Problem

People keep acting like nothing just happened, etc.

Issues

Some things are getting in the way of my soundness.

I'm trying to figure things out in advance to losing my mind.

No..

..I don't support certain kinds of things.

I'm a good person.

What is with this influx of unpleasantness?  No one in their right mind wants this.  Wish I could know more people like that.  Too bad people don't like networking on Facebook.

Why..

Why if I just feel upset do you "punish" me?  Whoever's telling anyone to do this is wrong.

Problem

Why are you people so discouraging to me when I post about something that's disturbing me?  Like, that's the only reason someone would attack, supposedly?

You can't just make rules that make no sense.  I would rather live in a way that's livable.  I feel made fun of but not others.

My Dad

I am not depressed, but I feel bad that my dad was trying to get close to me but kept acting like it was to punish me.  That's just confusing.  I hope he's not done.  He wasn't as pleasant afterwards.

You know, whenever people today seemed invasive to me, it's like it's my fault cuz I thought of curse words at the table while the Emmys were on.

I was thinking, why not just interact with hot white guys and get vibes from white people in this way?  You know, white guys with fair skin and light brown hair combed back with a bowl cut, for example.

Problem

They just can keep "punishing" me when they want.

Liars

Sometimes, I think some people lie to me that they're cool with me.

What?

Do you have strict orders from my father and you don't really do anything, in a way?

No..

I'm not listening to my relatives.  I'm not considering my grandma in my life like that as a mom in any way.  I didn't get to visit her when I was interested and she was still more relatable than in her older age.  Now, she is mean..

Am I gonna get another surprise message for living as I should at 29 and warding this possessive nature off in situations?  Like, "losing a friend" in some way like it was some joke?

My Rep

I care that I have a good reputation and live up to it.

Edit

I'm also posting it to my Facebook.

Also added as the beginning: "It's time to let it out there to be truthful."  To the end "No offense, just looking for some help if there is any.."

feeling pissed

Chance

There is a possibility 2 people are making it so I can't feel good how I want like before.  They seem to think I was the one who was being mean.  I was upset they were mean to me.  It is being made into a bigger deal than what really happened.

They're also possibly trying to manipulate my relationships in negative ways.

It's like when I was threatened that someone would be mean to me "if" anyone was just flat out nice to me.

It needs to be stopped because it's wrong and could catch on to anyone innocent..