Nasty Message

I'm getting a nasty message via the way of someone online.  A death threat.  Stop ruining it with someone I like.  You keep bringing them up like this.  It's an alluding to something that has happened.

Bad Experience

What's wrong now?  My dad's just being a big baby.  He came out into the living area after me and acted like I don't get what I got before, like he's some big baby joking around.

..Always a Threat

Anything good that could happen to me would make Ellen actually question its validity.

Problem

They are randomly telling me stupid mean things.  Oh, wait.. something they didn't like.

Threat

That I can't enjoy making my soup.

He wants a war he says in secret message

about who really got it at the table.  Well, he never cares.  I didn't want to think that, but he did.

"He won't freakin' shut up."  He wants to be onto me like a crazy psycho.  Maybe, I should just learn to evade his nasty looks.

Really, tho.  I'm not trying to poke fun.

Threats

They are acting like I have to make listening to shit from my dad my "moment" that's so special its time is like undetectable, something to do with New Orleans, where Bella Thorne is now.

Looking Forward to Something

I am looking forward to the soup maker, and my dad was mad at me and acted like he was pulling scum form his eyes.

Still FIghting

Look, I didn't really start this.  Is it Ellen?  She is seeming to not.

What do you want now?  Am I here to discuss something or have messages like this??

"Discovery Zone!"

There are good ways to be stimulated.

Pressure?

Why does Ellen keep pressuring that person I like to go goofy and try to make this whole thing worthless?  I just saw an ad about Ellen even quitting, but it didn't come from a "reliable source."  There was a rumor before, as well, about having a baby, you know adoption or with her partner.

I'm just concerned.  I want an explanation.  I guess it's just a game to most.

Threat

They are threatening me that this person should be stimulated rather than stimulating.

Threat

They made it sound like this is serious.

Secret Messages

Ellen has posted once a day on Twitter and various on Facebook.  She's suggesting things in a dynamic way to out someone's senses into submission and take from me the ability to look up to them cuz she keeps acting like they're stimulated.  Ellen does this for crowd pressure, but she may have made other reasons.

I mean, come on.  She keeps playing around.  She recognized another feeling in posting a swirly blanket on a dog.  Also, they tried to hurt me with the idea of Dr. Phil on TV have a swirly pattern on the white of his ring finger nail, the res short.  It's gone on to affect others.

She "doesn't like to do it," but it happens.

I'm just really upset.  It's not like I'd care to do her like that.

Things That Matter

I'm pretty good.  I don't take people being mean to me.

What!

How can that even happen?

Won't Stop

They won't stop.  They said they would never do something but because of that.  What if it's true?  It's not my fault.  Who cares?

Maturity

This can't keep happening.  It's like a battle for me to lose and be immature.  Once when we moved here to our 2nd apartment in the area, I asked my dad if I was more mature than most people or something, and he said, "No."  This was 2006 or 2007 I think.

Upset

Things were going good.  I wanted him to stop a few times, as usual, but he keeps acting overbearing over me.  Wasn't last night a pretty good night?  I just feel bad and hopeless because I don't have that security.  FYI, my head hurt a lot from his driving so I was in bed for like 12 hours this time.  I woke up and found my meat was cooking and I had the rest of the stuff to prepare.

The News

I accidentally thought of the word "k***" and about it a little.  I feel my dad is being perverted like he's holding me like a naked baby injecting unwanted feelings into me.

It makes sense..

..that Bella gets it.

I said no.

I don't need to talk to you like that and be a hot potato freak that's afraid of the truth or whatever.

Still

Still going!

Mentioning

They're mentioning her to bring up negativity.

Not Stopping

They won't shut up.  They sound so pathetic.  "No!"  They are talking about someone else getting it.  I'm not putting up with this for anyone/Ellen.  Ellen's gonna just act like she didn't really do it.

You gotta stop this..

..You guys are ruining my life, and Ellen seems pressed against it, as well.  I don't know if the part about Ellen is true or some kinda joke.

They just said..

"No, you are not to have her forever."

Don't listen to that..

..to your saying Ellen DeGeneres has an issue with me liking someone.  What can we do about this belief?

What are you, a hot potato freak?

They are acting like someone just wants me out of the relationship like only they can have it.  Like, they can act like it's for them without any problems.

Relationship

They are pressuring me to let someone else be friends with someone but instead and things.  I understood their interest, but I didn't say I wanted to play around on eradicating only my participation.  When I thought I understood their fervor, they acted like I wouldn't do it cuz I gave in.

I wonder..

I wonder where this leads.

Problem

I'm not trying to fight.  Maybe, I should stop "clinging" to this blog, but at least my therapist can see what goes thru my head.

Why 1 thing and their world is over?

Problem

THEY WON'T STOP and are threatening me.  How perverted of them to dig up what's important to me and I didn't do anything.  This is so perverted, they are..

More

They won't stop.  This is sick.

What?

I don't agree with their threats of my relationships.  They are saying they won't let me have them.

Apology

I guess I was just upset.  Obviously, I still am.  Oh well.  What can I do?  I'm not a pervert.  I'll just have to move on to more of my business.  I guess they don't like me upset at them.  0:  I wonder what my responsibilities are other than staying healthy now.  Everyone has responsibilities or attitudes in life.

Wah wah wah.

I'm trying to stay stable.

Problem

They are being perverted intervening in the stability of my relationships and my dad is making fun of me for them.

Like, I'll just be minding my own business pretty much, and they bring up something stupid and keep fighting me boning away my favorite most important things.  Of course, I negate anything they say or try to do away with it.  What the *beep* things are going well, who's the "party 'pooper?'"

Today's Forecast

Everyone is going around acting as tho they had to stimulate someone people look up to because they don't think anyone should actually help other people.  What kind of lazy thinking is that?

I did my fair share of opinion and thought they just wanted to traumatize her and those who look up to her.  There are good ways to be stimulated, period.

Edit

I changed some posts.