Something Funny

They think this is just pretend, but they took someone I look up to who is hard to get to talk to and made it like a play version of them just hanging in some overly close way with people I've tried to include or have included somewhat in my life, maybe pretending it's just an idea and not in any sense "actually" happening.  I mean, this person is hard to talk to, in a way.  Lots of people would like to talk to then, I'm pretty sure.  They know, tho, that they are different and it wouldn't go well and people in situations like this with me make up weird reasons why they don't talk to people who are hard to get to talk to.  I mean, they pop out of nowhere hanging out with someone I like a lot, maybe too much to make them tippy, which I think is a sacrifice socially.

I do have a problem.

They said it's my fault they have to inappropriately stimulate someone I look up to.

Apology

I didn't want to bother someone having a good time.

I know I'm not supposed to comment, on that, like saying it's not perfect.

I know I felt bad in the car.  I should have held it in.

I was tricked.  I needed to get home and know what's what.  I made myself comfortable, slept, ate, and showered.

I am wondering, tho, about them telling me these things are real, people losing it thinking it should be this way and making things happen to me that probably is rather weird.  I can't, anyway, write each time something happens.  I don't know I should have said this now even, but discussing it is indeed different from being upset.

Problem

I masturbated 4 times.

Problem

They won't stop being mean to me and hurting me.

Problem

My dad crossed out someone I like so much for no reason that he says they're not even human.  He did that to the other person I loop up to with wood.

Problem

They said someone I like said to be tacky.

Problem

An ad showed up that suggested someone I know making fun of someone else I know sexually to arouse them a lot in a way that's disturbing.

Problem

They weaseled their way into making them feel totaled like this again..

Disturbing things seem to happen.

Their body was totaled like an orgasm.

Problem

In a sneaky way, they are starting to exemplify someone I look up to as feeling tippy in an inappropriate way.

Problem

They keep acting like someone I like is loopy over being involved in the Presidential election.

I was just having private thoughts when I heard a goofball from Orlando on the radio, and now it's all this.

Problem

They are "up in here" thinking I have to feel bad now.

Problem

They won't stop and are trying to publicize I'm with someone I don't wanna and being nasty, like I'm just there forever.

Prolbem

My dad tried to fix me in "wood" to someone and I don't wanna.

Problem

They are messed up and won't stop.

Problem

How am I supposed to function?  I have violin to practice.

They said someone I look up to said in a bad way to, "Go away."

Problem

My mom timed at me that someone I don't want is "dad" to a kid I supposedly have and said to follow is a loopy version of a person I look up to.

Problem

He keeps doing it.

Problem

He wants me in an erection.

Problem

My dad has been driving trying to fixate me onto someone in a way I don't want.  He said I someone is switching fame  with me that I like.  It's cuz election day wasn't perfect.  Not sure what to make of it except that my dad is ruining it more.  He is getting worse!

Doing Something Aimless

They are threatening a relationship because I posted something intelligent on my blog:

What'd'ya'druther? (What would you rather?)

Would you rather be stimulated or not?

Follow others's orders or not follow others's orders?

A Good Question to Figure Out

Why is it considered right to overly stimulate some people and not others for no explained reason?  It is probably to "punish" others or something else wrong.

Wrong Blog

Question

So, what did I do that was so bad?

Problem

They won't stop weirdly stimulating someone I look up to.