So..

..My dad did something again.

Anyone who restrains me from socializing is not worth it.

It's not okay that I don't feel okay, how dumb to wonder what's wrong, why I feel violent like I'm getting *** signals.  I was told something totally radical secretly.

What now?

Are you on horseback?  Trying to get me for being upset?  This is shit.  This is nothing.  Get outta my life now!

I was upset in my room.  What right do you have to kill off my family like this?  Someone did something to me, and no one cares how I feel.  I didn't do anything illegal.  I just felt like I needed something to hit and scream.  I did it in my room so no one could know what I needed to do.  I still feel mad.  I didn't do anything.  Get outta my life.

Problem

Get my dad, they won't stop trying to stimulate a certain part for getting mad in my room.  I don't want my old aunt.

This is a blog where I get out what I need, even though language gets in the way, and anger.

When I say

Old, I mean older, not elderly old.  I mean big and pompous.. and I don't consider fat a replacement for something good.  We were gonna have a family turkey, too.

Problem

Because my dad knew I was mad I think my aunt is coming for 4 days.  They are pretending it is for another reason.

How Disgusting

My parents, 1st dad, used their hand|s to place something over my ******* symbolically.

They want to reiterate I am trash like other people act now.

You don't do this to Bella Thorne.

I can see them rolling around in happy m***********.

I meant it

as in why is it you hurt me but leave her be?

Fine

Why don't you hurt Ellen?

THEY SAID 2 YEARS

THEY WON'T GO AWAY

Problem

Ellen, she keeps having glitches on my computer throughout the day to stimulate me.

This is serious..

..I can't keep serving people by telling what they do to me.  Let's just get him.

YOU CAN'T JUST THROW MY LIFE AWAY

I STAYED AWAY FROM HIM FOR MY SUPPER

My dad started it.  I found out.  And you better listen you racist.

STOP IT

I CAN STOMP MY FOOT AND NOT BE KILLED

Problem

My dad keeps getting at me.  He's insane.

My dad turned off a private part.

Problem

I feel bothered.  Irritated physically.

Problem

My dad has the ^need^ to arrange my private parts to my Gramma's toenails.

Problem

My dad came in and my part is too stimulated, like heated up but doesn't feel as it should.

Problem

My blog is loading slowly.  I played with my mouse on it before.  People are fakely breaking all my technology, stealing my socks and toenail pullers (clippers.)

I'm watching about animals

that live together of different species, and I'm about to get a hamster for my beta fish.  Coming up is like lions taking care of prey species baby animals.

Problem

The messages are not showing up in my Yahoo!, just in the popups.  I have to click on that, too.  You have no right to do this to me!  Quit acting like I'm really a bad person for some unknown reason.

Let's just say

Ellen is just mean to me and lies about who I am.  Why do I keep getting other people's who I know have contact with her's nonsense?  I say I don't like it, and then I just keep getting "more."  Like, if I get a little mad she has to make me feel worse.  What about her?  She seems happy.  My life was fine in ways until she did this.  People are trying to be suggestive and knowing of me.  Like, it's not just, "I don't like Christina," it's like let's dig in and do any possible mean thing we can to her and sorta in a backhanded manner so that no one ever really cares to talk to her.

Look

I don't want to be involved in this.  Why can you be so suggestive and to people I care about?

NOOO

They said 1 house.. made me think of a boy in England.

WOULD YA QUIT WASTING MY TIME I WANT EVERYTHING YOU DO TO ME ON THIS BLOG AND I DON'T WANT MORE

Problem

They are making me think of my Gramma.  I was thinking if I was rich from my singing or if I got in a movie, I could give her money 1st, and Ellen would find that a topic for talking, stuck up.  She is pessimistic.  Also, they think it's important my dad just answered my text as I finished this or something.

My Gramma seems to feel bad.  Why can't anyone like .. like the people she knew were mean to her and died I think .. cuza that N word thing with my dad.

She was mean to me, though.  I feel sorry for her and wanna help, though, cuz she's like lonelier and doesn't even seem as content as she could.  I don't wanna complain about older people in general, but they were acting this out to me.  Like, the part when she's mean.  I am careful there, but they are now out to get me.  Thanks to my dad.  You said Tim Burton wasn't to blame?

Problem

They keep doing stuff, they did something weird to a post I got in my mail, and the 2nd time I clicked it said it was read, and it said it was like family, someone black because of being black but also who is being wacky.  What about white people?  I never get to be with white people.  Like before!

I had a hard time with prayer.

I just feel so agitated and wanna be alone like I was before.

YUP

Ellen gaped at me when she thought up me feeling love from my mom when she's the 1 who's hurt.  Yup.  She's involved in my family.  No lie.  She is judging me with race, but I deny that.  Your mom thinks I'm fine.  You're the 1 who apparently ^needed help^.  You think because you need help that everyone does.  No, I don't!  Look at someone else with mixed race and help them instead!  Instead, you have all these full blacks and people flown in from Vietnam or Taiwan.  Famous kids who don't know what they're doing.  Putting on quite a spectacle of a show in retrospect to what you claim to uphold to.  You don't talk about mixed people who need help.  You just use me to ruin.  So, what, can't admit you're like a biracial and can be put in the same clump as everyone else?  I'm sorry if this offends you, but I'm working on being nicer..  Instead of just blowing up.  You know, I hit my table twice today but not too hard and sorta on a whim.  I also just realized I thought of something violent.  I closed the door hard 2 times at least, as well.  I will say an Our Father, Hail Mary, and Glory Be.  What can I do about it now?  Just think it was bad and learn to not have a temper.  They wouldn't give me medicine for it!  I have it for depression and schizophrenia and was doing fine.

PROBLEM

WHY DOESN'T ANYTHING SATISFY AGAINST YOU

AND THERE'S ELLEN

PROBLEM

ELLEN WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE.  A POSTER OLDER THAN ME TURNED ON ME.  SHE ALSO WANTED TO SAY I WAS LIKE SOMEONE IN A WAY I'M NOT AND DON'T WANNA BE.  SHE IS TRYING TO AROUSE ME THAT I'M RACIALLY SHIT.

Problem

My mom made a locking motion to shit me with a picture of an irresponsible black lady on a magazine.

I've counted

numerous things that Ellen could have got off the shelf, my fav liverwurst no longer served, etc.

STOP

THEY SAID I SHOULDN'T POST TO GOOD POSTERS ON IMDB.  NO, YOU ARE THE 1 WHO IS REALLY BOTHERING ME.  I CAN POST THERE.  STOP TELLING ME I'M AN INVALID.  YA'LL JUST RACE BLIND.  I DON'T WANNA WASTE MY TIME TALKING TO YOU!

Someone told me to get a punching bag.

I use my sofa.

Problem

They are playing around with me, now.

I told you, I don't want to talk to you.

Problem

I was looking at a pic of an Asian kid and now I have a new follower on Twitter.

I didn't mean anything..

..bad against anyone but that I felt bothered.  I don't like people to collect my "mistakes" from the past.  Why can't you just talk about it?

THEY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE AND KEEP ADDING MESSAGES THAT I WANT OTHERS TO KNOW THEY DID, THEY ARE TWISTING THEM LIKE THEY ARE STATEMENTS AND NOT INSULTS

PROBLEM

ELLEN WON'T STOP AND SHE GOT THEM TO CURSE AT ME!  HA!  YOU DID IT.  I SAID ELLEN DID SOMETHING, NOT ME.

PROBLEM

GET THAT ELLEN TO QUIT

YA'LL DON'T SUFFER THIS SHIT

ELLEN HAS A GIRL FROM RISING STAR ATTACKING ME

THEY MADE THE COLOR UNSELECT WHEN I DID IT

STOP - THEY MADE MY BROWSER SHRINK FOR THE BLOG WHEN I PULLED IT UP

Problem

My dad tried to stimulate me..

MY DAD IS BOTHERING ME

HE WAS TOLD I WAS PLAYIING WITH THE MOUSE AND LOADING THINGS ON THE COMPUTER ALL INTO HIMSELF LIKE "I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THAT" WELL GO AWAY!!

I SAID

STOP IT

SHOULD I JUST SAY YOU'RE "BAD" INSTEAD?

STOP TIT

PROBLEM

GET THAT ELLEN OUT  SHE IS SAYING MY MOM IS GOOD AND IM NOT

YALL STOP YOU CURSED AT ME

YOU CAN'T KEEP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO AND BOTHERING ME IN MY ROOM YOU

So..

..I can't tell anyone to leave me alone, so I just get mad and make loud noises with myself.. These people won't leave.  What can I do?

I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE

My dad made an excuse to come in here.

My dad can't call me Asian.  I don't like it.  Go away if you don't understand.  STOP.

Problem

STOP  YOU QUIT PLAYING WITH THE COMPUTER

Problem

My dad just came in and seemed to not think of my mom, neither.

Problem

All these people want is to be mean to me.  I might call the Hope line or the police.. the forum.

Problem

They acted with the mouse loading like someone was being silly sticking out their tongue.  Learn to talk like a person.

Problem

I didn't wanna talk about this.  Also, they won't leave me alone about my Gramma..  STOP

Problem

I got secret messages of disrespect to my mom, showing my Gramma showing her toenail like my teacher did all tacky, when something was about her and she was being nice to me though hurt, like I didn't deserve her being comforting to me.  Ellen will just slide up and say she's sad and not admit to what she and someone else has done.

Because

Why work on something like me?  You know, I studied to do Music Education myself.

QUIT TURNING PEOPLE ON ME

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM

Why do you send me messages?

They aren't nice.

I'm not the animal.

How Annoying

They are playing with the number of seconds since last post.  It symbolizes Ellen hypnotizing a boy from England like it's all ticklish but dehumanizing.

Stop the messages.

I don't want them.

I said stop.

Why do you guys keep doing this?

So

Ellen is mean to people who are nice.

Problem

They won't stop bringing up that I had violent thoughts when being surrounded by attacking thoughts.  I'm about to buy something for $3.99, and they said it wouldn't be like this in 3 years.

STOP BRINGING UP THE PAST

TO YOUR UNDESERVING ADVANTAGE

STOP IT

They are cursing at me.

Isn't it funny..

..I just axed what to do when people surround me with negativity.

More Shit

I watched Inside Riding Star, and this black guy was rubbing his hands and made it look tacky with short nails, and everyone felt their hand change, too.

Bothered

I just went for a jog, and my iPodTouch when I touch the screen won't show me the song that's playing.  I was able to do it by pressing the on|off button.

I came home and didn't sound happy, and my dad said, "Good."

I know Ellen did this, but my brother was sending me mean secret messages so I thought the violence out in my head 1st only to be bothered again by|for it.  I did come home and actually try to fix it, but it's not like I'm gonna really commit a crime.  I didn't think of it as I would.  You don't care if anyone bothers me.  You're a sinner.  Did you know sinners go to Hell?  I guess your faith is not based in the Jewish religion.  I can see that.  Was I really sinning?  No.  Was it the best thing I could do?  Of course not.  That's all that matters.  If someone didn't do anything to you, is it wrong to not have self-control?  Yes, it is wrong not to have self-control.  You let other people get away with it cuz you think I'm not white.  Well, that's not true.  It's too bad you don't accept it.

I do blame..

..I felt a little my toes poof like someone on the Soapbox.

Problem

I still don't feel good.

Problem

These people won't leave me alone.

Problem

My Paint is starting to mess up with the mouse.

He won't stop.

He's acting like blowing up my son and like my daughter can't write.  Like something breaking.

Problem

My brother is relaying sarcasticness, "that this is all next week."  No, you wouldn't stop trying to irritate me.

Watching You

I have to go to the bathroom but wanted to say I think you are being mean to me really on purpose, sometimes, not just like wandering around.  I made my post about reading the Bible for forgiveness, and the page took a certain while to load.

Problem

These people are being fresh popping up in my life every so often.  Let's stop chanting Ellen did it and get to the brunt of it.  The way a page loads or any little thing..  It seems I get daily new glitches.

Also

I told my brother he was sloshing me around and for a weird reason he started getting his 1st shake.

Problem

My brother kept eluding to Ellen DeGeneres, so I was kicking in the car some cuz he was annoying and then he asked me what was wrong and said he didn't like my tone.

I couldn't help to avoid that but to imagine violence.  I finally stopped, but he's been sending secret threats, like about my future kids not mattering.  Something is wrong with him.  Seems like my oldest aunt got into him.

I made some loud noises.  I was upset at people when we got our ice cream.  Luckily, we have some cake which will make me happy.

They just made the words space or enter fast to annoy me.  These tacky people watching me!

sorri

sorry depp

y r u mad @ me - i didn't do anything against you that was innocent.  those bad things?  i never disrespected you.  you all just pretended.

y r u mad

THEY RELOADED MY YOUTUBE PAGE I TOLD YOUY TO STOP YOU CRIMINAL STOP IT YOU'LL GO TO JAIL FOR A LONG TIME

LISTEN

THEY SAID MY DAUGHTER WAS IN A CAPSUL OF FART

I TOLD YOU TO STOP TAKING OUT ANGER ON ME STOP STIMULATING ME YOU SINNER

I TOLD YOU TO STOP STOP CHANING MY LIFE

CAN'T YOU TELL WHAT I TOLD YOU  STOP IT

YOURE MAKING ME PHYSICAL

I SAID STOP

Problem

I can arrest you for that.  You made me say Depp was mean.  Leave me alone!  I SAID IT.

Problems

Why should I care about what others do?  This guy online posted something about pulling over 200 teeth from a boy, just playing it safe but hurting me.  What is Johnny Depp's problem?  Does he feel guilty?  He never was there for me really.  Is it my dad again cuz I won't let things like this happen with everyone I like?

These people are acting like they're touching me!  STOP.

Why should I care?  I think he's mean.

Problem

I'm being attacked that my kids won't go for attractive people.  I just said Johnny Depp did something.  No one cares, "get a life.."

So

What does Josh Groban hold against me?  I saw him sing with the little 5-year-old, and he seemed to have hatred.  Ellen can't put noises in my room.  That's what I was mad at!

Problem

They literally just hurt me.

THEY WON'T STOP

Problem

They keep messing with everything in the house for a joke?  Why doesn't someone try cornering you for a change?

They won't shut up.

They want my Gramma in a messed up way to be the sole mom of my daughter, I think.

Problem

They are teasing me with my Gramma in a way I don't like and acting smart.  Once they said I was "Damb."  Or "dumb."

Problem

Ellen won't quit bothering me.  My keyboard is delayed on my browser, and someone nice on IMDb knows apparently.

I don't even care

about Ellen's creative little insult messages.

Ya'll're

mean and just wasting my time.  I didn't do anything wrong.  Ya'll're mean to me anyway.

Problem

I don't like these noises in my room, they're really tacky and annoying.  They send bad messages and don't listen to me.  Quit ruining my online experience.

Problem

They are threatening me about animals who are white, and I wanted a white dog once.

Okay

I'm like freaking out.

Problem

Chloe Grace Moretz is implying Josh Groban is better than me ***-wise.

They keep bothering me

STOP IT I KNOW ELLEN DID IT IT STARTED WITH HER

I imagined my dad innocent like I liked him and they kept making these weird noises that hinted a kind of m***********.

You're just

wanting me to be miserable and seeing how I feel and what I say then just to turn my down like you're better and no one desires me but I others.

How can you justify this?

Try suffering.

You have some weird fantasy..

..that my world has become you

Problem

Why is Bella's life so good?

Well

Josh just doesn't really seem to like me.

MAD

THIS BELLA THING IS CUZA ELLEN PUNISHING ME SO I WILL NOT ACCEPT IT

Why?  I'm going by Feeling and not as good Thinking.  Haven't I had enough of you all?  See.. you can even feel that's "what" Ellen did, regardless of that she did Bella or whatever.

There's something else I don't like.

I said that we can't get rid of Bella Thorne.  I didn't blame him.

So, what..

..you think you can change me?

YOU WON'T STOP TORTURING ME WITH THAT GIRL.

How will I get my experience online..

..with these kooky characters watching me all the time?!

How retarded

Try to give me cancer for Bella Thorne?  Is this the real Nell Burton?  You just wanna prove yourself to the world and don't care about me and my existence.

I AM NOT TO BE TREATED WORSE FOR TIM BURTON'S PRESENCE.

You can't make me

care about someone when I already do.

Apology

for saying that stupid girl, but I meant it in the detatched way and not that she's stupid, as I said in the post.

How dare you

tell me me talking to someone famous is ruining it for someone else.

Why should I even care?

@aparnapkin I'll trade you for your cherry tomatoes
— josh groban (@joshgroban) July 23, 2014

He wants me to just starve.. This is retarded.

I HATE CHASING CELEBS

THANKS DAD

SHIT

Why does my frickin dad ruin everything?!

You even think

when I didn't talk about that I implied it and went wild against me.  Too bad you don't have intelligent followers.

Look

I can't stand that person being on Bella Thorne's side every time they say something good.  I don't want to come there to read that.  I don't want it on my mind.  I like the person, but they are using her as a tool.

I see..

..you don't care about the bodies you threw away.  You're stupid, pretend person.  You can't talk.  No one talks to me.  You all talk to that stupid girl, not meaning she is stupid, but I know it's gonna come out.

Problem

My brother is being mean.  Let's just curse out all involved in hurting me.  I will tell.

Thanks for

making my life now my shit list.

I am making stand.

You all won't let me be comfortable.

Should I call the cops?

You won't shut up in my room?

IF YOU ALL WANT SOMETHING

WHY DON'T YOU ALL GET IT?  Oh, don't like all caps, too?  That's so overrated?  I don't wanna waste my time for nothing.

No I don't

wanna sit here and pull things apart on someone's Twitter each time I try to understand what's going on.  No one cares about what I say.  This person is posting whimpy little things day in and day out.  Come on, is that all you gonna do?  What happened to before?  This is so stupid I can't even post it on my real blog!

Why won't

you guys fuckin' stop bothering me cuz when I get upset you get upset.

I could hurt you technically, but I am not.  You're not proving anything.  You're just lame-ole shit Orlando.  I didn't mean any 1 of you are shit.  I said it for some reason that came out.. and it wasn't that.

I feel flooded with insults.

And they are laughing at me like they can be mean and like I did something.  Stop saying I did something at 11.

Problem

I said earlier my dad made the arms near my body feel sag, he tried.

Problem

Now, they are playing around mentioning my future son is Chinese.  How rude is that, and what about it??  I smell something in the air.  I don't know about touching on things.  Oh, and my mom made my but feel like it went out so it like drips.  I don't feel the drip now.

I do care..

..@ my dad, try to behave.  I dunno.. maybe cleaning my room is my chore.  Other things too, of course, like feeling anguish, also my mom, etc.  All the times I suspected Ellen of doing things, which she did..  Dunno!  What I should do.  My past, like it's watched more than a well-behaved prisoner.  I can't relax my thoughts and it's like I never made the right decision.  Why would it be okay for someone to use me?  Sometimes, I feel better if I put things people do to me that bother me on my blog.  I just wanna talk about it.  I thought it would help me having to deal with it, honestly.  I feel funny thinking about it.  My idea is to have a "good" room, at least, not a palace.  Honestly, I want it to be good as in aesthetic, too.  I mean, I have a fish and it's by the TV and computer.  Maybe, I need discipline.  My guess is about being treated badly so long it is not planned to stop until maybe my life itself might adjust.  It's hard to imagine this happening to me as an older, middle-aged adult.  I have to care for people and respect my parents.

Oh yes.

Sorry for what I said outloud as an example to my dad who wanted to talk to me and then said I should draw what I said.

Prayer

That my mom does have a nice day.  +

Problem

My teeth are a little lose in front..

Not sure what was wrong.

I didn't SAY anything.  I was mad on the inside.  Sorry.  I couldn't take it at the time.  I was made to feel guilty for the past, again.

Also, no one cares about how my nose was deformed by someone through my Gramma.  Stop acting like I'm stupid shit.

Problem

They put an old lady for my bottom inside someone.  It wasn't there, before.  You are just BAD I said.

Are you still wondering..

..why I said stop?  It was evoking a negative reaction, but I don't remember what thought came to mind.

They

just tried to physically hurt me.  I was cracking my neck.

I'm sorry.

I agree, but I mean I was just upset and wanted to talk, how I'm programmed to react.  I am getting to not want to know anyone, not even my parents|dad for now.  I do keep coming back to even things out and try to live my life that I have now.  I have the feeling not to go to college but do when I think of where I used to live.

Problem

I'm being teased with an unnecessary message as though I'm still in trouble and I never should be.  Forget about my dad.  Say whatever you want about him?

Stand up for this.

When Ellen acts like she did something against us, it's wrong.

I SAID STOP

I SAID STOP

AND MY MOUSE IS HARD

I SAID STOP STOP

I'm sorry?

How did that hurt anyone's feelings?  Oh, cuz yer the guy who is upset?

If you follow my father

You will never be right, Nazi.

I'm sorry.

Did you wish I were smart enough to be quiet or busy enough not to notice?

FYI

When I said stop it, they were making noises in my room or loading something funny.

Problem

They are punishing me, too, saying I whined as a kid about being the oldest.  IT AIN'T THAT BAD AND YOU WERE THE YOUNGER GIRL.

Problem

I'm not mean.

What are you, some kind of beast?

WHAT THE *BEEP*

is that person's problem?!

I SAID STOP IT

Look.

Yes, it did have an effect, and I find this highly offensive, even though I said it was inevitable.  Does this person even matter to me anymore?  Why should I worry about them?

Problem

Why do you keep getting mad and letting people be mean to me?

STOP MAKING ME DISGUSTING.  AS A BABY?

Problem

My Instagram took awhile to work.  Maybe the vibrating on the table did it.

I feel like a prisoner..

..people forcing me to think out of the box trying to get me to bow down.

Sorry

I got violent in my thoughts, but I think I got over it.  I need to calm down and not care.

If..

Ellen is treated so well, she can't keep coming at me all the time.  They've contacted people on IMDb to talk to me.  I know she lived a sculpted life and her mom helped make her hair white.

Also

I dunno if a conversation just stopped.

Problem

I think I'm being burdened over time sneakily.  I don't really care, but I do feel it's an issue I'm being stalked.

If I made a point

You can't act all cute and say no.  I bet Ellen had this idea, too.  I said I don't care how long someone's been online, it's always there for anyone!

Problem

That's Ellen again getting back at me for nothing every time I do it.

The song I recorded keeps pausing.

Sad

I still feel stimulated from my dad passing, like inside where I pee.

He also made like stomach bubble under certain part.

Something You Know

My dad said I should even make graphic violence.

I said something about someone was *** because it was so funny @ England's racial fetishes.

It's just..

..not cute.  Telling me I'm bad.  Fix your own problems.

I know

I owe some apologies.

O MY GOSH

How can I be bad if you're bad?

Why..

..can any of ya'll punish me?  You got nothing!  Nothing interesting to do.  All you have to say to me is that I'm bad.  No "world."  I am not bad.  My dad is like a maniac when I come into the house for no reason.  I feel bad and don't know what to do.  It was cuz I didn't have my cell with me.  I couldn't share what he did to me right away, and he kept trying to annoy me.

I mean..

..am I supposed to feel for anyone?

So..

..You believe Ellen was right to do these messages to me and then act like she strangely didn't do it?

Why if I'm interested in someone can they take advantage of me.  Sounds like the intelligence of Ellen.

You went for

a total knockout.

Is it possible you'd believe someone hurt me?

My Stand

I don't believe in your discipline.  Talk out your feelings on a blog rather than shitting on mine.  LOL!  You can't take away something important from me because something else connected to something else and whatever.  You probably wanna take my brain out.

I am not being sarcastic|whiny.  I'm just upset.

Therefore, if you rip out my imagination, I will not listen.  I am not yelling.  It'll be because I don't believe you.  It's not because of what you think, I guess.  Not sure who all is involved.

Bothered

I wasn't crazy, but I got in the car with my dad and I kept like biting myself and squinging etc.

Problem

You don't threaten other people if they speak to you and others.

I don't have any eye candy, but I'm a nice person who only speaks when spoken to.  In other words for your own entertainment.  I should not be uptight to this, but it's something like this, at least seemingly on the backdrop of what others get to do..

If you said she did..

..then what are we talking about?

Why do I seem to see

not want to make up that is but that in some likening of Ellen that like I know she is like mad at me even before I had cursed about noises in my room?  So what if I even cursed at her?  She did something to me really bad.

Problem

Someone just did something that made me think of people like my aunt with a long chin and like my chin flab would never end.

No Offense

But I will see who is bad.

What if

That boy made those noises, said to.  I can't trust anyone.  You will pay.

Someone on IMDb

Is directing their posts disgusting and pointedly at me.

I don't mean

Anyone is disgusting as a person.  You know.. They're acting like it's something to do with me like them.

Sorry

I seem mean.  The people experimenting on me are trying to say I'm disgusting like them, being all creative acting like they're copying me.  They said I wanted the boy mad at me.

What can I do about it?

Do I have to think myself out of it?  I don't feel like that cuz I'm not set up to and I'd not try to do it.  I was just closing the cap, felt the need to, but I don't know, I shoulda closed it to match the environment, not that I closed it weird.  He had been so bad so long, it must have affected him.  It could be in incentive to set me up but maybe not.  Sorry!  We'll see if we can fix you.

Worried

My dad was making such a racket, I closed my soda and I think it made him think of something really dizzy on the outside..  I just realized soon before that he just makes a racket when he feels like it and that he wasn't trying to make it annoying this time.

Problem

My dad was acting nasty in the kitchen.

He keeps on about how I said Oh No when he came home JUST FOR GOD DAMN FUN

Mad

Ellen is acting like a kid and wants everyone mad at me.

Nasty

My brother keeps being mean on and off.  I feel almost like he twisted my eye.

Look.

I know people are scared to be nice to me cuza Ellen and the "baby Jew" thing.

Get this.

I just started liking Josh Groban, and every post has something to do with that girl.  I didn't barge in on your private stuff.  Why do this just to annoy me?  What a goody two shoes.

@ComedyBangBang yeah that's a strong brew when you dip that whole lemon.
— josh groban (@joshgroban) July 17, 2014

I'm very sorry to start talking about you, but I just don't have the time to edit my thoughts.  I used to wanna not go anywhere, but now I do.  While I took off from college, like they told me 3 times.

Also

Someone is being a brat smiling about it all.  People call kids brats.  I dunno what else to say!  I have to eat.

What I Found

I found someone wanted to put Bella before me for guilty reasons.  They keep rubbing in stuff.  You can't tell me what to do.  Stop acting like you can!  You just annoy me with these noises and are mad because I cursed about it.  You have no right to be.  You also send me messages the police won't believe to straighten out my time here.  I feel as though I must leave for college, which is money.

I don't care

what you think Ellen said.  I have a right to say all I said..  btw you're not an advanced thinker, yet, at all, for this?  So you think it's just bad for me to talk about my problems that they should get better?

You can't say..

..you're not using Ellen to try to stimulate me with insulting suggestions you must believe are like punishments for a kid or criminal about my emotions and posts.

Also, don't say you didn't ruin it for me with people if you feel tired of me.

Bemused Looks

Just forget about that girl, and I don't mean literally.

My mom just came in and shook her head yes like my future babies are my dad's pimples.  How good-for-nothing!

Apology

I know I said Ellen was mean, but I meant it as some fact.  I wasn't mad.  It was just a thing.

Apology

Sorry, I was a grump in bed last night.

Problems

Well, my dad came home all gruff and tipped that I did something in rejecting his insulting ways.  He just wouldn't stop like I was supposed to to do something like be able to totally ignore him.  I asked for more nail polish remover, and after I went to the bathroom I know he didn't have more he had his hands up his pockets like he didn't even do it on purpose then.. why put hands in his pockets?  We had a good day, yesterday.  I Went to a class at the mall for my iPhone.

Apology

Sorry I got upset about the person I was Tweeting my sadness to, didn't know the person checked Twitter for sure, seemed like it.

Sorting Out My Crap, Well Not Your Crap

People born around 1960 can't purposely put themselves in others's lives and tell them they cannot amount to what they are.

You'll find what your kids do are always right if you're young parents and they're born around 1997.

If you did what you did, aren't you proud I wrote about it?  It's something that hurt me and isn't right..

Why would you be nice 1 second and vicious another?  Why don't you make it easy on people so they don't get messed up?

Ya'll being mean to me gave me the so-called schizophrenia.

Also

I'm being given annoying messages of people wanting kids younger than me to talk to.

Problem

I can tell I'm being made fun of and just plain old being taken advantage of.

Something Funny

Someone started following something of mine, and I don't know why, like did someone tell her?  I don't mine if she did.  :(  It just bothers me that they play kooky games and try to hurt me like that.  It isn't right.  It's annoying, and I don't deserve to be annoyed like that.  It's not my responsibility.

Also, yer just gonna make me more mad and think of bad things..

Apology

If you misunderstood what I said about evening it up and making the parental generation uncaring about their Baby Boomer children, but I was just stating an idea.

Me

Vine

Instagram

AHHH!

I'm trying to learn the Flower Duet in French, and it's so hard.  I keep coming back at random.

Who did this?

Google Translate does not have the speaker.

Problem

My Twitter lists aren't working right.

Problem

My post was erased from a list of posts for no reason.

Problem

I wanted to have my day, but they're tiring me.

Problem

They're threatening me and trying to hurt me.  This is my private life.  They need to stop bothering me all the time.

Now, they're not bothering me..

..Is something the matter?

I already said you were bothering me..

..on both blogs.

Look, I'm not crap.  What do you want?

Problem

They're making ticking noises everywhere I go just to waste my breath of life.

And insulting me.

A Personal Thing

I just don't like how something I did made someone stimulate someone in a way that is probably devastating to someone.

Wait

Ellen will pop up with some nice message then change.

Weird

Ellen thinks I'm so not good enough for her she'll change her whole show + act goofy in an insulting manner..

Upset

1st get online and talk about Johnny Depp.. then decide I cannot sing.  Everyone always liked my singing.  So much..

Who cares?

Let Ellen mess up her life.  There's no talking outta that she's a liar.  Who knows, if she hurt someone, why does she think no one can hurt her?  Why don't we f*** with her parental generation to her?

Problem

Ellen posted a picture she knew I wouldn't like.  She wants to *** someone outta this world, but she has like no place talking to her.

My dad and Ellen won't stop bothering me.  I don't even want my dad in my life like that.  This is just ***.

Apology

I've been getting upset lately around my dad.

I'm gonna go ahead

and take it back about saying someone needs help.  I'm just another zombie with sleep loss.

Apology

to putting on a show of anger for the other person, who ruined my life.

I see..

..you've been able to linger on my telling someone they need help, cuz I get it and don't need it.  I can't just say sorrry.  You are threatening to tell people in my life they need help in a bad way.  The problem is it almost seems like a kind of thing to suggest to this person.  They are a bit annoying, so I've heard tell.

Apologies

Apparenlty, there are things I was not aware of?

Apology

More negative thoughts today, maybe just slipped my mind.

Apology

Sorry, if you are upset at my blaming the person, I guess the extra terms.

Problem

They keep making things that don't make sense and saying happen.  They are trying to stimulate me.

Sorry

I said you need to get over looking for an apology, but I don't know what else to say.. You didn't really hear it, you'd know what I didn't mean.  ?  Guess it's just nice?

Lying

I was shocked my dad proved he was upset about when I said "Oh no" when he came home, as I explained.  That means he was lying in spirit.  Supposedly, none of this was for that.

Problem

Why was my dad so like sheltering of thinking I was offensive to him saying, "Oh, no!" when he got home.  He shoulda thought I was being shy.  I was't done with homework!

I could see he was like glaring at me at the table.  They all got cozy about their bickering.  I was upset about that cuz I ain't dealin' w/it.  It's like my life is all ruined, and they think that's okay.

Mad?

No, I don't think I was.  I am an adult, and I don't need to be looked down upon.

Bad Supper

I kept being upset about what my dad did, and he wouldn't take his attention off.  I also saw him trying to stare me down.

You'll get in trouble for being picky.

Okay, I'll say I'm sorry for the misunderstanding of what I said or shouldn't'a said.

Apology

Sorry for the notes that weren't as nice on Twitter.  D:

Ah (I) just wanted to say..

I in no way endorse that thing that came up again in fact.  I don't want to know I was "getting it out."  I want to go back to being safe and nice.

It may be natural..

..I just heard I wouldn't be what cut.

Problem

Not sure that's what I wanted to post, usually don't erase-

They are being mean!

You wanna talk?

None of what you say seems to be okay.  You're trying to ruin people.

We should all forget about you.

Stop

I don't wanna take place in this pointless trail.

Problem

They are pushing me to post.  They might start a string of insults and threats.

Woah!

I wasted time complaining.  It should have been more in general but ended up about wanting to talk about what Ellen does.

Problem

I still feel like I'm being made fun of.

Problem

Why won't this stop?  They did something, and it bothered me, whether or not it's okay from above.

I was thinking of how I am with my family, and my family seems to want to mistreat me.  It was from when I was just a little girl.  It made me think of llama spit, something that shouldn't matter.  Something like that.  I just wanted to go by without talking about what goes on.  But this does go on!  What is the harm in posting it?  It just wastes my time, but it makes me feel better than sitting here having it pester me.  I know someone will read it and get something out of it.

Let me remind you, I was offended and don't know what else could be going on, but you need to leave me alone.

If you didn't just get that, that I just felt bad so thought I had to talk it out, I don't wanna know what you got.  What's wrong?  I'm just saying.  What're you doing?

Problem

You should just leave me alone.

Problem

They just keep coming up on purpose.

My dad suggested to me 2 things to do with if he had read my blog, but it was kinda funny.. with an annoying suggestion of a message.  More things came up.  Also, my breast slipped a little under my bra.  Each side.

Don't you find this wrong?

About Race

If I wanna be white, then I can be white.  I feel in trouble for not being white.  Do it today.  Figure it out.  Wake up the white people you so love!  Don't make them be what they don't want, and stop messin' with me.

Well

I'm a white person, I act white.  I am appealing where I should be.  I don't see anyone else being hunted down.  You think what they did is forgiveable and that they didn't really do anything cuz you think of their bad families.

So, how's everything, now?

I shouldn't be eternally punished with no way out.

Problem

They're messing around with me, making the page load long.. after I thought of something and seem to think something of it.

I just want the best.

If Ellen does something, that makes me mad, like severing a tie.

Problem

Why fight with me, Ellen?

Problem

She can't be mean to me when I said I wanted to fight her for being mean cuz I didn't start it.  I wanna debate fight.

This is pathetic.  She did some things or something that might be considered illegal by some, even..but because of it.

So, what's wrong now?  Are you multiplying when I said something small like that again I don't even remember?  I said she was just evil?  Well, she is sometimes.  It hurt me.  I didn't hurt her back, but she acts like I made a big deal over it.  I just don't wanna follow like I did something.  Something's not right.

Liar

If Ellen said it was okay, she's not.

I was thinking..

..with Ellen, I told you she upsets me and probably will again, so.

I wasn't trying to even be mean, but I have the right to if she does, like I might be a little mean on accident and hard of writing what's going on.  I try to fix it.  I have left things out.

I just want to talk about it, but no one cares.  It seemed quite hurtful.  I should take it.  She always brings in the bad news.  People were telling me she did it, though, and when people do that sometimes I get mad eventually, usually it seems.  I don't even want to know.

Who made me mad?

Ellen.  So I was mad at Ellen.  It just came up.  Now, all I can say is Ellen wants to attack me for talking about my problems.

Problem

I don't care what you say.  I'm not listening to Ellen and don't mean whatever you wish so you could be bad to me.

Problem

Someone wanted to talk to me via e-mail or some IM, just for fun that person isn't real and it's a coincidence..

Problem

I can't adjust my new YouTube heading, anymore.  Stop doing these illegal things.

Problem

They did something again..  They loaded the page when I was looking at something.

They also said something mean @ someone.

Problem

They are suggesting something special to me was Asian on the Soapbox.

Problem

Ellen has nothing on me.

Problem

They won't quit the messages.  The microwave doesn't work and I wanted a quick nite snack.  Something else.. oh yea my dad got 2 pizzas @ Papa John's.  So, guess who will end up using that for food?

Problem

They aren't stopping.

Problem

They are being mean to someone.  Stop messing with my computer!  DIDN'T I JUST SAY THAT!

I SAID STOP BOTHERING ME.

Problem

The computer made it look like Ellen picked up Bella, too.  Brats!  It was okay before.

Problem

Ellen, you can't quit liking Chinese in every way.

Problem

STOP THREATENING ME!

Why

I said to make Ellen mad or whatever, cuz they used my annoying neighbors to get a rise in me and make me wanna hit something.  It was a figure of speech, duh.  Who cares, though?  I'm being mistreated.

Did you know..

..Instagram doesn't work on my Internet Explorer nor BlackBerry?

Got Upset

Don't take it seriously, something happened I don't wanna point attention to.  I am not sorry to Ellen etc. but sorry in general in case anyone out there cares.

Problem

They won't stop.  They acted like my daughter's 1st word was a tacky elepahant and then posted a plane like mine, bird.

Problem

Ellen, ya'll can't have this for you.  Quit it, let's make you mad.  No one cares @ your race.

Problem

Ellen picked a girl from PA posting herself with curly black hair and dark skin.

Problem

I don't want Ellen's nor your creative touch in my Twitter.  I posted someone bothering me, and you made a new contact support her.

Problem

Ellen keeps not letting me feel normal, thinks it's Chinese.  Like, people who are nice to me are prone to her wrath, and it's not right.  It is not ^weak Chinese^.  Maybe, she's a bit hard on the inside.  She likes to act like it's something she could show off.  Well, you can't show off being strong over me like that or whatever.  I don't even care if you made the snap decision I wronged your blood.  It's not true.

Problem

I just turned my computer on again and they made the IMs not load.

Just Woke Up

I slept like over 6 hours ago, and that part is still stimulated, in fact the whole short area.  (Ellen, heard my neighbor make a noise.)

Problem

My neighbor sounded like he said m*********** and later Chinese, and it made me feel like the 1st when I heard them.

Problem

My neighbors made a noise and in the end it stimulated me.  I wanted to go to bed.

My Problem

She never seems to sort anything out.  I just said I think it was someone else and found out it was her.  I still don't believe it's her.

Problem

I just posted about Ellen on IMDb, and they are pressuring my ears.  They are physically harming me.

If you don't like it..

..why do you do it?

Problem

Go find some real nasty people and have a ball.

So..

What do you wanna talk about, what I just said or that I said you were "just 'evil?'"  I didn't mean anything weird.  Looks like you're gonna lose.

Problem

I don't care what Ellen thinks.  She does not learn to let go and makes these things happen.  She's just an evil person.  I still am interested, though, cuz others mighta been eviler.

And I didn't do anything to her!  I don't know how else to say.  She won't go back to being nice.  She won't leave me alone.  She must have problems..  Well, "talk to me about it.."

Problem

Ellen is still hurting me.  I said I wanted to fight her, and everything changed.  She had acted that she did all this mean stuff to me, all the weird noises and way my computer loads and the mean way people treat me.  I took it back, figured it was too risky for her.  Anyway, now, I am sensing a disturbance in the force.

Problem

My iron isn't turning on, yet..

Apology

Sorry for what goes on in my head.. I was kinda busy right now and got hurt.  Not sure what to say, was hurt and it just happens.. as does to me probably.  No one probably bugs most people like this.  I don't really mean it, but I am upset.

Problem

Ya'll are just on autopilot. Look at what a mess you are.

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Problem

I feel different, like a vein just popped out some. It may be going back.

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Problem

Twitter doesn't have a link to press to load more Tweets on Internet Explorer.  It happened suddenly.

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Sorry If You Are Offended

About I said so I heard your singing.. it has lotta good work and quality.  People are just different.  You shouldn't be plunging in like that, I meant, saying other people can't sing or can't sing as well.  Dunno?

Problem

This person keeps loading stuff a certain way to talk to my on my computer for Ellen.  They also just tried to reassure me I said something I didn't say that they like and I don't.

Problem

I was already an okay person.  I don't need to be mushy with my parents like others of you do.  I'm a good person, already.

Problem

They won't stop sending messages.  It was about the leg of my dad and a window popped up when I got a message about it!

More Nonsense to Taket the Time to Say in Danger of..

..posting too much of this.

They moved something on my screen as I was about to close a window, I think.