Issue

When I try to think positive, they tell me I am down.

cont.

more pressure.

They said they turned me off for good.

I'm being attacked.

after posting that.  They are ruining me, like killing something in me.

So..

Now, someone I like is supposedly being said as acting how people here act in ways they shouldn't.  They aren't tending to acting appropriately and it has unlikable qualities.

I'm being pressured more now and I have to sit here and fight it.  The people watching me in private are sending me these mean messages and it makes my body lose control, like the inside is moving or the outside is changing.

They seem to just keep giving me problems.  Their messages come with pain.

Why?

They keep being mean to me like I'm bad and telling me people who are important to me have something bad to say.

Every day, they agitate some part of me physically, usually more than a couple times.  It feels uglier or more messed up.

Every time they say something bad, they act like it's okay cuz you can always find some good in what it's related to.

Hurt Me

What if they are kidding and what if they're not?

Bothered

People keep making me out like I'm bad.  They said that I owe it to everyone in the world because they are too scared to confront the people who they feel supposedly ruined their life cuz they're not the sacred little baby of the world.

The people experimenting on me are getting in the way of my relationships.

I know my life seems to have a lotta weird decisions to make and I don't always know the right ones.  So what?  Why pick on me?

Bad Karma

It seems people are copying my old best friends being mean cuz I wrote e-mails to people when very lonely when no one would talk to me and I didn't think to blog.

Bothered

My mom messed with my hip area and in some way feels less natural.

They are taking advantage of an opportunity for me with someone I like.

My World

It should be about me, not making me have a baby in imagination like that.  I heard Ellen DeGeneres said it.  Supposedly, someone I like helped her say that.  My world is ruined.  I think the way my mom is driving me roughly is getting me in trouble with my thoughts and things I like.

Issue

I just thought of someone hurting me and now I'm losing in a relationship just because I like it.

Problem

I feel more touched by the idea of someone they said a lot I like but against someone else and also anger I posted this.

Problem

Now, at any time, they can keep mentioning one person to counter another I like.

Feeling Broken

I have a violin lesson today.

Problems

What's wrong with the people experimenting on me making someone I like seem to send mean messages?

Also, they are still on about my getting mad at someone for awhile after all the cars roared past me saying the name of someone else.  I sorta lost it.  I had been already.  May be the rides at the festival I went on.  I'm sorry about the person doing this but not the people experimenting on me bothering me.

They think they can do whatever they want to me that's mean and that it's just fate.  It's not fate to run out in the middle of a street and get a car to run over you.  Disclaimer:  For weird people out there, no, I don't mean anything bad in what I say.

Did you know sometimes, the Save button blinks a few times in a row?

Still Here

Ellen DeGeneres?  Doing things against my will?  Did she tell people to send me a message for her to ruin my life?  If she likes me, she likes her audience better and likes to bug me.  I'm one of a kind, so I don't fit in the crowd.  I stopped watching probably mostly so I wouldn't get caught up in her thinking I watch every show.

Ready

I'm an adult.  I've already scouted out dating sites for future relationships.  I don't have kids for 2 reasons, I didn't want my own and I'm not ready, healthy, and with my life/career.

Problems

They took away my world and are acting like I have to have baby.

Problem

It seems they made my world someone else.

So..

..all I did was think about how mean someone was to try to trick me that they are being nice to me, and now one of my favorite people is having people say the name of someone else all the time around me!

Problem

The people watching me in private are being gay saying I can't be upset.