Chose not to get mad.

Nuicances

They're saying to do disgusting things and that I will never get something.

They won't stop.  They're addicted.

The computer hasn't been loading to the internet, too.

Attacks on New Relationships

OK, I have a problem.  Sometimes, curse words come to mind when I'm mad and they make me feel better it so happens.

My dad said about a certain "relationship" I just said, as I went to get my spoon outta my Saint Patrick's Day shake from McDonald's, "Kill her, out/now."  How tacky is that?  He kept coughing.  My mom came out and said, "Bell," and was bemused.

I was about to try and watch TV.  My mom made me upset and also my dad.  They also reiterate about not reading what I write for saying something Ellen did.  They are all over the word "'So,' Ellen., you blah blah blah my mom.."

I think my Gramma is up to no good thinking she has a right to come into my life and say that I started something with Ellen.  She just doesn't like older kids and people who aren't all white like her.

Telling Me to Have a Mental Disorder

Are you telling me to be schizophrenic?

Being Annoying Weirdos

They said my chair was toxic.  How immature.

"I Won't Mention Any Names"

Well, I'll try not to mention people when not needed.  We just don't have the magic words.

Better for Someone Else

Things are on the ball for someone else.

I don't know any special reason, but it hurt my feelings to see the sequence of events.

Messing With Me

They are messing with me and destroying my free aspirations about people who are older than me.

Controlling My Relationships

They said someone would not ever read anything I wrote.

My Way of Taking Care of Things

If you didn't do it, you wouldn't feel any guilt.  I'm not your slave.

Bad Blinking

So, Ellen, you went in my home and made my mom make a lotta noises when she was doing the dishes that made me blink more.  That's what my mom thinks.  You are wrong to say I can't complain about what you do.  You think it's bad.  Well, I'm not your slave or whatever.

What can I say?  A fact's a fact.  I'm just saying what the experimenters did.  I just chose how it should be said.

Worried

Well, whoever's fault it was, I'm just shit now.  They're telling me I did something.  They probably are worried about when my next mistake thought or action happens.

Looking for Trouble

They are being inappropriate to me.  I hope I don't get upset.  "It shouldn't be this way."

Supportive

I'm supportive of anyone following any good, legal dream, like getting the attention they want from others.

Getting Mad

No, I can't get mad at anyone.  I am just mad I am crap.

My Kindest Regards

I do not mean to insult any people.  These problems of dishonesty need to be resolve.  I'm not doing shit for the world.

Problems

I was upset that people are all upset at me for things I've done.  Supposedly they just keep reaching further and further into my past.

I was just justifying a point to myself.  I was told again I cannot have a certain relationship with someone by the people experimenting on me.  Being ashamed like that, that's pretty pathetic.

Also, Ellen DeGeneres wrote some attacking hints in her Tweet that made me wonder if she was trying to fight me and give me brain cancer.

My dad kept texting me while I was watching something I like on YouTube.  He keeps trying to keep me from being able to focus and better my life aesthetically as a person.  He's crazy.  He has a crass living habit.

My dad and Ellen claim to be listening to other people to be mean to me.  It's like they think maybe I can't deal with it.  My dad should not have re- tuned in to my life.  It's sickening the way he is.

Oh, and the point I justified to myself was that I was right and anyone too scared to be nice to me is claiming things that hurt my life.  I just felt so upset that it had to be this way.  I wasn't considered crap as much before.  That could be one reason.  I started to put things together.  I feel that my dad has prevented me from making relationships in the world online.  That is totally unacceptable.  He shouldn't even be in my life like that all of a sudden.  I want him out in that way.  He doesn't care I'm already 28.  I mean, when I meat prestigious people and famous prestigious people, he cuts in the way like a lunatic, lame-o.