Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Looks like
someone ruined the New Year. They all know I was upset at my Gramma for almost killing my mom on purpose who has cancer. They don't care who done what!
Glitch
My e-mail stayed highlighted after I checked it. They just want me ot feel inappropriate and won't stop watching.
It's funny when
you see someone live it up to please bad people. Then, they think they are living honestly to act tackily in some way concerning their instinctual side.
I actually have a right
to post about someone if they are mean to me.
They are trying to act like they're waving their hand in front of my face, again. They left the highlight color on as yellow.
They are trying to act like they're waving their hand in front of my face, again. They left the highlight color on as yellow.
These people just won't shut up!
So honored to be participating in the Red/White Song Festival today and I'll see you next summer Japan! Happy New Year! #NHK紅白
— Idina Menzel (@idinamenzel) December 31, 2014I AM NOT CHINESE. STOP HATING ON ASIANS. I DON'T WANNA RECALL THIS. WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN? GET A LIFE!
M*****ing Criminals
In private, they keep sending messages that are suggestive to me. I feel trained like in Operand Conditioning to feel a certain way because it makes me so mad and I just wanna put it on my blog. Out of nowhere, this machine in the garage keeps making these annoying grumbling noises with evil messages or threats to my sanity and serenity.
I do hope
things get better. It is a lotta work to undo saying "Ellen." She does some pretty radical things, tho. I'd like to keep her up in the list of suspects, but the rest of what I said was more rushed.
Misplaced Post
They won't stop bothering me. They keep being nasty, like they're waving their hand in front of my face.
I feel irritated.
I posted Ellen's name, and it just irritates me. What if she read it? If she doesn't, is it okay? It's not like I said something bad unless it was about something bad..
Mimic-ers
They keep getting at me for feeling jumped at by the idea of someone having kids, what they're like, all jumpity and excited and trying to like control my life. It's on the news, the anchors. They keep even more acting annoyed at me for it. What? What did I do? If that's all a kid will know, then they will be jealous of others. It must be a different generation. I guess they are just chosing one persona. When I moved here, that was not even an issue if you were annoyed at the idea of pretend kids. But now?
There's more. This is pathetic. The experimenters.
There's more. This is pathetic. The experimenters.
What It Means
..I can talk to people more if they are nicer to me. I wouldn't talk to someone who's acting like I'm psycho.
Issues
I have a feeling people will be nicer to me.
I think they were upset I accidentally hit my cup with my plate. I just did it looking more deliberate. I totally did not know I did it but didn't say anything, just looked innocent.
I think they were upset I accidentally hit my cup with my plate. I just did it looking more deliberate. I totally did not know I did it but didn't say anything, just looked innocent.
Wondering..
..If my Gramma went down to South Florida to spite me, why would it be right for her to ruin my cousin's baby boy? I don't think "people are disillusioned." That could only mean worse for me. I got up and felt mad at my Gramma eating cuz she made such an annoying noise that hurt my mom's breast cancer, and she did it on purpose and acted like it was to k*** her maybe.
They're just messin' with me.
Want me to waste more energy posting on my problems blog and getting away with it.
Who is this to/in what way?
I'm just reporting my problems. It's not to be nasty, but I felt people hated me. I should deal with it. I didn't address it to anyone. I dunno what to think about that, but it seemed like the same message, either way.
Moreover, I am sad that girl deals with this. I just know Ellen is nicer to her to punish me. Why look up to someone like that, why look up to anyone then? Ellen is using her and has offset her, it seems, or she just wanted more than 1 thing different.
Moreover, I am sad that girl deals with this. I just know Ellen is nicer to her to punish me. Why look up to someone like that, why look up to anyone then? Ellen is using her and has offset her, it seems, or she just wanted more than 1 thing different.
Just for Her
No one cares about Ellen. She is mean. She does stuff like pleasure I deserve in her place, like it's not even embarrassing.
I see people going around in glasses. I had said she was m*********** in pleasure putting my mom in glasses. I had just said I was happy to get my new contacts for the 1st time. I said that cuz she should be put in her place and she's an adult. I didn't mean anything sarcastic about the word! Just like symbolically, like how things were. I should have started to explain things already when I posted them. She thinks she's a joke spreading to others that they won't believe it tho she does not care but only looks for things that are obvious and easier to understand, like that what I said was bad, tho if you don't look at it sarcastically it might even seem nice/okay. Something went wrong. I was sure it was because of her.
I see people going around in glasses. I had said she was m*********** in pleasure putting my mom in glasses. I had just said I was happy to get my new contacts for the 1st time. I said that cuz she should be put in her place and she's an adult. I didn't mean anything sarcastic about the word! Just like symbolically, like how things were. I should have started to explain things already when I posted them. She thinks she's a joke spreading to others that they won't believe it tho she does not care but only looks for things that are obvious and easier to understand, like that what I said was bad, tho if you don't look at it sarcastically it might even seem nice/okay. Something went wrong. I was sure it was because of her.
Do you want this to happen to you?
You are a slave to this girl? You do everything I earned in place of me to her?
They also made those posts while I was awake.
What do you think I am, some animal or a n*****?
They are also doing messages to turn me off a certain way.
This girl has nothing to do with me. No one cares about Ellen.
They also made those posts while I was awake.
What do you think I am, some animal or a n*****?
They are also doing messages to turn me off a certain way.
This girl has nothing to do with me. No one cares about Ellen.
They won't quit.
2 guys who I liked talked to one another, and that girl posted a picture of another guy giving her money.
What's Even Mare Annoying
I think they are mad at the table I kept breaking off their insults by when I put my spoon on the plate. They were the ones bothering me. They were nicer at dessert for my brother. About that, why do I have to worry about others thinking my brother should not matter? I can just see it. Most people would be nice cuz they have hi self esteem, anyway.
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
Acting Uppity
They keep acting all giddy and uppity while I feel too relaxed, that feeling you get when someone waves their hand in front of your face.
It seems
my grandma has gone crazy and is thinking of my possible future daughter/kids being hurt, like they're her diarrhea.
I'm getting countless private illusions
of things to connect to this looking at the IMDb Soapbox. Those bad guys got nothin' to do.
Awkward
I don't like what I posted about in the specific/minor problems blog.
I didn't say it in a bad way. I just explained what it was. They keep doing it, so I explained what it was. It's a minor problems blog, anyway. Every day I get cyclical messages. Supposedly, I "did something," tho I try to ignore it. I can't seem to ignore all this. If I see someone do something, my parents want to do it to me.
I didn't say it in a bad way. I just explained what it was. They keep doing it, so I explained what it was. It's a minor problems blog, anyway. Every day I get cyclical messages. Supposedly, I "did something," tho I try to ignore it. I can't seem to ignore all this. If I see someone do something, my parents want to do it to me.
Upset
And my brother was just celebrating his birthday and sent me a message related to Ellen and then got in trouble cuz I started posting her name and started a new blog. This probably is a message for if we have kids. When they stick out 1 finger, like that girl when her dad was holding her.
PG - Rehashing a Bad Moment
Someone posted a picture of their dad, who happens to be Latino with dark black hair.. He was skinny when she was born, but he turned into being very bloated and round-looking. He stuck one of his fingers out and it looked strong, for some reason, maybe saying he loves each of his daughters. They keep rubbing that image into me.
What You Think You Deserve to Get
Just because you're all loving and caring does not mean you can steal from another's relationships. Isn't that the opposite of being nice? You forget that you could all like the same thing. But I'm saying that's not the secret formula. Lotta people are nice and deal with/put up with a lot. They don't want everything taken from them.
Further Thoughts
How is it that you think you really made it and I really didn't? You can't always come in and insult me and expect me to agree. This is getting rather vicious. It comes to say that my mom has cancer. People are vying for this girl over me, like I ever did anything. If people pay attention to me in a mean way is up to them. I get annoyed when that girl and my parents are involved sometimes. It's always a nasty, false message. I also feel because of Tim Burton and Johnny Depp I had false views of the world and cannot easily change in my environment. I feel stuck. I feel Ellen watching me making sure that girl always has something to do with my gains.
They seem to think they can be on top, as well. Now, they are putting in my face something I don't want put in my face by a person.
They seem to think they can be on top, as well. Now, they are putting in my face something I don't want put in my face by a person.
Just to Make the Report
People don't seem like .. I don't feel like anyone is paying attention to me since this girl and since my life became an experiment 10 years ago. I feel like I alone am unaccomplished. I don't feel I've done nor earned anything, while other have "done something" at all in their lives, opposingly. If I earned something, a reputation or respect or affection, it all slides down the chute to this girl. They pretend she's me: the look about her, her demeanour, her track record, it all. She is a beautiful human being, like the rest of us, but I'm sure she's been platformed on a pedestal. Ellen acts like she isn't being touchy about her to punish me, but I'm sure that rumor is false. She did it to get ahead and got me to not name her when I talk ever about these things that she thinks is obvious she did. I liked not bringing her up, but I already brought this up.
Problems Galore
(1) I keep getting made fun of for something I did before we moved away from Florida at home. Who'd know? My friends already dumped me.
(2) Ellen DeGeneres started paying attention to a girl. 1st, she got mad for no apparent reason and filled my room with bothersome sounds, clicks and the way my computer loaded or had annoying glitches. 2nd, after I cursed about it, not about her herself, she decided to "wait until I was done" and made her big move saying she didn't care about anything about me but instead it's all for this other girl. Now, everyone's doing it, like so. I had put her at the top of my Twitter followers. It wouldn't matter if it was just in Ellen's hands. People copied her, 1st I remember was Sarah Brightman and then Josh Groban. I think someone I haven't yet mentioned does it, but he keeps acting guilty or unsure partly about it, tho he's the current hottie around and the girl is lucky enough he takes a liking to her tho I see that the most recent hottie doesn't follow her as much in spirit and will.
(3) Every supper seems gone amiss. I just feel so attacked, like intruded upon, poked at, invaded.. I just make noises that sound like "stop" and that cut off the negativity. I was sad today they all pounced at me. I accidentally pushed my plate into my cup without knowing and not knowing why I did it. My brother did that on purpose once.. They kept reacting like I started it, but I didn't. How pathetic. Don't baby me and tell me what to do. I know to ignore it. Anyway, it was sad because it was my brother's birthday meal home from college.
(4) Sacrifice: It seems as though people are making my life shit and dedicated to shit insofar as Ellen and that girl go. I see lotta people in glasses. They might have known I got upset of something to do with glasses. I see people growing beards and mustaches. It makes me wonder. Now, tanning your skin? for that girl? because she's mixed but "fair?" The big thing is everyone is like in glasses now. The general thing is examples of ways people sacrifice for either female. They have more love for that girl. She doesn't have to do anything. They're just using me. They are using me as a foil to her. They want to act like they are something big and bad, but they're not big, just bad.
(2) Ellen DeGeneres started paying attention to a girl. 1st, she got mad for no apparent reason and filled my room with bothersome sounds, clicks and the way my computer loaded or had annoying glitches. 2nd, after I cursed about it, not about her herself, she decided to "wait until I was done" and made her big move saying she didn't care about anything about me but instead it's all for this other girl. Now, everyone's doing it, like so. I had put her at the top of my Twitter followers. It wouldn't matter if it was just in Ellen's hands. People copied her, 1st I remember was Sarah Brightman and then Josh Groban. I think someone I haven't yet mentioned does it, but he keeps acting guilty or unsure partly about it, tho he's the current hottie around and the girl is lucky enough he takes a liking to her tho I see that the most recent hottie doesn't follow her as much in spirit and will.
(3) Every supper seems gone amiss. I just feel so attacked, like intruded upon, poked at, invaded.. I just make noises that sound like "stop" and that cut off the negativity. I was sad today they all pounced at me. I accidentally pushed my plate into my cup without knowing and not knowing why I did it. My brother did that on purpose once.. They kept reacting like I started it, but I didn't. How pathetic. Don't baby me and tell me what to do. I know to ignore it. Anyway, it was sad because it was my brother's birthday meal home from college.
(4) Sacrifice: It seems as though people are making my life shit and dedicated to shit insofar as Ellen and that girl go. I see lotta people in glasses. They might have known I got upset of something to do with glasses. I see people growing beards and mustaches. It makes me wonder. Now, tanning your skin? for that girl? because she's mixed but "fair?" The big thing is everyone is like in glasses now. The general thing is examples of ways people sacrifice for either female. They have more love for that girl. She doesn't have to do anything. They're just using me. They are using me as a foil to her. They want to act like they are something big and bad, but they're not big, just bad.
Not Blaming Anyone
This is ridiculous my mom had eye surgery on one eye and has 2 kinds of cancer. This is unacceptable. I can only say I partly blame her for never sleeping enough. I don't know what it really was, but without blaming anyone even it is still a matter of consequence that is unacceptable upon terms that exist.
Overview
So, the incoming negativity fails to cease. My suspects are the following:
(1) people who experiment on me, nurses, psychologists, "social scientists"
(2) my dad
(3) Ellen DeGeneres
(4) other people who are popular like Ellen DeGeneres
I get the messages from them thru little noises like clicking in my room, which is the garage. It also comes thru being in contact with others, usually my parents, who have their own nasty messages. The computer loads suspiciously, as well, almost every time to me it feels, at least on certain parts.
The messages are little insults to startle me and make me feel out-of-control for some reason, maybe in anticipation of what they chose to do to me, legal or not legal. Hey, I even got hints that they crash planes and kill people to stimulate me, like say Ellen decided to do it, and she wouldn't just say no cuz maybe she thinks there is some case where her royal highness can give such decrees.
I don't know why I'm bad to people. I only got mad if someone did something to me!! You're supposed to, like you getting mad at me for no real reason. I do little things for fun or sometimes slip up a little, like in attitude, and this is what I get, the one who is called Miss Perfect by the whole class? That's suggestive and selfish to barge in and control my life constantly sending me these messages. I feel all drained! Like they soaked the goodness outta me. They don't understand life. They don't live it! Sorry Orlando, too, me running into poor, weird people. These people single me out and don't ever listen to me worried about my race and how because of my parents I turned out. I was doing fine until something happened. See, they are sinners. That just proves it. I had a miserable life, as though it weren't my parents fault. I was that dorky looking figure of a person with straight black hair cut in a bob with bangs.. What do they do now? Act like they can control me. They keep saying I'm shit because of who each of them is. But they do what they want. They don't want me ahead. How sick is that? People don't like me cuza that. I won't live this life! Something's going down. I'm already 28. No, I do not want to get back totally at my parents. They did let me go thru schools that teach nothing in social studies. I don't think slaying them would be the answer. This isn't TV. That's not what I meant by "going down.." I would not mean that obscurely.. so. At least, I explained this one. So, what is this? Is my life that bad because of one thing? I am always really good.
(1) people who experiment on me, nurses, psychologists, "social scientists"
(2) my dad
(3) Ellen DeGeneres
(4) other people who are popular like Ellen DeGeneres
I get the messages from them thru little noises like clicking in my room, which is the garage. It also comes thru being in contact with others, usually my parents, who have their own nasty messages. The computer loads suspiciously, as well, almost every time to me it feels, at least on certain parts.
The messages are little insults to startle me and make me feel out-of-control for some reason, maybe in anticipation of what they chose to do to me, legal or not legal. Hey, I even got hints that they crash planes and kill people to stimulate me, like say Ellen decided to do it, and she wouldn't just say no cuz maybe she thinks there is some case where her royal highness can give such decrees.
I don't know why I'm bad to people. I only got mad if someone did something to me!! You're supposed to, like you getting mad at me for no real reason. I do little things for fun or sometimes slip up a little, like in attitude, and this is what I get, the one who is called Miss Perfect by the whole class? That's suggestive and selfish to barge in and control my life constantly sending me these messages. I feel all drained! Like they soaked the goodness outta me. They don't understand life. They don't live it! Sorry Orlando, too, me running into poor, weird people. These people single me out and don't ever listen to me worried about my race and how because of my parents I turned out. I was doing fine until something happened. See, they are sinners. That just proves it. I had a miserable life, as though it weren't my parents fault. I was that dorky looking figure of a person with straight black hair cut in a bob with bangs.. What do they do now? Act like they can control me. They keep saying I'm shit because of who each of them is. But they do what they want. They don't want me ahead. How sick is that? People don't like me cuza that. I won't live this life! Something's going down. I'm already 28. No, I do not want to get back totally at my parents. They did let me go thru schools that teach nothing in social studies. I don't think slaying them would be the answer. This isn't TV. That's not what I meant by "going down.." I would not mean that obscurely.. so. At least, I explained this one. So, what is this? Is my life that bad because of one thing? I am always really good.
Sunday, November 2, 2014
STOP IT
I am partly naked getting ready and they had something associated with "fur" I don't wanna remember. I wanted them to leave me alone. I just thought, "Leave me alone," cuz they are annoying.
Problem
Earlier, my dad was thinking of my post on people thinking, "Vietnamese," around me. He thinks he's making all my potential lovers marry and reproduce.. or whatever
Problem
My dad coughed when my alarm went of early and I was in the kitchen. He made my now female one be notified and sounded like he said, "You shouldn't meet him .. now," and coughed twice. I see Portia is up and posted a cat and something else.
I don't need to be manipulated like that.
Oh, it was, "No it's not. You shouldn't meet him .. now," I think. When he does stuff he says he can control me and I'll find out what he did.
I don't need to be manipulated like that.
Oh, it was, "No it's not. You shouldn't meet him .. now," I think. When he does stuff he says he can control me and I'll find out what he did.
Problem
Someone was mean at the bus stop and signalling traffic to call me Vietnamese. I had gotten up and left him.
Problem
They won't stop talking. It was the Alice in Wonderland board. They flashed a brunette on the screen and I just did my hair white. I talked about that in an early blog of mine.. goth stuff related to Tim Burton sorta.
Problem
A Japanese sock poster posted so that I could see the posts magically appear down when you click on them. I don't want to associate this. This is a real problem.
Erased Message
People keep thinking "Vietnamese" around me and I don't like it and I made a face, and now it looks like a pizza. God Damn those people.
You know..
..There is something wrong with my face. And the conjoined twin thing was interesting. I still don't see why I'm getting messages in this fashion. I don't see any comfortable way of communicating like this. A lotta stuff just goes on my blog, and I'd like a phone with a physical keypad. I don't even know what could be interesting. I try to be politically ept on my regular blog, so-to-speak. It's probably not good, now, though, cuz of this stuff happening. So, I'll have to consider deleting more posts. I'm lying in bed, getting a rest. I do need it..
I don't know who..
..but someone said something.. "leave Christina alone for what's not in it in her face." A car. I realized getting up when I rest can be bad for me. It might be more related to the onset of cancer. What's wrong, now? I said, "Why don't you get a life?" That's because it's so pathetic and tacky that you come around and do great things for little things that go wrong. Now, what about my face.. are you inhuman? Is this some sort of a double-sided joke? What's wrong with saying, "inhuman?" I can just see you now, resting in bed, like a little tot. I mean, I literally thought I got that message, how annoying. I'm sitting here wondering what to do, whether I should trim my posts or post them. I know more will go on when I can't post about it. I'm not here to juggle your jokes.
Saturday, November 1, 2014
Problem
There's an inside joke about when I was born. I was lying in bed and now don't feel as relaxed.
Problem
I erased a post about not having my Gramma's eyes imagine connected like some goof, to mine, like to someone else, and they probably put the conjoined twins video up cuza that. Why can't they get a life?
Confession
I felt propelled to think something I didn't want to at the table that could not be good for others nor myself. I wonder if I was under some sort of influence. Things can pop out.
Website Update
Help
The people experimenting on me are trying to connect me to someone in a way I don't want to be.
The people experimenting on me are trying to connect me to someone in a way I don't want to be.
Something I Touched On
Supposedly, some deaths in the news were done on purpose, like by people connected to experimenting on me. No, we do not approve of this, and there is no explanation.. I realize it may have been done to affect me, but that was wrong. I know these people, and so do others.
Confession
I got mad at the screen and said things I shouldn't have, something my parents were watching. I humbly regret this "sin.."
Friday, October 31, 2014
Well..
..I can see why they did it, to remember the night. I just liked the old picture. I hope it's for them because if that's what they want.
Is this adding up?
What'd I do, now? Someone changed their name to a Halloween thing just now, probably because someone just got married. I can't have someone manically chasing me down for reporting what they do to me, supposedly. That's not wrong. It shows they might be wrong.
Scribble
Isn't it actually rather grotesque to have your "family" prostrating themselves amongst others?
At the end of the race..
Imagine my relationships being severed by "interpreting" what I read. I was hinted not to use any names but know that someone will say I have an attitude when I don't and can. Just another excuse to lose more relationships when I was always in every game running.
What's the point?
What's the point.. there's a diarrhea influx of more secret messages probably connected to experimenting on me now still.
Wow
How much working time do I waste sitting here being upset about the people involved experimenting on me?
Problem
Someone on IMDb got married on Halloween. I bet someone from the experiment had that happen to annoy me. I can't attack him on the board, though.. it would be too weird and ruin our friendship. It's because they had my cousin have a baby on Christmas Eve this coming Christmas and I was upset for the same reason but didn't like attack my cousin even who kinda attacked me but don't take that seriously cuz it'd be a lie. You know this is a bad thing and makes me very mad. It might be okay, but it was done for a bad reason.
Problem
My parents are being really annoying to me.
I think they are waiting a typed apology of something they haven't read.
I'm also tired of figuring why I deserve to enjoy watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" or something.
Why do weird things happen to me? I know it sounds weird to write about.
As for the "apology," I already resolved it. You can't seem to depend on things like this for some reason. I guess I could have tried to say it nicer but couldn't think of how then, for some weird reason, probably other people.
Also, they tried to cross my eyes and think I'm trash now along with others. So, that made me mad.
I was made to feel I can't be something because of my parents but that people bribe my parents to be happy.
You cannot do this to me. You act like you're the one who has the comfort. You can't see what the Hell you're doing.
I think they are waiting a typed apology of something they haven't read.
I'm also tired of figuring why I deserve to enjoy watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" or something.
Why do weird things happen to me? I know it sounds weird to write about.
As for the "apology," I already resolved it. You can't seem to depend on things like this for some reason. I guess I could have tried to say it nicer but couldn't think of how then, for some weird reason, probably other people.
Also, they tried to cross my eyes and think I'm trash now along with others. So, that made me mad.
I was made to feel I can't be something because of my parents but that people bribe my parents to be happy.
You cannot do this to me. You act like you're the one who has the comfort. You can't see what the Hell you're doing.
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Mistake
I don't think my brother should have been "made" like that to tempt me to think about it, like that matters.
Maybe, this is all a dream, so then why is my mom so tacky? Does my dad want her to change? Why did he inflict things like my brother, my younger girl cousin, my grandma .. on me?
Maybe, this is all a dream, so then why is my mom so tacky? Does my dad want her to change? Why did he inflict things like my brother, my younger girl cousin, my grandma .. on me?
Family
My dad has nothing on my brother. He supposedly caused him his problems and limitations and seems to be just barking at my mom at any opportunity in secret code making her tacky and not the beautiful woman she once was, like he expects her there.
(You got nothing on me. What I said is what I said. You don't go and pick on words like they mean some extra insult cuz maybe you're looking for trouble.)
(This is for my mother. I didn't mean it defiantly, and you can't tell me what to do cuz you never listen to me when I tell you you are.)
(This post is made for the well-being of a person and not a made up one by my dad.)
(You got nothing on me. What I said is what I said. You don't go and pick on words like they mean some extra insult cuz maybe you're looking for trouble.)
(This is for my mother. I didn't mean it defiantly, and you can't tell me what to do cuz you never listen to me when I tell you you are.)
(This post is made for the well-being of a person and not a made up one by my dad.)
How do you feel about..
..people going into your private life and not making a good toy out of your favorite character of a movie you like? Did the company say, "Okay?" They could have made that decision. Isn't it sick? Those people are so perverted. (Why do I feel Ellen DeGeneres would have a problem with the word "perverted" being used? I didn't say it meant something particular necessarily, meaning I didn't!) :( I can sew, tho. I think that's what the other table is for. I was big on paper crafts, as a child.
Why?
Why would my mom get cancer, 1st behind her eye, because of "something I did" to Ellen, when it was not started with something I did? I was upset about something, my mom got glasses from getting into 2 car accidents. I just made a joke that wasn't "proper" but made sense only to me. I went back and apologized and to ask if any reason was seen to take it down. I went to take it down and it was gone. I just said Ellen was indeed m*********** in pleasure over my mom's misfortune. I believe she was, but I don't believe that's how I should have said it. And I don't think it was really that word. I don't remember if I blotted out what it was, and it was discussed by me on IMDb on her board under her name. I guess it got cut out. So, I thought to myself for some reason, this is adult humor, she can't do anything "about it," anyway, and forgot to add it was adult humor, maybe the meds I'm on are wrong, very possible.
So, why this happen to me? Am I too invincible for it to have happened to me, yet? I think I said sorry, too. I am pretty sure my mom getting glasses has something to do either with Ellen or how I posted that I got glasses on my website before..
I do not wish anyone anything ill and apologize for the misinterpretations in this kidding state of mine.
So, maybe I should be nice. I was cursing, too, because I felt upset, but I like blotted it out as *beep* or was not talking about a person, worried it'd be about Ellen, I used my dad when he hurt my feelings a lot.
I did not start any of this. They just got mad at me.
Think about it more. Why cancer?? Do people know how to give others cancer?
Yes, I do like being nice. I actually made up a thing where I don't believe in being nice to people who are mean, and that might be what the problem for Ellen would be. What is so bad about cursing on my own blog? It wasn't to hurt anyone. I decided that, too. I kinda stopped. I feel manipulated to have thought that would be necessary of me.
So, why this happen to me? Am I too invincible for it to have happened to me, yet? I think I said sorry, too. I am pretty sure my mom getting glasses has something to do either with Ellen or how I posted that I got glasses on my website before..
I do not wish anyone anything ill and apologize for the misinterpretations in this kidding state of mine.
So, maybe I should be nice. I was cursing, too, because I felt upset, but I like blotted it out as *beep* or was not talking about a person, worried it'd be about Ellen, I used my dad when he hurt my feelings a lot.
I did not start any of this. They just got mad at me.
Think about it more. Why cancer?? Do people know how to give others cancer?
Yes, I do like being nice. I actually made up a thing where I don't believe in being nice to people who are mean, and that might be what the problem for Ellen would be. What is so bad about cursing on my own blog? It wasn't to hurt anyone. I decided that, too. I kinda stopped. I feel manipulated to have thought that would be necessary of me.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Monday, October 27, 2014
It seems
if I stop saying Ellen did it Ellen did it she starts laughing, like if I try to ignore it.
I don't get it.
People want to blame the good person for everyone's supposedly unwanted oddities in ways.
Upset
I kept rattling my stuff and was worried about my mom and lost my mind about my dad. Please pray.
No Offense
I know I said Ellen gave my mom cancer, possibly by accident but not possibly not. It's not a nice thing to say, but I don't know how to explain myself. It's not really okay, but I'm not gonna do anything bad to her. If it was accidental or she didn't do it, I hope she's okay, too.
Problem
My dad also went on sending secret messages like that now I wasn't special. He's got a problem.
Feel Better About Something
I feel better about not worrying too much about Ellen DeGeneres cuz I just saw her on YouTube.
Making Me Do Everything, Letting Me Do Nothing I Want
What's this from Ellen, "I know in the end you're gonna win." Like, I have to make other people beat me fakely?
What I Found
You can always have someone make a person to suffer. That would mean we'd all be suffering.
Being in My Life
You know you've gone too far. Pushing me to get mad. Taking out what in my life is okay that makes me happy. You can't even be in my life. You never talk about this stuff online. You don't sort out your thoughts in an online journal.
I was upset rationally.
You all had to go and change things. You won't leave me alone cuz I'm always tired.
Stop
Ellen DeGeneres is attacking me. Can someone do something about it? I thought she was nice on the show. What about my mom getting cancer? Don't just keep doing what you're doing like that tacky thing!
Stop
She won't stop mimicking her own mom to me. Ellen had better do her nastiness out in the open so we can know what it is and stop it. That's why I'm posting this. They just changed something again on the computer when I finished posting that. How lame. Can't you leave me alone, you criminals? You wasted my life!
Can't you ever be there for someone?
You think I said that Ellen gave my mom cancer somehow, and she thinks it's bad. Well, I'm just saying I think she did. And that means everyone will get mad if they find she did.
Maybe, it was coupled with my mom's other hardships. I don't know how she kept going nor if there were any signs.
Maybe, it was coupled with my mom's other hardships. I don't know how she kept going nor if there were any signs.
Did you know
Ellen is very sensitive to how we treat her mom and an accident is why no one is positive with me to this day?
I can already see
that Ellen did it. I said Ellen was m********** in pleasure that my mom got glasses from 2 car accidents putting pressure on the area to the side. What else could have caused it in secret? And if you wonder about if she didn't do it, it was an accident. So what if I said that? She's a conformist. She probably did that, too. That's 1 reason I said it. I posted later it had been adult humor untested. I went to go remove it almost a year later maybe and it was gone.
Problem
Why does Ellen DeGeneres to think there's a reason to give a snoot that I'm never that good because I'm supposedly spoiled for something that's good and work? I see them slamming stuff in my face.
1 Thing I Know
You all did something bad I didn't do, and so you feel Ellen is better than you. You are trying to drag me down to your level. Admit it. It's true. You'd better stop being bad to me.
No, you will not tell me how to live my life.
They want me to stop liking people who look like Ellen, but that's what my life is. You can't tell Ellen to stop being Ellen.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Like, get them outta my life!
I even said so on Facebook they weren't really in it.
I feel people creeping up wanting to kill me for losing control when I was mad at being hurt. No one is there for me, and they shoulda been before "this" happened.
I feel people creeping up wanting to kill me for losing control when I was mad at being hurt. No one is there for me, and they shoulda been before "this" happened.
Mal-Punishment
Punishing me when people are mean to me and I get upset or I indulge in or process private thoughts is already wrong. I will not give up anything for anyone's lost fantasy for my life.
You do not provide me with a way. You do not even let me live peacefully. You all try to test me. They do. They do it repeatedly and expect me to say sorry for it.
You do not provide me with a way. You do not even let me live peacefully. You all try to test me. They do. They do it repeatedly and expect me to say sorry for it.
The Joke
My dad actually is coming out trying to admit that he's in for "the program" that I should be considered too old to look to Late Boom women as a mom. My mom won't let me use her age, though.
If you didn't understand, he said it in a tacky way, it seemed. He didn't literally say it but seemed to be getting the message across that Ellen DeGeneres is indeed special and should not have anything to do with me cuz I'm not good enough.
The joke keeps coming up that Ellen DeGeneres is too young to be like a mom to someone my age.
If you didn't understand, he said it in a tacky way, it seemed. He didn't literally say it but seemed to be getting the message across that Ellen DeGeneres is indeed special and should not have anything to do with me cuz I'm not good enough.
The joke keeps coming up that Ellen DeGeneres is too young to be like a mom to someone my age.
"Did It"
My dad came in and bobbed his head he wanted me to be a case for wanting younger women as my mom.
Problem
They won't leave me alone, they want to talk about this later, like tomorrow. There's nothing to talk about.
Tweet by Me
Trouble's a brewin'. Some people just can't get enough of what's wrong with them and just aren't there for you..
— Chris A J B (@ChrisAnnJB1986) October 27, 2014This can't be..
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— Lauren Lee Smith (@L_L_S) October 27, 2014
I just learned not to
get mad at something. There is always a better answer. It was sorta an accident closing the cupboard loudly. I have to remember my sick mom for that.
Problem
They went wacko, my parents, and started talking about school and stuff for my kids being the result of my saying no to suffering a day for thinking of the word k***. They talked at length suddenly.
Help!
I cannot say for one moment that Ellen nor my dad did not help my mom get cancer ultimately. Supposedly, it was stress partly from my being upset when she's mean..
Please Pray for My Mom
I made a loud noise after she wailed to stop. It's so easy to do. I have no self-control ingrained in me, I'm a blank slate.
Feeling Bad
Maybe, when you're with other people it's okay, but my dad rubbed in my older aunt as opposed to Ellen and people her age as being associated with me being my generation. I don't feel well about it. He said that's what I have to think about tomorrow. It makes me feel bad.
He did say it in a joking way, but he still said it.
He did say it in a joking way, but he still said it.
Apology
I hope you are okay, whoever is watching.. can't see why not. I did say, "Nigger" to them. I could not stop being mad about Ellen punishing me when I was good.
Apology
I can only hope and pray everyone is alright. Let me extend myself to an extended set of people who are not in my life and that things with them are going fine.
A Lady at the Store
was flipping me off and thought since she had bright pimples that she was really fairer and better than me, but when I got mad the pimples on my face turned that.
I can see
her brush aside everything I say like I have to curse in caps to get her attention so she can tell me to go away. Ellen.
Stop
Ellen DeGeneres cannot act like I did anything wrong and then "punish" me. Stop lying when you act sweet, you are mean, and you insist it is if I don't believe that's what it's for. I mean this in a strong way. Stop brushing it off as stupid chiming.
My dad sold some shit when he sent secret messages with the noises he made saying things like my daughter is "not even the sea." And Ellen is "not even my sister" funning around I'm tiny so much but younger kids have it good with attractive people like Ellen's age.
I've been terrorizing my room and knocked down my spotlight lamp with a blanket, pondering on Ellen and her stupid punishments.
My dad came in here and asked if he could help, and I still don't feel good. I don't wanna waste my life doing shit.
All I did was come in the room and act like I was saying, "Stop it," over and over for saying there would be no tomorrow because the word "kill" was used with me by neighbors as I came home. They tried to pull out my bottom and legs because I was upset Ellen had cute boobs because I believe she took mine away a long time ago. I'm worth shit now!
You can't keep saying Late Boomers and their younger kids generation are better!
My dad sold some shit when he sent secret messages with the noises he made saying things like my daughter is "not even the sea." And Ellen is "not even my sister" funning around I'm tiny so much but younger kids have it good with attractive people like Ellen's age.
I've been terrorizing my room and knocked down my spotlight lamp with a blanket, pondering on Ellen and her stupid punishments.
My dad came in here and asked if he could help, and I still don't feel good. I don't wanna waste my life doing shit.
All I did was come in the room and act like I was saying, "Stop it," over and over for saying there would be no tomorrow because the word "kill" was used with me by neighbors as I came home. They tried to pull out my bottom and legs because I was upset Ellen had cute boobs because I believe she took mine away a long time ago. I'm worth shit now!
You can't keep saying Late Boomers and their younger kids generation are better!
Something Else
Ellen does that we're not supposed to do to her
She imagines me asking something like some kid with a ball in its stomach looking up with a small, thick, wet nose. Stop getting me close to my dad, too, in bad ways. Just because I said something you are gullible and listen to what you think my Gramma believes and then you "do it again" and actually that's ill.
She imagines me asking something like some kid with a ball in its stomach looking up with a small, thick, wet nose. Stop getting me close to my dad, too, in bad ways. Just because I said something you are gullible and listen to what you think my Gramma believes and then you "do it again" and actually that's ill.
STOP IT
MY DAD IS BEING SICK AND WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE, HE HAS AN ANNOYING SNIDE ATTITUDE THAT IS UNATTRACTIVE
HE WANTS ME TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR OLDER PEOPLE AND OTHERS YOUNGER - STOP IT - IF OTHER PEOPLE LOOK LIKE SHIT IS THEIR DEAL NOT MINE, THEY WON'T LISTEN ANYWAY - STOP BEING VIOLENT TOWARDS ME
HE WANTS ME TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR OLDER PEOPLE AND OTHERS YOUNGER - STOP IT - IF OTHER PEOPLE LOOK LIKE SHIT IS THEIR DEAL NOT MINE, THEY WON'T LISTEN ANYWAY - STOP BEING VIOLENT TOWARDS ME
QUIT IT
ABUSING ME - STOP TEARING UP MY BODY - ELLEN STOP DOING STUFF TO US AND SAYING WE CAN'T FIGHT BACK
Problem
Looks like my dad is being suggestive, like his oldest sister, about Ellen DeGeneres, pleasuring her.
Problem
They startled me with a noise. You keep coming in and bothering me and I don't care about what you all do.
Problem
These people are acting like they have something on me when I don't say what they do. They changed something more quickly this time, too. This is sick. And it's for Ellen. It should stop. I need my real life. I'm not gonna die like this.
Problem
There are weird ads on IMDb, too, of nonwhite people with their mouths injured or grown the wrong way. I even saw Ellen think, or have a dream, about it on the show. I sense this is for a stupid reason, like going to Disney when my aunt supposedly wasn't coming and then said to my dad she'd tell me later. Ellen just messes up my life. I want real friends! Everyone just follows Ellen like a zombie.
Problem
Yesterday, Ellen DeGeneres took happiness in having a poster tell me she wants me dead, and now a poster I just said I liked put up a "Siamese" (like Asian) cat as his profile pic. She can't tell a person who likes being white they are Asian. I don't care about what the show says, it's wrong. This was nasty, and there was no reason to do this. I don't care about being safe and that someone else does it because I hate on them, too, or sometimes am able to ignore it if it seems like an accident.
Saturday, October 25, 2014
Friday, October 24, 2014
STOP IT
WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME THE BLOODY HELL ALONE
I was just thinking of ignoring the shitty messages I get so I won't be bothered, and they came on triumphant. I will never be manipulated by you, you sick immature people.
I was just thinking of ignoring the shitty messages I get so I won't be bothered, and they came on triumphant. I will never be manipulated by you, you sick immature people.
Problem, Again!
My dad was reclining (STOP IT) on the sofa for Ellen looking fat and stupid and cozy to represent me, like I had to check Twitter when I didn't start the BS.
What'd I do, now?
I guess I didn't care what was said about thinking of v*******. I gave them the opportunity to take it back, but they didn't. :( They are making me look bad. I have been trying to keep to myself somewhat.. I wonder if that walk didn't help. I won't feel I deserve anything, in the end. I mean, I live a certain way. I want certain things. Like, I want to be influential again in the arts and told I did a good job. I want pleasant meetings with people and not have me end up like this! I'm trying to be a certain personality!!
Problem
I got some shitty messages via Twitter. Against my liking Florida by Ellen. Like having kids. What's her problem?
So..
..Maybe, I should remember later I can post this on my blog. Why should it matter if you did something to me I can't do to you?
My dad is dangerous.
He threatens to hurt anyone who's not mean to me.
Get him to not be able to do that cuz it's working.
Get him to not be able to do that cuz it's working.
I was thinking..
..he's a bit stupid like his parents said (SHUT THE HELL UP!!) but he wants to be left alone to have a good time without people flirting him into them instead.
:(
So, what? Stop trying to get my dad close.
Do you want me to forget you? Yes, I thought of s****ing, but you made fun of how I did that to my mom.
You can't bother me like that.
What can I do to get this to stop?
Do you want me to forget you? Yes, I thought of s****ing, but you made fun of how I did that to my mom.
You can't bother me like that.
What can I do to get this to stop?
Not Sure
Guess I forgot you think it's okay you don't like mental violence. I thought of a s*** when my mom thought my future baby would be shit and not someone else, too.
More Problems
I t****** you for calling my future baby affected and fat from my dad and for making the feeling of harmed, poor boys into my future kid on the right, the boy now.. when I was dressing and on one foot! You're a sicko! Need I say more? You are not right to be mean to me. I don't care. I'm not gonna keep saying this. My therapist does squat! And you associated those boys with a rattle and more happened this morning! GO AWAY!
Is anyone out there okay??
Is anyone out there okay?? I'm so sorry.. I just do this and think it's not like I'm invading anyone but rather putting forth.
What did I do wrong? I didn't call anyone anything, and *beep* is okay.
What did I do wrong? I didn't call anyone anything, and *beep* is okay.
Problem
You got hung up on something. Nothing just happened. Go help yourself. You're a real problem.
Problem
I can see people gaping, but I'm not the one with a problem. I said stop talking to me like that!
Problem
You have to listen to me. Stop talking. You said I didn't study so you could waste my time. This is not gonna be my stinkin' life you *beep*!
Problem
The people experimenting on me hate me. I already said they were simple racists.
I didn't ask my parents to come into my life like this. This is all because of that silly Nell thing, thinking they wanted me to call her something literally.
I didn't ask my parents to come into my life like this. This is all because of that silly Nell thing, thinking they wanted me to call her something literally.
Problem
I'm sick and tired of dealing with the experimenters's attitudes. I thought it could be fun, but I'd guess not.
So
You think you're better? I see the way your eyes turn down, end of sentence, end of story, but that's just what I saw.. I feel like I'm begging, when I'm not..
I'll tell you "what" the message was and still is. They had some food sitting on top of something, and the big picture was like my dad would have stimulated me in bad ways. For some reason before, he asked more nicely if I had something to say after strangely asking "how I was."
Now, why don't you get those people for acting like I'm some strange fantasy of Ellen "telling an adult something," with a ball for a stomach and tilting my head up like I'm a snowman or something? She won't stop!!
I'll tell you "what" the message was and still is. They had some food sitting on top of something, and the big picture was like my dad would have stimulated me in bad ways. For some reason before, he asked more nicely if I had something to say after strangely asking "how I was."
Now, why don't you get those people for acting like I'm some strange fantasy of Ellen "telling an adult something," with a ball for a stomach and tilting my head up like I'm a snowman or something? She won't stop!!
Problem
So, I got mad in the kitchen and thought a lotta things by accident but was able to think normally once at the beginning.
I found a lot of symbolic messages.
Ellen sent me a message on her show, too, that matched. Most kids don't have to put up with their parents. (They just made the button blink as I posted that, like Ellen matters and now my desires and me as a person don't.) I was a good girl and things were going well at age 3 and 4 and a bit before until my little brother was born. They thought he was not as good as me, and people keep trying to turn it around! I don't need a *beep* whoop made of this!
I feel so mad.. it felt like I was getting cancer. Why can't my parents leave me the Hell alone? And yes I am here to socialize with them but from time to time, not like I'm my dad's toilet hole.
I found a lot of symbolic messages.
Ellen sent me a message on her show, too, that matched. Most kids don't have to put up with their parents. (They just made the button blink as I posted that, like Ellen matters and now my desires and me as a person don't.) I was a good girl and things were going well at age 3 and 4 and a bit before until my little brother was born. They thought he was not as good as me, and people keep trying to turn it around! I don't need a *beep* whoop made of this!
I feel so mad.. it felt like I was getting cancer. Why can't my parents leave me the Hell alone? And yes I am here to socialize with them but from time to time, not like I'm my dad's toilet hole.
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Website Update - Problems
They played around with my nose and made one side thinner at the nostril and said I did something to deserve it.
What do you think of the extremity
others go through to be mean to me because they are scared of what my dad would do to them so much if they didn't, like it would make a difference in the end? Isn't that criminal mastermind at work?
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Problem
The experimenters won't stop making noises to bother me. It seems very physical. They can stare at me and study me, and I don't have to do anything. It triggers a negative reaction in me and inflicts great pain.
PROBLEM
They are trying to knock me out with my personal sensing and tell me I did something to them. I just want to defend myself. They are the ones who did something.
Apologies
I thought some pretty far strung things about people being mean to me and making my life impossible.
Concern
I hope any person out there is okay. I think it would be better if people also started learning how to communicate online.
Apology
I didn't mean to be mean to you, but I was. That's because you were bothering me, that's all! I don't mean any harm..
I disagree.
The people experimenting on me are subhumanist because they are racist. They think I am a different race. And they think it isn't Caucasian and therefore not white. They are probably look more inappropriate than I do. They think I am below an animal.
They just made a noise that stimulated my chair how I'm on.
They are being blase and keep treating me like I'm not white.
My chair isn't unstimulating.
You can't bother me!
They just made a noise that stimulated my chair how I'm on.
They are being blase and keep treating me like I'm not white.
My chair isn't unstimulating.
You can't bother me!
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Weird
I see products that seem to be related and it seems weird to rub it in as an insult, like someone did it, like someone bribed companies to do it, someone with money.
Sad
I did mention Ellen a lot, but at least it's a help blog and it's just trying to iron out kinks or talk it out..
Problem
Every time I click something, they hate back at me pretending they are Ellen. And if Ellen saw this she'd laugh and say she still did it somehow.
Stop
"putting me" stupidly in the wrong position. I just didn't like the sneakiness that people are rubbing in that my cousin having a baby will affect who my baby is!
This is getting bad.
I guess Ellen thinks little things call for big punishments and she hisses to herself on "how it's related." I wish I could stop, but I feel it hurting. I know there's nothing wrong with talking it out. That's all I grew up knowing how to do. I don't have anything to lean on.
Wrong
I'm not good just to be good. I have freedom of speech and limits. I never get treated well in exchange for good behavior.
People are lying to me.
That I should worry about people hurting me in certain ways and I deserve it.
Fact
Ellen acts like I can't be praised for doing something good, anymore, like I'm selfish and others don't have a chance who are younger. Other people probably do that.
So Lame
I don't feel like calling my Gramma.
It's like Ellen knows all about everyone I know and landed in the situation.
It's like Ellen knows all about everyone I know and landed in the situation.
I'm thinking
I need to be wrapped and bundled up in my room to regain sanity.
I hit the machine at the gym and computer. Not hard the computer. Not too hard the machine.
I hit the machine at the gym and computer. Not hard the computer. Not too hard the machine.
This is pathetic.
Why does this even happen? "What" I do does not stand out badly. People are mean to me.
Crrazy
Yes, I do not mean what I said, but my dad was being irrational and disgusting because of Ellen and it kinda slipped and it made sense cuz he said I could not go to the gym, but my cousin could have a baby whose always been a selfish person.
Problems
My dad seems worried about my Gramma and wants me to prostrate for my bratty little cousin.
Problem
Why are people acting like Ellen is to be worshiped like a pagan god? Like they "go all out" silly for her.
Problem
You can't just be mean to me. My cousin wants to ruin my life. I won't accept it. And I'll feel what I'll feel about what she does to me. Ellen did it. She should be stopped. It shouldn't affect my life.
What She Is
She's just prejudiced and spoiled. She is attracted to my cousins with light hair and young moms.
Problem
They're bothering me, still. Like, what did I do? The only real thing I could say was my dad saying I can't go to the gym cuz I got irritated, but I wasn't violent. He got mad and said he could have called the police for me telling him to leave me alone. I joked that my usually misbehaving and usually punished cousin was too young or not mature enough for a baby right now and that means abortion, but I mean she was rubbing it in like she wants to affect my family. That's what I was trying to talk to my dad about, but he just got mad at me weirdly and was mimicking me.
Problem
I just got sassed by Ellen. You can't pay these minions to torture me for you. I could get you arrested.
Bad Things
Dad - I should not have gotten so mad?
Ellen - I just talked a lot about how I feel. I think she keeps forgetting she sent me a bombardment of insults just to laugh at me and think that prepares me alone with nothing, nothing good to make me think positive, like I'm able to think of that when I'm being bullied and can't seem to stop it, and that's what the problem was today.
Ellen - I just talked a lot about how I feel. I think she keeps forgetting she sent me a bombardment of insults just to laugh at me and think that prepares me alone with nothing, nothing good to make me think positive, like I'm able to think of that when I'm being bullied and can't seem to stop it, and that's what the problem was today.
Cornering Me
I feel threatened in leading a good life. What is everyone's problem? No, you cannot be "forgiven." It's not okay to keep doing it.
Weirdos
Why are you rubbing in bad feelings about when I interact with younger people? A singer did this. They are all so dorky. Maybe, they really can't sing. Don't you dare get back at me for my freedom of speech. They just want to look cute and get affection.
You act like I have to worship them and like right now I'm probing my desires. No, the fact is you don't accept me. You want to be associated with a generation below me.
Anyway, the thing about the singers was important because singers are nice, but divas are trouble. About not being able to sing, I mean maybe they just aren't really exactly what they're cracked up to be.
You act like I have to worship them and like right now I'm probing my desires. No, the fact is you don't accept me. You want to be associated with a generation below me.
Anyway, the thing about the singers was important because singers are nice, but divas are trouble. About not being able to sing, I mean maybe they just aren't really exactly what they're cracked up to be.
What She Thinks
She always makes her thoughts seem right.
But she judges me and hurts me for my dad being born about 10 years before her and my mom's race. We should leave her be, but I still wanna watch her on TV.
But she judges me and hurts me for my dad being born about 10 years before her and my mom's race. We should leave her be, but I still wanna watch her on TV.
Problem
My dad brought up something. I don't feel well, and a certain thought came to me that actually makes sense. I think Ellen is patterning insults to me for no reason and doesn't care if I die of cancer from it because of when I was trapped in the house eating burgers. My dad thinks I thought of myself independent from her, and I won't accept any weird fantasy like she's younger than me.
I can see the insults being laid out by her like 1 2 3, and I do find it selfish already.
I can see the insults being laid out by her like 1 2 3, and I do find it selfish already.
Won't Admit/Influencing
My dad won't admit Ellen influenced him to not take me to the gym cuz I said to leave me alone when he was irritating me.
She thinks she's being flashy and in style. She wants to tease me by being happy on the show that I'm watching and does this as an excuse to take it away and ruins my life in the process. I wonder if this is her last straw.
She thinks she's being flashy and in style. She wants to tease me by being happy on the show that I'm watching and does this as an excuse to take it away and ruins my life in the process. I wonder if this is her last straw.
Website Update - Problems
Some really bad news, Ellen thinks I could have been great but that maybe I'm just trash. She is uptight, ignorant.., and knocked off. Maybe, she's no better than my parents. I see the selfishness in their hate.
Trying to Make Me Feel Unnecessarily Guilty..
..They said I won't have the baby I want. "I'm not gonna have it." Whatever the *beep* that means. That's incredibly rude. Ellen, you are mean to me all day every day. What's your problem? You had to take it off the show.
My Day
It was rather going up, and my dad asked me to talk, so I talked about Ellen influencing my cousin to have a baby, and he just grunted and squeaked, no deep thoughts. Of course, I didn't mention Ellen until later.
I don't care.
You keep being mean to me, this certain person.
So what if I moved my pants around in the bathroom? Arrest me!
You have everything there for you and you don't put up "with pops."
So what if I moved my pants around in the bathroom? Arrest me!
You have everything there for you and you don't put up "with pops."
My Issue
My dad is just a mean racist, and Ellen was talking to him and he said she wasn't. That's sick, Ellen, why did you do that to me?
Website Update
Problems
Ellen rubbed in that she wants to affect my future children negatively, by not making them who I want them to be and "controlling" it herself or changing what it was or should be, which is a stupid idea simply not sure if I should say it any other way, by having my cousin have a baby when she's young and very carefree.
link
Ellen rubbed in that she wants to affect my future children negatively, by not making them who I want them to be and "controlling" it herself or changing what it was or should be, which is a stupid idea simply not sure if I should say it any other way, by having my cousin have a baby when she's young and very carefree.
link
Problem
My dad is being stupid and hyperactive like my cousin to annoy me. He keeps getting in my life too much. He threatened not to take me to the gym. I told him to stop bothering me and others in there. I was just talking about my cousin having a baby.
Stop?
Some people just can't stop calculating numbers that don't mean anything.
People were indeed being mean to me about Italian. I posted it online like a good girl or a proper and honest lady. It's a blog. It's my blog.
I can't believe anyone listens to the inklings of others like this.
Italians do some things that no one else does. I don't want there to be no hope for me, for speaking the truth, too.
People were indeed being mean to me about Italian. I posted it online like a good girl or a proper and honest lady. It's a blog. It's my blog.
I can't believe anyone listens to the inklings of others like this.
Italians do some things that no one else does. I don't want there to be no hope for me, for speaking the truth, too.
Saturday, October 18, 2014
Problem
Just because Tim Burton's daughter's mom is different, my dad is acting too close to me in a way I don't like. ..to make her seem as much like Tim Burton as possible.
At Them
I don't think my mom gives 2nd chances to dishonest people.
I hate when my dad tries to talk to me and reacts to my mood like he cares. It hurts me even to make a noise that rejects his torture cuz it's affecting him or what he judges as the interaction.
I hate when my dad tries to talk to me and reacts to my mood like he cares. It hurts me even to make a noise that rejects his torture cuz it's affecting him or what he judges as the interaction.
Trying to Trick Me
They are making me feel sorry for my cousin and trying to make my life bad like hers. Just an excuse for some approval in their way, which makes me a loser. I already am nice. I don't know what your problem is. I don't want to be like people you'd think.
Making Sense
What I say makes sense. You just debunk me like an old robot at anything I say cuz you're racist and you know I'm right.
Problem
Ellen posted on a Saturday on Faceook, and I found it after my cousin's post. I think she is rubbing in that my cousin will get what I deserve. She is acting like I don't deserve anything and that I'm bad, when I was just mistreated at school and therefore felt bad.
It's like my cousin will get some deep feeling she thinks I don't deserve, but these people might all be ***. There shouldn't be any better and worse.
My dad is onto my cousin. He is crazy. He thinks I have to worship her, and she's annoying to me. Her mom is his littlest sister.
So, what, no more Ellen DeGeneres left? Either there is or there isn't.
It's like my cousin will get some deep feeling she thinks I don't deserve, but these people might all be ***. There shouldn't be any better and worse.
My dad is onto my cousin. He is crazy. He thinks I have to worship her, and she's annoying to me. Her mom is his littlest sister.
So, what, no more Ellen DeGeneres left? Either there is or there isn't.
How stupid can you be?
I wasn't crazy, I was upset because people were hurting me so leave me the beep alone.
Problem
Why are people so interested in taking away all I have, how I feel. These Italians won't keep back. I know there are many pretty and happy Italians, not sure what part of Italy..
Saturday, August 30, 2014
I go out of my room
Do you wanna finish talking about something?
Why in the late 1990s did people suddenly all turn on one another and feel guilty?
I said, "Oh no," when my dad came home several days in a row, until I was told to stop. It was sorta automatic, seemed like it made sense, my homework was not done. Also, my dad was kinda mushy as a person. You can't make a big deal out of it.
This message does not go out to people who don't wanna talk. Like, who claim not to deal with such things..
I said, "Oh no," when my dad came home several days in a row, until I was told to stop. It was sorta automatic, seemed like it made sense, my homework was not done. Also, my dad was kinda mushy as a person. You can't make a big deal out of it.
This message does not go out to people who don't wanna talk. Like, who claim not to deal with such things..
I know what goes on.
Problem
No one listens, neither. It's a very fake experience. Day in and out, I face issues.
I go out of my room
and I run into my dad. I didn't say I wanted him to send me secret messages. He's done this since moving to Orlando and the N word thing with Tim Burton's daughter.
Problem
I go online, and it's not like I feel anyone's really met me. They know me from before and toss me and my feelings of posting online and getting attention at all.
No one listens, neither. It's a very fake experience. Day in and out, I face issues.
No one listens, neither. It's a very fake experience. Day in and out, I face issues.
I know what goes on.
It gets fooled around with, like other things. ("Maybe, maybe not.") So, it seems that people don't want us to talk about these things in a lying way to make us feel guilty and pretend we're the 1 who's shit since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I'm not a California immigrant sorta person. It's not like 1 big block of stuff is true means everything else is pretended to be case closed. That's just a trick, really. Things require and can intune explanation. It does happen with other things, too. Why can't you acknowledge the stuff that you do, for a lot is done? It feels I've always been thinking about it. I've come to say something. I didn't say anything other than making a big deal of what I said in my last post. I just want to talk about it. I'm not saying anyone needs to talk back. I must have some motive. A lotta people are strangely scared of what I did in my last post.
Do you wanna finish talking about something?
Why in the late 1990s did people suddenly all turn on one another and feel guilty?
I said, "Oh no," when my dad came home several days in a row, until I was told to stop. It was sorta automatic, seemed like it made sense, my homework was not done. Also, my dad was kinda mushy as a person. You can't make a big deal out of it.
This message does not go out to people who don't wanna talk. Like, who claim not to deal with such things..
I said, "Oh no," when my dad came home several days in a row, until I was told to stop. It was sorta automatic, seemed like it made sense, my homework was not done. Also, my dad was kinda mushy as a person. You can't make a big deal out of it.
This message does not go out to people who don't wanna talk. Like, who claim not to deal with such things..
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Is your goal
to get me to feel guilty about what people do to me when they don't like what I end up doing, even if it's an accident or hard decision bceause of them?
Would you do that to someone else? Something sick? What, are you upset I posted about this? I didn't say what it was.
Well, when I visited my Gramma, it sounded like the noises she made were, "NOT - CAU CA SIAN" more than once. I asked why she and my dad were mean to me. I ended up leaving them for most of the trip. I came back in the end. My aunt said, oh, "They're over it." My Gramma was looking at me weird rubbing the armrest and it made the left suide of my nose feel thinner and different.. People are all so mean to me, and now she is more. It's incredibly horrifying or frustrating to have that happen. She's not even a parent, anyway, of mine.
OK, I did what you're supposed to do. Why do I have extra rules I cannot follow?
Would you do that to someone else? Something sick? What, are you upset I posted about this? I didn't say what it was.
Well, when I visited my Gramma, it sounded like the noises she made were, "NOT - CAU CA SIAN" more than once. I asked why she and my dad were mean to me. I ended up leaving them for most of the trip. I came back in the end. My aunt said, oh, "They're over it." My Gramma was looking at me weird rubbing the armrest and it made the left suide of my nose feel thinner and different.. People are all so mean to me, and now she is more. It's incredibly horrifying or frustrating to have that happen. She's not even a parent, anyway, of mine.
OK, I did what you're supposed to do. Why do I have extra rules I cannot follow?
How Else It Started
If a bad idea even to do with someone else came to my mind I would be in trouble.
I don't think any of this could matter if this doesn't, unless things are different here.
I dunno! I don't even know what I just said and it's about time to eat what I just cooked.
I don't think any of this could matter if this doesn't, unless things are different here.
I dunno! I don't even know what I just said and it's about time to eat what I just cooked.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Hm..
You can't downgrade my caliber.Not sure what this would have referenced to, yesterday, but maybe something that's okay.
Question
Why was my dad able to make that torturous noise? It's to someone important who does not yet exist? My future son. D':
Picky
If my dad threatens to torture people without touching them, I mean that constitutes the electric chair. I didn't mean I wanted it to happen.
Monday, August 25, 2014
Maybe I should stop
saying *beep* - I dunno. Maybe. It seems to mean a curse word and when against another.
Problem
My life? Where'd it go? Tim Burton did it, too. Well, .. maybe I'm imagining things there? Why am I not as great as people said I was?
Some people just mess up. I can lead my own life.
Some people just mess up. I can lead my own life.
What was that?
I just got some really torturous message about my future son, like a torturing feeling?
Problem
Someone in the experiment or Ellen is messing with my computer now. My Favorites on Twitter were not working. That's illegal.
Problem
Sometimes, my dad sends me to bed with a feeling of him and I don't like it and think he's just mad at me..
Um, no.
No one treats me like I am succomed to them. Why do people treat Ellen like that.. you know what I was always treated better.
I mean, like, yes your majesty you can hurt me. I really didn't do anything, so what if you did.
I mean, like, yes your majesty you can hurt me. I really didn't do anything, so what if you did.
Problem
Will you just quit?
They told me they won't and don't do something when I was having a good time at it.
They told me they won't and don't do something when I was having a good time at it.
I'm so sorry about this 1.
I just wanna get it over with and forget to think. I'm new to this. I sense a bad start to my Ellen season.
Problem
WHY YOU TALKING TO ME ABOUT OPRAH I LIKE HER BUT I KNOW WHY YOU SAID THAT YOU JUST LAUGHED LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!
More
12 hours in advance, some post.. like I have to follow that nonsensical poster
I don't need this. I'm not paying you back.
I don't need this. I'm not paying you back.
Problem
I got another insulting post that makes no sense, no relationship left cuz I won't act like I'm bad?
Someone splurted out, "I'm not carrying," which means and seems to mean something about toes.. Ew, something in a bad way.
I feel an attack as I post it.
Someone splurted out, "I'm not carrying," which means and seems to mean something about toes.. Ew, something in a bad way.
I feel an attack as I post it.
I mean
if something happens, I sit here, and Ellen has done things just because I don't agree with being punished. You're a sicko who thinks my dad is shit and that I like being shit in the same way.
Nothing wrong with using the word sicko. It's sick to think someone is shit when they are not. You just are super rich, in case you didn't notice, and have nicer things and not a cubicle only job, though I do respect your maturity on how your job sucks, which I hope you can see as a funny joke.. insofar as I mean you don't really move around.. see, I told you what I meant, and this is my remote blog in the remote corners of the universe of consciousness.. and don't you make fun of me anyone for saying that!
Anything else?
Nothing wrong with using the word sicko. It's sick to think someone is shit when they are not. You just are super rich, in case you didn't notice, and have nicer things and not a cubicle only job, though I do respect your maturity on how your job sucks, which I hope you can see as a funny joke.. insofar as I mean you don't really move around.. see, I told you what I meant, and this is my remote blog in the remote corners of the universe of consciousness.. and don't you make fun of me anyone for saying that!
Anything else?
So
I am sorry if I said anything I oughtn't or that you didn't prefer. I just see that it was indeed done to punish me. I don't think that's okay, in reality..
Wow
Do you think anyone would wanna be in my shoes, like Ellen? What makes you think I can't be happier?
You know
what do I think about this maybe I should go by not saying anything? I was disturbed and ended up posting "what." I didn't hurt anyone, but I have the right to be mad like that. That's what usually happens. I just want to mention it cuz I find it a possible problem.
Problem
My video get all bad on YouTube. She has no right to poke her nose in there. I don't sit here and test what I won't react to like I'm some fish in a bowl!
Look
No, I don't mean to hurt her feelings, I'm not out to get anyone! But I'm not gonna be like okay and submit to her. I'm quite sure she's messing around, however. She has no right to do that. She can't make a pact with someone in my life and hypnotize them. Who does she think she is? No one should do that, tho, just cuz I said that.
What's wrong with what I said? You just got a hicky from Kinticky? I'm not here to like settle the debts of life. I don't want people behind my back telling me I'm bad, like my dad all the time. I won't accept it. Someone do something. He won't stop. I swear.. *Beep*
What's wrong with what I said? You just got a hicky from Kinticky? I'm not here to like settle the debts of life. I don't want people behind my back telling me I'm bad, like my dad all the time. I won't accept it. Someone do something. He won't stop. I swear.. *Beep*
How Dare She
I mean, come on? Why do you all stare at me? I didn't do anything. Quit probing into my life and saying I was bad.
When she's good, maybe we shouldn't accept her.
You know, recently they were playing around about that boy, too, and saying he was like someone's dad and not me. I didn't really like that. It was a mean thing to say. Is she crazy?
When she's good, maybe we shouldn't accept her.
You know, recently they were playing around about that boy, too, and saying he was like someone's dad and not me. I didn't really like that. It was a mean thing to say. Is she crazy?
Problem
So, why does Ellen keep getting back? I bet she got rid of the main or sole account of a boy from England I liked. He took me off his Facebook. I mean on IMDb. She thinks I thought there was something in it getting upset, but so what? How picky and nonsensical can you be? That's cruel and no one should have to listen to someone like her. She does not make you feel good, and I don't know why people are all defending what she does like this.
Let's just say she didn't do it. But how can she do that to someone else? So what? I was just talking anyway. I got upset at her in my mind. I just try to avoid people when that happens, but she should really leave me alone. I'm sick and tired of this.
I see different reasons behind this, and none of them are worth anything on this planet.
Let's just say she didn't do it. But how can she do that to someone else? So what? I was just talking anyway. I got upset at her in my mind. I just try to avoid people when that happens, but she should really leave me alone. I'm sick and tired of this.
I see different reasons behind this, and none of them are worth anything on this planet.
Saturday, August 23, 2014
My Note
Quit bothering me. I said I don't wanna share that girl like that, don't get all romantic and think I'd care @ her for you and foil her.
If someone hurts me.
I can get upset or call them something.
The only issue is safety. But this is MY blog.
The only issue is safety. But this is MY blog.
Problem
My dad keeps finding problems and hurts me. It's like he won't care about my mom because they upset me, Ellen DeGeneres.
My mom is sick, and my dad thinks I made her worse so doesn't wanna be with her. Yea right.
My mom is sick, and my dad thinks I made her worse so doesn't wanna be with her. Yea right.
Okay I admit it
What is it:
I had a horrible, terruble, no good, very bad day! I ws PO'd at someone moving my cheese. I used to have a daily calendar called "Who Moved My CHeese?"
I had a horrible, terruble, no good, very bad day! I ws PO'd at someone moving my cheese. I used to have a daily calendar called "Who Moved My CHeese?"
Problems
I was being nice to Bella Thorne, and suddenly Ellen made everything about her. It only is nice in that it's someone I like. However, she has an attitude about it toward me. I thought it was something to be left alone, but I can still hear her laugh.
Also, I was thinking of the lyrics of Jackie Evancho singing from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, "There is no.." like sarcastic like some fat lady in her 40s saying me understanding something or like feeling okay is "no." Everyone in the world is like that to me, but I reject it all. My only escape is if I find myself in the world of other young actresses.
Think about this, too, I follow Bella Thorne, and Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm crap to her. Also, I know Bella Thorne's mom thinks in a forta fun yet tacky way that, "This is it, you, Bella, my daughter, though I don't think you're all ready, are it, the best person, you replaced Christina along with all her dreams and so much more."
I also got the message from an old theater teacher Ginny Kopf and Ellen DeGeneres that even though the world likes me I should be thrown to the floor and not paid attention to in a harsh manner. They think they are *** oriented enough to please others while the problem being they said I'm not and were mean to me and possibly others. I think they just go to what annoys people rather than acting 1 way. Like, they think I'm a show off by being nice, but that makes no sense. They can't say I'm too old to be the daughter of a sane person their age or style.
Also, I get people sending me messages through my dad, like it's Josh Groban, while they do whatever they want like for me to be treated nice I have to be treated bad and not them like before when it was hard cuza how they were. Maybe, nothing was wrong, but I wasn't mean, so don't attack me. Some people went ahead and messed up. Like, ooh, Christina did something. I don't give a **** if she is mad.
I can just see Ellen saying my post is crap and therefore I am and therefore she is right and to be mean and she said she wasn't. She kinda ruined my relationship with my parents.
Why if I have something to talk about do people like Ellen act like a glass building just fell apart? Part of this was to explain and sorta apologize. There is nothing wrong with talking that I would need to be punished, but it would be nice not to have it happen.
If this is so boring start doing something interesting. Start being actors or artists or something yourself for starters. Some people don't think about me in private but are nice when they see me. I was able to live in the world before, and I am able to now. I don't know why people like talking to me. Maybe, they aren't. Maybe, they wanna make fun of me, but I don't want that.
Also, I was thinking of the lyrics of Jackie Evancho singing from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, "There is no.." like sarcastic like some fat lady in her 40s saying me understanding something or like feeling okay is "no." Everyone in the world is like that to me, but I reject it all. My only escape is if I find myself in the world of other young actresses.
Think about this, too, I follow Bella Thorne, and Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm crap to her. Also, I know Bella Thorne's mom thinks in a forta fun yet tacky way that, "This is it, you, Bella, my daughter, though I don't think you're all ready, are it, the best person, you replaced Christina along with all her dreams and so much more."
I also got the message from an old theater teacher Ginny Kopf and Ellen DeGeneres that even though the world likes me I should be thrown to the floor and not paid attention to in a harsh manner. They think they are *** oriented enough to please others while the problem being they said I'm not and were mean to me and possibly others. I think they just go to what annoys people rather than acting 1 way. Like, they think I'm a show off by being nice, but that makes no sense. They can't say I'm too old to be the daughter of a sane person their age or style.
Also, I get people sending me messages through my dad, like it's Josh Groban, while they do whatever they want like for me to be treated nice I have to be treated bad and not them like before when it was hard cuza how they were. Maybe, nothing was wrong, but I wasn't mean, so don't attack me. Some people went ahead and messed up. Like, ooh, Christina did something. I don't give a **** if she is mad.
I can just see Ellen saying my post is crap and therefore I am and therefore she is right and to be mean and she said she wasn't. She kinda ruined my relationship with my parents.
Why if I have something to talk about do people like Ellen act like a glass building just fell apart? Part of this was to explain and sorta apologize. There is nothing wrong with talking that I would need to be punished, but it would be nice not to have it happen.
If this is so boring start doing something interesting. Start being actors or artists or something yourself for starters. Some people don't think about me in private but are nice when they see me. I was able to live in the world before, and I am able to now. I don't know why people like talking to me. Maybe, they aren't. Maybe, they wanna make fun of me, but I don't want that.
Problem
These people experimenting on my are annoying me and loading the page like I'm sucking milk, waiting until I feel guilty, again.
I know what it was.
Ellen went against what she said and when I was posting thinking I wasn't in trouble, she called me something really bad, like I had done something. She might not really mean it.
What if the only reason she talks so much to another girl now is cuz I was upset when she was mean to me?
What if the only reason she talks so much to another girl now is cuz I was upset when she was mean to me?
The goal
was not to say anything. Guess it was just a test. I didn't blow up. I can't get over people thinking, "Just don't say anything." Then, THEY GET IT.
Tell Me
Pretend to like me only to trick me in the end, perhaps? Like me, so you can call me a nigger whenever? Get mad if I say something??
I'm serious.
What these people do is shit. I just saw some posts on Twitter like "You nigger." Why would Ellen just come up and attack people? I don't agree with her. I already said I know it's because it could happen by accident, but I see the messages creeping in and going berserk cuz I said something.
D:
I'm feeling bad.
Why pick at me for talking about things? I don't live like that, following secret insults. I never did.
Why pick at me for talking about things? I don't live like that, following secret insults. I never did.
Problem
I won't accept Ellen dishing out insults from my dad to be my life like this. I bet the competitions are all rigged on trying to get in movies.
I know she doesn't want me to say this around her, but I can say it here. She used to be nicer. What do you think of that? Call someone else Asian.
I know she doesn't want me to say this around her, but I can say it here. She used to be nicer. What do you think of that? Call someone else Asian.
I hope what I said since last time isn't what you tap in your book to even things out. You can't play around like this. This is serious. I'll just take it you knew someone would pretend you said something. It didn't matter before Tim Burton did Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. If you just wanna say that someone like Ellen DeGeneres is too young to be my mom, I want out. It may be too late for some.
In fact, you act like she's younger than us in some way, and she's not.
I don't see anything wrong nor wasteful about making this post. I'm not unable to talk. This was a productive post on many hidden points, or at least 1.
No, nothing should have come up.
I looked over some things, but then I elaborated after my initial response for some forgotten|unknown reason.
I guess it's no use going into what happened. I said..
1-I'm not 2.
2-Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was abused.
3-Ellen is not younger than people who are younger.
4-My post all had a point.
5-This should not have even come up.
6-My 1st question is the only thing you have to answer.
If Ellen needs like stimulation like that, that's up to her. I won't say no, don't do it, but I mean it seems selfish and long-standing as a gift from other fans who were remorseful of her. It has to do with abusing younger people. I didn't just sit here and complain, I thought of stuff I shouldn't have thought of.
Okay, I better say what it was, then. I said no one should call me Asian, and someone called me a Mongoloid.. I thought they stopped messing around on that level.. :( I'm also constantly being made fun of if it was Ellen who said to do it or not. My aunt just left and I look older, too, now. You should call other people Asian. Hmph! I don't need her satisfaction, neither. This is stupid. See, this is getting abusive. I was about to contact the hope line for something else, I think bad signs. You can't just sit there and keep abusing me and act like I didn't say that and claim I can have a say. What's in it in the shit, something I posted for Johnny Depp? And how do I know what else was done or not done and lied about? I don't want that kind of attention from some people. I was independent and somewhat talented before.
If you make me mad, and I'm upset awhile and that bursts your bubble is just too bad. This has no point. I don't want to be assimilated to my dad in bad ways, neither. This just bummed out my weekend. How blunt and a bummer is it to follow things like this on a microscopic level? only to get back at something I didn't do?
I already told you, if I take the pain to talk does not mean you can talk back to me again.
I have a lot of other messages someone wasted their time to do, too.
So what, everyone's gonna act like Ellen did it!
What should I do, call your mommy and daddy? You seem to like that with me. Thanks for ruining a good weekend.
I will not accept these hurtful Ellen messages. I will not be pushed to my sick family. I am not bad nor guilty. Figure that out. That's all I'm being treated as. And I keep being reminded of people who are mean to me like they mean something..
In fact, you act like she's younger than us in some way, and she's not.
I don't see anything wrong nor wasteful about making this post. I'm not unable to talk. This was a productive post on many hidden points, or at least 1.
No, nothing should have come up.
I looked over some things, but then I elaborated after my initial response for some forgotten|unknown reason.
I guess it's no use going into what happened. I said..
1-I'm not 2.
2-Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was abused.
3-Ellen is not younger than people who are younger.
4-My post all had a point.
5-This should not have even come up.
6-My 1st question is the only thing you have to answer.
If Ellen needs like stimulation like that, that's up to her. I won't say no, don't do it, but I mean it seems selfish and long-standing as a gift from other fans who were remorseful of her. It has to do with abusing younger people. I didn't just sit here and complain, I thought of stuff I shouldn't have thought of.
Okay, I better say what it was, then. I said no one should call me Asian, and someone called me a Mongoloid.. I thought they stopped messing around on that level.. :( I'm also constantly being made fun of if it was Ellen who said to do it or not. My aunt just left and I look older, too, now. You should call other people Asian. Hmph! I don't need her satisfaction, neither. This is stupid. See, this is getting abusive. I was about to contact the hope line for something else, I think bad signs. You can't just sit there and keep abusing me and act like I didn't say that and claim I can have a say. What's in it in the shit, something I posted for Johnny Depp? And how do I know what else was done or not done and lied about? I don't want that kind of attention from some people. I was independent and somewhat talented before.
If you make me mad, and I'm upset awhile and that bursts your bubble is just too bad. This has no point. I don't want to be assimilated to my dad in bad ways, neither. This just bummed out my weekend. How blunt and a bummer is it to follow things like this on a microscopic level? only to get back at something I didn't do?
I already told you, if I take the pain to talk does not mean you can talk back to me again.
I have a lot of other messages someone wasted their time to do, too.
So what, everyone's gonna act like Ellen did it!
What should I do, call your mommy and daddy? You seem to like that with me. Thanks for ruining a good weekend.
I will not accept these hurtful Ellen messages. I will not be pushed to my sick family. I am not bad nor guilty. Figure that out. That's all I'm being treated as. And I keep being reminded of people who are mean to me like they mean something..
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