In My Own World

I realize if some of you don't wanna be a part of it.

I am interested in what just happened.

I wonder why I don't get fed anger pills I asked for.  I think they helped.  I don't have schizophrenia because I'm not all white.. or because a girl can get mad.  I bet a lotta people get anger pills/liquid meds.  Why does a pill define your fate, tho?

See, I was at a movie and I was upset where no one might see.  I already said I'm not ruining the seat so hit myself.  Well, punched.  Immature and maybe immature to talk about.  I just felt the muse say I need some penance tho I already gave a sincere apology.

I don't wanna direct my disagreement as anger toward anyone.  What's there to agree on?  I don't go out and do weird things to play safe.  People come from different seats in life.  I know for a fact there are big differences in different hot spots of the US that affect our ability to judge as humans.

A stupid question with a stupid answer, "Why are some people so mean to me?"

I had told myself okay no one's watching, I'm not hitting the chair.  I need to control myself, even if I were in jail.  It's just a movie.

Apologies ..Again?

Sorry to this person, but it's sad I justified my cursing..  I was mad they seemed to put me in the wrong.

I tried brushing off the other person.  I was not trying to want to direct at her undue anger..  I got more threats that might just be some thing.

I dunno and my mom is trying to make me feel in some extremity for Ellen.  I will try to ignore.