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Problem

They said someone I like wants to kill me and said I shouldn't post here anymore.

Well

I don't want them attached to 1 guy.

Oh, no!

Something wrong about my hands?  Like anyone cares.

Suspicious

Upset I'm upset?  They are laughing for some reason at me and for ruining my hands, like it's really bad.  I got a lotta hints.

Also, why are people I like hitching together with my family when it's for me and not them?  I am not a part of them nor like them in that way.

They just insulted me again for bringing up my hands.

Weird

What should I have done?  The cars were annoying me with how they talked.

I came home to find myself in this situation.

Pity

Why is Ellen DeGeneres ruining my life?

Problem

They won't stop!

Problem

I said no, I'm not getting close to my dad like that.  That's perverted, and I don't want to do it.  I forget something.

Problem

They took my relationship away.  That's what they said.

Apology

I'm sorry if anyone was offended.

Upset

What if I have nothing to look forward to and something else bad happens to me?

Problem

They keep telling me I'm bad when I've not hurt anyone nor broken the law exactly.

Is this some kinda joke?

What am I putting myself up for?

I must admit it.

I can't seem to think straight.  I don't know anyone who can help.

I think I'm gonna find something to do.  1st, I need to clean up my room and buy some things.  Maybe, later on, I'll find something I can depend on, something I can believe in.


As far as being a joke, if anyone is wondering who knows what I'm talking about, I'm just wondering because I feel bad and then I was treated badly for a long while.

Every night this happens

They upset me and I go to bed without practicing.

Oh

but they must want me to bow to them.

Fess Up

I was already over and above.  I bow to no one.

These people

talking to me instead of others is rather dim and dull.

Problem

They said for my spit glands to produce more water under pressure.

cont.

They are just busy trying to punish me until they're finished off I guess.

Problem

Why is someone I look up to having problems since the Presidential election?  They keep trying to stimulate them in ways that annoy me.

The people who work for them

keep being uptight like they have a problem with everything.

Problem

They keep redefining an ideal relationship!!  It can't be true!

Problems

They keep saying someone I look up to is being nasty to me.

They said I can't have someone I look up to now and that they're someone else and that person isn't that person.

Problem

They also included my dad in stimulating me in secret.

Problem

They think they can be mean to me.

Fine

I'm the one who's fine with my problems.

How I Feel

abandoned, lured in

Problem

The cars just bothered me.

Problem

They are giving me too many insults to type.

Look

Nothing happened.  Why are they onto me?  They keep bugging me how I feel behind the screen.  They are being nasty!

Problem

They said they can prevent me from getting something I want illegally.  Why won't they settle down?  I'm not hurting anyone.

Problem

They are throwing away my relationship.

Problem

Things were going so good until the cars.

What's your problem?

They keep acting like someone I look up to is incredibly mean to me.

They are being vile.

Problem

They are saying someone I look up to said to say bad things to me.  They're making me lose it and won't let me be in peace.

Problem

They keep being mean to me!  It's stupid!

They have my hands as someone I don't wanna as a punishment.

Something Strange

I forget what I was gonna say.  It seems like there's nothing here.  Those people just keep thinking weird things and going in circles speedily saying it's my fault and telling me what I really think and pretending I actually said this and that.

Problems

They keep telling me I'm bad cuz I am feeling upset all of a sudden.

They messed up my hands by connecting them to someone like I'm not as good.

Problems

They tried to ruin it for me..

cont.

So what, I thought it a few times like a headless chicken.  I dunno, I was on autopilot.  I was so bothered by people bugging me.  It's not their place to be just that way.  I felt uncomfortable and vulnerable.

Problem

I was coming home from a thought-filled walk, and all these cars came by saying because of my thoughts I lost the most precious thing in the world to me.  I came home, and my parents said the same thing.  I thought, hey, you can change your mind.  I even had earplugs on and they were busy and still bothering me.  I didn't feel well and was getting fresh food to bring into my room to eat.

Apology

I accidentally said something odd cuz I was physically fatigued.  Someone didn't hear me speak and looked at me meanly, so I spoke up. rather than get closer, and had a hard time trying to sound at all polite but just confused and not too harsh.  I mean, he was looking at me inappropriately.  Both things happened in the same place.

People believe there is no forgiveness, but I'm Catholic.

Tricking Me Is Possible

I can hear laughter echoing at crass messages being used to set me off or let me be a part of some stimulation, f.y.i.

I am not fussing but wondering, doesn't make it worse than remaining mum.

I'm not worried but find it interesting, a little alarming, and illegal.

It sheds light on other things.

cont.

They were insulting and making fun of me.  I couldn't turn it off.  It was sexual harassment.  I was somewhat upset and feeling weird and bad.

cont.

They think my reaction is their triumph.

cont.

They're out of place.

They were critiquing me unnecessarily.

cont.

They are being mean, of course.

Problem

Black people are trying to spot me out and be the one to give me sex.

Problem

I'm having a hard time with black people acting weird around me and they associated a bad memory with something important just to teach me a lesson as tho inevitable.

Problems

I stopped fussing over if someone is stimulated and now they are really gonna do it in a bad way according to what they say.