I don't care about you, but I still wish I could go back and do it over. What's the big deal? I said I didn't mean it violently. They kept threatening years of my life. They were acting annoying, too. I just wanna make a point about who says what. It seems I can't do anything about it, tho. I probably have negative energy from the rest of Central Florida. About the imagining of others, they kept acting mockingly and trashily towards me. Sorry about that, but they were being mean. They threatened my relationship. That's not safe around them, but you were making fun of me. I'll try not to do it again. This is stupid, tho. You make a living/life out of stupid things like curse words and "imaging violence." Psychologists understand we think that sometimes. What can you do about that? I don't even get into things like that as video games, what I had in my dream I think today. Why is that so serious? I just had 1 goal, not to get physical. I didn't even mean it as violence. It was a byproduct. I just had that kind of thought stuck like that because of you. I can feel Ellen making fun of me. That's a big problem. I need peace and quiet and some privacy. Ellen does things without thinking of why. She probably went wild in Hollywood, or crazy. What can you say? She doesn't try to make things make sense. She wants them to be hard and violent, like some younger person. Anyone would know what I'm talking about who knows of her from either the Disney ride or the show.
Oh, and I "don't care" about you but that I wish I were better cuz you keep bothering me and poking fun.
What can I do? You know what also entered my dreams? Dr. Phil. He had a louder, lower voice. I saw him mostly from the back. He is silly. All he does is say someone was mean and his revolutionary statement "that it needs to change." He's smart, yes. But that's all he can do. He does it over and over with different people.
Okay, I'll try to control my thoughts from violence and the words that people are s***, n*****s.. what else? Well, curse words and to deliberate the word "stupid."
I already offended them with this snap decision. They never really talk about it much. Maybe, they want it to be a mystery. I don't do that. They never said why. They get mad if I stomp my foot or grit my teeth in private.
Why ruin my relationships? Does it depend on if the deed was done on them? It wasn't to go out and hurt anyone innocent. I kept thinking about it, but they kept going! What is this, anyway? Why can you threaten me, with years of *beep* suggested? Are you holding a smile about my past 10? What's wrong with me asking that? So what if my dad is 65 and I was born in 1985?? My mom's age is secret. I think differently than families with people younger than my parents!
Well, okay, might be in jail for being black, but I will try not to think of violence nor cursing, save my wrath for private sorting out.