Friday, March 20, 2015

Maybe

Ellen is not bad, but who is it!

No Hope Chickens for Good

I've accepted people for what they are, good for nothing on this earth.

It's all about my friends, just because I spammed them in crisis!!

Too Much

I see people everywhere who don't want me to talk about what they do to me.  This is so hilarious, people popping up wanting sex.

Let's think about that.

Let's not.

It might be okay.

I think they were addicted as a child.

I don't want pickiness

to do with Ellen.  She's being nasty and I can't have a relationship with anyone.  How negative and selfish is that?

You're all just tricking me.

You have too many negative connotations.  I am in charge here.

Getting Uncomfortable

I wonder who's behind this.  This is more of Ellen punishing me and I want that whatever it is to stop.  I already ditched her and accepted her for who or what she was..  "What" as in a way that makes sense, not as in an object..  :/  As in ditched her it's for these messages that Bella Thorne is #1.  Or said to be better than me.

A Quick Threat

I got a word captcha suggesting I was trash and would die.

Going Crazy

My mom just came in and said I have salad and then said nothing and turned off the laundry room light.  How inappropriate that this had to happen.  I don't get why she came long after my dad did.  I didn't even get up to go to the bathroom again when I will take my shower.

I can always tell when someone does something to me.

Feeling Bad

I can tell Bella and Ellen are barging into my personal relationships, which I could have had without them.  They are making wild fantasies in a copycat materialwise manner.  These fantasies don't even include me.  I mean I don't seem to be allowed to have them now.  How lame is that.

The Healthy Talking Out

So, I'm getting the feeling Bella Thorne is like back off it's just me, I get everything I saw you get.  "Anyone can have it, why not?" I heard like Helena Bonham Carter, who split up with Tim Burton after a long, healthy, and apparently ripened time.  I solved that in the mall today.  I'm just anyone or that someone who deserved or got something in her life.  Oh, and I hear it's Ellen saying I can't meet other people.  How ridiculous is that?  I was cursing about the noises she grumpily etc. claimed to have put in my room.  How can someone be so selfish?  What, she didn't do it?  It's selfish.  I can see this coming out worse later if I don't say it now.

Where I'm At

I still have to talk about the problems sometimes.  It's how you talk it out.  You pick something and you talk about it.  Something can happen, you talk about it.

Older Posts From the Day

Hiccups.  Really sorry to Ellen for being insane.  I am wondering and trying to get under control.  Just to say sorry.  Not looking for the attention.

Too Late

Ellen, but what about the side of her that's wrong.  The one that comes thru the experiment I hoped wasn't her.

Too Late

I don't like that, being picky about the past.  I forget what else.  I did say I wasn't ready and I was set up.  I saw.  My dad used the word "focus" and I couldn't.

Missing Blog

I have something to say on my Problems blog, but I'm mobile and it's overload.

In a Rage

My dad keeps bargaining with me and what he just did for no reason whatsoever.

Bothered

Now, my dad thinks he has something on me.  I'm tired of getting this crap to write down.  He thinks my lap is hands and that my lips were hands, too, not something involving recieving.  How embarrassing to bring that up on me.  I kinda forgot about it, but I heard some cars outside talking about it.

Hope Things Go Better

I guess I just didn't go by little signs and am more direct, I dunno.  I'll have to read the insults, later.  I'm not here to sit and deflect these experimenters like a statue.  Like, little hints of thoughts where you take it in stride.  I feel they just threw what I said out the trash, that I am not engaging myself for failure.

Won't Quit

They won't be quiet now.  They are being really mean and don't care, racists.

No Chance, No Way

You didn't give me a chance.  This was all a bunch of insults and s***.

Dishing Out S***

You guys have your perverted fantasies.

All Jealous

You all are being mean cuz yer jealous.

Ruining It

No one cares what I was thinking.  You don't know what I mean.

Fools

You don't have the right to judge me.  You ruined it!

Who do you think you are?

Why do you keep fighting me?

Liar

You're lying, you farted all over me.

Stop giving it to Bella!

That's my relationship.  She can have her own.

What's wrong?

Look, what's wrong with you?

I'm not leaving my relationship by your choice.

Who's abusing me in the cracks.  I won't accept one ounce of it.  This my blog.

Why don't you get outta here?

You don't seem to be wanted in my life anyone.

You're all excited and poopsy like a pooper of a party.

Quit it.

You were mean to me and dish it all to Bella Thorne.  I don't take that, Ellen!

I said to stop being mean.  This my blog!
You did take it away, already!

I see exactly what's going on.

You were being mean to me about that person.  I want it perfect.  I don't want any weird punishment, and I don't like my dad in this thinking he gets to have me punished and affect me!

Snobs on Twitter

You can't tell me what to do.  I trusted you, and you betrayed that.

I know who did it.

I am mad about the Bella Thorne thing with Ellen.

Lots of Arrogance and Resistance

People are changing their lives to oust me.

They just waved a browser in front of my face!

Anyway, I can post a lot if I want.  I didn't do anything.  Soon, I won't care about you much at all.

Don't Push Me Away From People

Stop being so snotty.

You don't have the right to sit there and judge me and ruin it for me.

Going Out

I hope things get better still.  I want everyone to have fun and love.  I want to talk out the barriers.

I am sorry for having to mention people.  I was sloppy.

They're going crazy.

They said everything is for Bella Thorne with a big symbol.  Why does she think she is or needs to be better than everyone else seemingly from these messages?  Don't put me in the hole with you.  I forget, but I think something else made me post this.

Why does Ellen only like the younger, attractive young people?

They rubbed it in even more, like magic and out of this earth.

No one is really in my life.

They might be in some way, but if you called someone to come over and ask..

cont.

obv. I mean that she thinks I deserve to be punished for my life or a long time..

No one cares what Ellen thinks.

She was mean to me.

I mean she put noises in my room like this and it disappointed me.  I guess this means nothing.

Stop Being Mean to Me

They are saying Bella has this person I like.  They think it's the amount they get away with violating me and worsening my life with my dad.

A Bother

They threatened me that I would lose touch with someone by being overly touched with another.

Being Bad

They are insulting me.

Trouble Quelled

My trouble seems to have stopped, tho I still got more negative messages.

Mean Messages

I'm getting in trouble for nothing and these people are literally here spraying words at me all day.

Problems With Me

Why do you keep having a problem with me?

I'm not taking this.

I don't want the whole city against me.   I can't seem to relax as much nor get very excited.

Just to Clarify

That is a nice man, nothing against the person.

cont.

Maybe, that's why I shouldn't worry, even if they taunt me more.

What was I to do??

They just kept going.  I wanted to cover bases.  I don't like when they use other people to annoy me.  They tried to make it cute and real.  These people are so mean..

Just Informing

I just wanted to say what happened and they followed suit to do more.

Posting

Why did I bother to post so much.. just happened.

Stop, you, making a big deal over little things.  I'm not some statue that will sit and accept what you say and get away with it.  I don't believe talking is dangerous.

Computer Things

I keep seeing them change the internet signal now.

Now, they are acting like my son would be like that or else.  Now they said, "Do you really wanna have kids?"

Hate

What can I say?  They are being petty about me doing things that aren't my plan of being in a movie.

Upsetting and Apologizing

They just bugged me again.  They changed my screen to blue, too.  They said a guy I saw when I signed on was my future babies.  It's bad enough that peple wanna replicate the flaws of my own dad.

I guess to the real Ellen I say no I don't think it's my fault things went wrong, and I don't like your jokes about me to please the crowd.  I don't like your help in being mean to me in private.

About romantic, I meant not to really say it too much but that it's a disregard for others's feelings and what makes people gay or not.

They're still rubbing in things I don't like, how that guy is who kinda looks like my dad, to my possible future kids.

They did something I might have barely seen maybe, now.  They did something and again something else.  Why don't you do it to yourself and lay off?  I'm not a mummer.

They will celebrate more.  Look what they done?
I said to stop having these people involved.
I said stop acting like I'm bad and doing illegal things.

So perverted.

You're just perverted.  You're not the romantic type.  You don't know what you're doing all perverted.  Who?  I don't know for sure and what.  It's what seems to be happening and important to change or else this life just ain't worth it.  I said I was staking my life otherwise.

Acting All Uppity

They startled me with an expression.

I don't care about Bella.

She should not be overlapping my close relations to others than yourself.

Who?

I hope no one.  Do I know?  I didn't say anything mean.  I just am being impartial.  If they did it, they deserve to be punished or told on or stopped!  It's just an idea partly.  I know it's not like all something Ellen did, but who really knows?
Acting like a perv.
Just Trashing People's Lives
It's not worth it.

Publicized

It seems they've outpublicized people for pleasure..Ellen.  Quit ruining my life.

Police

My dad seems to be a threat to anyone knowing me.

Should Talk to Me

No one should leave because of my dad being in the way.  He's not a part of my life.

I'm not listening to my dad.

He Liked something on my Facebook with the word Never.

Just Interested

watched Alton Brown from Good Eats

Bugging Me

I think they did something to bug me about my dad being online.  I'm just living my innocent life.

It might not matter to you..

..but it matters to everyone else.

Playing

They keep pretending my oldest aunt is involved manipulating someone I like to ruin it.  She has no right in my life like that.  What is your problem?  Ellen?

I'm not fighting someone.

I guess you just did the Johnny Depp method and you had blasted someone's weak points so that someone hurts them.

Don't tell me that.

That Bella Thorne is better.

Stop stealing my relationships.

More

I see other people think I got myself in a fight.

Stop ruining my relationships.  I have to have some.

Appealing.. Appalling

I didn't do anything bad like you all did.  You all are perverted in involving yourself in this.

In the Moment

It seems like you just want the excitement of me flinching all the time.  That I can't have.  I'm not sure what was going on with maybe you said someone could not read anything I wrote ever who I like a lot but can with Bella.  That isn't right.  You did not just win the lottery on being mean to me.  Of course, I am talking about different people here or things in general that happen.

How does that make sense anyway just not to read what I write when I write a lot but read what someone else writes in this situation.

Why tell me I violated you by saying I won't have this?  You should not be able toe control this.  I wlile not accept being in trouble with Ellen?  I see this leading up to me being murdered.  I have goals in life, and this is just something I won't take.  It -is- silly, too.  What can I do to get it to stop where I'm being followed all around as a bad person?

They won't stop

making someone I like insult me with great pleasure.  People experimenting on me.

Hurt

Now, you're just hurting me.

Stop acting like you're someone else.

cont.

someone nice being mean to me, it's so like you all.

I don't wanna be like I'm fighting.

I want help with my feelings.

More

I thought I said to stop.  They are saying it's for Bella again.  Suggesting probably she gets all and I'm just getting my life wasted probably cuza my dad.  Is it?  That would make me very mad.  I mean, I'm 28 and it's inappropriate to me..  I like meeting others and am not shy to say I like people in parental ways.  I don't fall in love and wanna marry people much much much older, tho.  My dad is just being possessive unnecessarily with a grudge.  That's not okay.  It's affected my life.  I may be tired at school every day because of the pills my mom says I have to take cuz I live with them.

Not to Make a Scene

I'm not the one to make a scene.  I just am impersonally talking about something.

Ready for Peace

I come on ready to be nice, and you just dig to blame me for things in my past and are "incoherent" and "make no sense/nonsensical."

Mean to Me!

These people are mean to me.  Doesn't anyone care?

More

The word captcha was wrong.

Waste of My Life

You're wasting my life.

This is a big problem.

You made that noise when I said it wasn't about Bella, my life.

I said to stop

acting for Ginny Kopf that you're actually saying bad things as someone I like.

I just felt my eyes go like a sea anemone.  I saw I was set up with a Finding Nemo video.  Someone posted a symbol with an eye.

Why Not?

They just played the volume sound for the 1st time I remember when starting my tablet-computer.

Why would someone say Bella Thorne deserves the find and I didn't?  I could have found these people eventually/anyway.  What's important to you?  Why you keep arguing?

Quit arguing with me as other people.  I don't have haters.

Funning

I think Ellen got some people to make fun of me on IMDb, saying I'm a fart like my dad cuz they're overly sensitive RACISTS.

What?

What did I do wrong?  What you said was very wrong.  It's not up to you, it's up to the person doing it or not.  If you're kidding, you shouldn't mind me saying this.  I didn't violate you.

How can this be stopped?

I should have argued instead and said it was unfair?  They act like it's partially untrue.  Not much seems to matter to them.  Why won't they leave me alone?
I will not let you have someone not read what I say but what Bella Thorne says.

Private

I just don't wanna talk to you messed up people believing in this experiment with being mean to me in private.

Satisfaction

Someone thinks I can't make a racial point.

Perverted Messages

on the Soapbox, about me sharing black features.  I can just imagine you so cozy and lofty not really caring about me but others.

This treatment is freaky.  I don't owe you anything.

I'm used to

striving towards goals and learning the hardships along the way, not totally ruling me out to where I'm dysfunctional.

Take it back..

OK, I didn't mean sarcastically and stuff, just saying in general about the punishment thing.
There is no need to irritate anyone.

If I'm punished

I need to stake myself elsewhere.

You all are pathetic.

You have no right to suddenly say even you need to disgustingly punish me.  Maybe, some of you didn't.

Disgusting

They are making it so someone is being disgusting about me.  Hey, stop it.  I didn't do anything.

I will not accept this.

People worrying about me being bad all the time.  You've stolen at least 6 years of my life.  Count 6 more and see where you are now.

Qualms

I don't wanna see someone rubbed every day over me, like m***********.  I don't wanna die of a panic attack, neither.  Do you ever find yourself necessarily stimulated in whatever way is possible?

Teased

Do you ever get the feeling nothing will ever be about you again.. just because Ellen doesn't like that I used curse words when upset about the noises in my room but didn't tell me?  Aren't we free to say whatever we want as long as it's legal, like not a threat?  They were noises!  I tried to avoid cursing about her.  That's like a life sentence.  I got no warning nor feedback nor did anyone rescue me.

Yes, I'm throwing in the towel and nesting myself a hole.  I don't wanna jump every time I see someone do something for someone else.  So, I don't need to ask why they supposedly "still" deserve it.  If people do this to prove I mattered, it seems that's not true at all.  I was very conscientious about being good.  What would you do if people were insulting you all day in private?  Also, if you were stuck with your parents and they hated you?