Friday, September 25, 2015

And Out of Nowhere

Sometimes people mean just about anything and in the experiment you don't know who said it.  If it's a good idea, it has some meaning!

Problem

I notice they take things from me now whereas before they didn't.  They are maneuvering me.  They are saying I say things in ways I didn't say them.  I'm not even "just getting something out."  If you didn't like me for some reason, you should have said so in the 1st place.  They know I had a reason to say what I did and they know what it was.  They always "stretch the truth" of the idea of "how awful it is."

Problem

What do you think about making up "rules" for me? with "incredible" punishments?  No matter what I say, nothing will get rid of this.  I didn't do anything illegal, and I thought what I was doing was okay considering the situation and otherwise.  Something made it hard to think and figure it out, at the time, otherwise.  I receive no warning for numerous dislikes people have for what I do, and the consequence is illegal what they do to me.  I'm 29 and if someone is trying to make me uncomfortable is a problem.

Another thing to note is I'm not in trouble unless something else, technically not wrong, happens and my parents/dad get involved secretly and make me feel really bad almost all the time it seems.

It's been, like, 10 years, here in Orlando, Florida, US, and they won't stop.

This could be the root of the problem.  Life seemed to improve in the world until 2009.

Problem

People are making fun of my dad plus don't understand the difference between him and me.  I am left with only him or, like, no one in my life when I have no friends.. so I don't learn much from different people, like most people, tho I try hard networking online more than others, it seems, who have friends, even via social media ways of keeping in touch.  This has set me off track and made me go a little insane.

Problem

I can't get thru the day I'm so depressed.  It feels like when I moved to Louisiana and I had no friends and gained some weight and had insufficient outlet to exercise in a way that was beneficial to me.  No one can make me feel better.  I already have been seeing a therapist.  I also have a psychiatrist who keeps me on the same medicine.