Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Hurtful, Illegal Noises
Things were going well with the noises, but I see they're back to their old games.
How am I bad?
You think I plan to be bad? You think I'm bad and other people aren't?
If I plan not to be bad, why do others plan that I be so I lose out in life but not to others? Racism.
If I plan not to be bad, why do others plan that I be so I lose out in life but not to others? Racism.
"It starts."
If I feel uncomfortable and they find a negative, they keep attacking me like that's fair.
Why do other kids get to feel calm in the family with parents who can work things out with the "real world?"
Why do other kids get to feel calm in the family with parents who can work things out with the "real world?"
You know, I wonder..
..some other things have disturbed me and overtaken others concerning me. What if that's a determining factor in this downward spiral of logic and trying to off me from my struggles.
"I thought I just.."
I thought I just ended this, but no. My dad won't agree with my mom and has too much charged up to attack me, after my concern for him, like I'm a trash monkey when I'm not.
Happy About the Pain..
My dad is too happy about all the pain I'm going thru, like he can tell everyone what to do to me.
"How is this okay?"
The people spying on me are telling me insults and that someone I look up to sent them, they keep insisting fervently. Supposedly, I have to do it for this relationship. How inconvenient can you come? It seems saying bye is not their plan. If so, they think I will still suffer as much and can't like this person.
Popping Up
Why when I am out in the world does my dad want to get personal secretly when he shows little interest in me often? It ruins it because people cringe that I did what I did and it's different from my parents. Really, my life is ruined.
Depressed
I thought to myself, "Bye," to their pretending to be someone talking to me thru ticks in my room etc. I didn't really like that I thought that later after I was just finding a way out of being snapped at so much, like I would ruin it if I didn't say, "Bye." I didn't really mean it and don't know what I meant. I just felt unable to consider the options.
Weird Wiring of Will in the World in What I Witness
Oh my! Aha ha! Just amused yet upset, like there should be no strange agreement nor communication line with my dad regarding my being and concerning other people.. By that, I mean the agreements he makes to hurt me saying he's punishing me at age 30. He just finds it a matter of consequence that we bump into one another.
Is this just the 4H Club? because I don't do no drugs, I don't get drunk, and I ain't smokin'.
I'm trying to solve this. I didn't react physically nor do anything awkward, but he is still watchin'!
Tell me more so I can learn about this weird, punishing communication line that connects back to my dad when I talk to other people I like a lot. Let me guess, "there's nothing to it?"
What's wrong?! Think how pathetic this is. The answer is "fail." "Live and let live." I am not "the weakest link."
Those people that end up on Dr. Phil, they don't believe their actions are of any consequence to anyone other than themselves. Then, they find their parents on their case in their 20s and even older, much less Dr. Phil. It's between them and the law, that they are "law-abiding citizens."
I wasn't trying to initiate and stir an onset of trouble. I do lose it sometimes.
It seems like no oasis where there is nothing special waiting for me to look forward to after being pulled from my successes in life. It's like when I was called to the counselor's office in highschool for a poor grade and changing mood, which got me behind from being pulled from and being counseled during other classes. If something special were waiting for me, supposedly it's my fault if it's lost. Say what? They make up weird little rules where I'm the only one under real constraints. They say they do one thing and do another.
Is this just the 4H Club? because I don't do no drugs, I don't get drunk, and I ain't smokin'.
I'm trying to solve this. I didn't react physically nor do anything awkward, but he is still watchin'!
Tell me more so I can learn about this weird, punishing communication line that connects back to my dad when I talk to other people I like a lot. Let me guess, "there's nothing to it?"
What's wrong?! Think how pathetic this is. The answer is "fail." "Live and let live." I am not "the weakest link."
Those people that end up on Dr. Phil, they don't believe their actions are of any consequence to anyone other than themselves. Then, they find their parents on their case in their 20s and even older, much less Dr. Phil. It's between them and the law, that they are "law-abiding citizens."
I wasn't trying to initiate and stir an onset of trouble. I do lose it sometimes.
It seems like no oasis where there is nothing special waiting for me to look forward to after being pulled from my successes in life. It's like when I was called to the counselor's office in highschool for a poor grade and changing mood, which got me behind from being pulled from and being counseled during other classes. If something special were waiting for me, supposedly it's my fault if it's lost. Say what? They make up weird little rules where I'm the only one under real constraints. They say they do one thing and do another.
The New Rules?
My dad kept attacking me with a lot of force this time like he was going full speed for the desired result. I just wanted him to stop. He turns it up like I was the one doing the attacking part of it.
My Dad and My Seemingly/Forcibly Giving Up on Life
My dad should not have world dominion over every nook and cranny in which I may be dwelling, doing so that he affects/convinces the people around me to mess up with my life.
In such an experience, I don't encounter the real world and the possibilities it offers to me. I suffer, grow old and die from a meaningless life in which I could have actually done something or pitched in with what I possessed.
In such an experience, I don't encounter the real world and the possibilities it offers to me. I suffer, grow old and die from a meaningless life in which I could have actually done something or pitched in with what I possessed.
Under Attack
My dad is attacking me saying someone I look up to also sent the message just because I encounter his adversity and have a negative reaction. I am not gonna sit here and be "raised" by him and Ellen DeGeneres, where it's like a game where you sit still and juggle thoughts and beat yourself up for no reason.
Tuesday, May 24, 2016
Handy Dandy
They have the excuse that me cursing about Ellen DeGeneres putting annoying noises in my room all day means they can do this.
What am I supposed to do? This is wrong.
I just got back from another long walk and my parents were just really mean to me in secret message, and now someone I look up to is supposedly mad at me for simply not liking it, which they do it all the time every day. What am I supposed to do? This is wrong.
Impossible
If I think outside the box, I get in trouble. They think since my dad's from Pennsylvania, I have to think like one thing after another, no drawing conclusions. Sometimes and often, I hit a road block. I can't have a logical thought to follow that which is illogical.
If I can't do this, I will get in trouble. What do I do?
If I can't do this, I will get in trouble. What do I do?
Stabbing Me
They said cuz I wanted to talk about people making sure I don't make friends while they were on about friends needing away from me so much that something will pop up I don't know about til later that I don't like as the conclusion to my life or something, as opposed to my right to ever make friends without them intervening like this and bothering me all day.
Punishable Crime
These people won't ever stop bothering me all day! They talk to me on the computer and thru my parents and some others and people in public making up stuff they said probably.
No Friends Still
I was gonna post something but forgot.
My mom said it was not my place to say who is my friend, but I didn't. They are making it up. However, they are making friend with someone to be mean, making me bow down to others, and turning down people who really are interested not just to annoy me.
Oh, yes. I can go around ignoring others, but my dad and mom and the experiment have taken away friends.
My mom said it was not my place to say who is my friend, but I didn't. They are making it up. However, they are making friend with someone to be mean, making me bow down to others, and turning down people who really are interested not just to annoy me.
Oh, yes. I can go around ignoring others, but my dad and mom and the experiment have taken away friends.
More!..
They are ruining my life because I said they were preventing me from having relationships to look up to when on the opposite case, like that the people I look up to have needs that means I'm not good enough.
They are making me think of others and treating me like I'm dirt and don't matter, playing with my birthday, getting involved in my life when they barely talk to me or are involved in my interests.
There's probably more. I was hurt and now they're just drilling thru my life to hurt it all like it don't matter.
They are making me think of others and treating me like I'm dirt and don't matter, playing with my birthday, getting involved in my life when they barely talk to me or are involved in my interests.
There's probably more. I was hurt and now they're just drilling thru my life to hurt it all like it don't matter.
Threatened Socially
They just said cuz I was mad at them singling me out not to actually meet anyone when they were talking about something the opposite that older people will invade my life as the cherry on top of the sundae, like in the end I won't have the friends I want..
Episodes
Someone I look up to is acting meanly towards me thru others because they know that they will misinterpret them, anyway, and it'll be all over. When I think these things, people spying on me act like the person wants to be that way for their own reasons and not that.
I just thought, "Stop," when they were mean and they kept acting meaner and I continued to think, "Stop," when they suddenly suggested in was wrong and then it was over in 10 seconds. That was it, they would be mean thereon. Supposedly, it's cuz my mom acted like that was right.
Also, I was upset and was like squeezing my drink bottle and sometimes throwing it on the floor, trying to do it so people wouldn't notice.
My dad was driving annoyingly again, and it made me put pressure on my foot, squeeze my arms together, drop my bag on the floor, stomp where no one was looking, etc.
Since, the episodes, I've resorted to some inner turmoil hopefully to keep more weirdness from occurring.
I'm upset they're making a joke of me. The person supposedly from the start said they can be mean to me cuz they're older and like these people can make claims like that. The person is supposedly sending me messages thru others that are mean all too often. It seems disconcerting. There is no give and take, no sacrifice so I can get out of this, like I deserve it all.
So, obviously, any onlooker with a brain left can tell this person is simply wrong and I'm simply right. Supposedly, people in public either can't handle seeing this and have to talk about it or it's their standard ways of reveling that I am bad and have to be treated with torture.
If this is wrong, then what? It has cost me a friendly relationship, like I have to have relationships with others, tho.
They won't ever leave me alone rather than say I should be tortured cuz they don't want me to get away with it.
If I had to chose, I'd rather try at the relationship than give it up. If it ends too badly, of course it would not be a good option. I don't know how bad it is. I just feel like a joke.
I even was not mean to this person so much when mad. Something that affected my life, too, was that some people I saw acted like this person got down with them to say they're all that and I'm shit and kept it going all too much. I was already upset they pretended it was that person I look up to saying this for us. Now, people are mad this late in the game I got upset at what was supposed, like it was nasty.
I know for a fact I think people here get enraged and try to act annoyingly around me and hurt me physically that way and make suggestions about what to think about myself. I get singled out by bad people. There are very good people, too.
So, the fact of the matter is supposedly this could have been avoided, this person I look up to supposedly being so mean to me. Like, my episodes of self-anger that caused public anger and with my dad noticing.. or me prior continuing to think, "Stop," when I get a whirlwind of commands to detract from the relationship.
I should deny these things these experimenters and others tell me acting like it was crafted by that person..
They are also rubbing in like maybe I said people had to do certain things with me. People have acted like what I say should be shoved aside. All I said was something I like to talk about, that people are making sure I can't meet people I admire, anymore. They are suggesting I dream of too much, but that was other people telling me that. They must be mad I even accepted the nice things that have been said for me. I notice a calm sometimes after I do something that seems out of ball park but not really bad. Then, they come back triumphant and creeping up to my knowledge that something has been done about it to "punish" me by a larger margin. They might do this for me getting upset I thought they should not prevent me from being like everyone else rather than being told upfront I can't like someone, and they think "I think I'm special." It was a very strange calm. It is of a general topic I believe in. I am just waiting for the extended mistreatment or "punishment" for that. I feel extra threatened, too, tho.
I just woke up. Who knows what messages await from how my dad arranged things in the kitchen and dining area. I am, as usual, confident I should be okay. You know, my dad was being mean and then acted excitedly when I talked about the movies. That's not til the weekend tho. You know, I think he got himself involved in my other relationships, rather than letting me have fun in my life without him bothering me and sending punishments for times when I think things have been forgiven.
I just thought, "Stop," when they were mean and they kept acting meaner and I continued to think, "Stop," when they suddenly suggested in was wrong and then it was over in 10 seconds. That was it, they would be mean thereon. Supposedly, it's cuz my mom acted like that was right.
Also, I was upset and was like squeezing my drink bottle and sometimes throwing it on the floor, trying to do it so people wouldn't notice.
My dad was driving annoyingly again, and it made me put pressure on my foot, squeeze my arms together, drop my bag on the floor, stomp where no one was looking, etc.
Since, the episodes, I've resorted to some inner turmoil hopefully to keep more weirdness from occurring.
I'm upset they're making a joke of me. The person supposedly from the start said they can be mean to me cuz they're older and like these people can make claims like that. The person is supposedly sending me messages thru others that are mean all too often. It seems disconcerting. There is no give and take, no sacrifice so I can get out of this, like I deserve it all.
So, obviously, any onlooker with a brain left can tell this person is simply wrong and I'm simply right. Supposedly, people in public either can't handle seeing this and have to talk about it or it's their standard ways of reveling that I am bad and have to be treated with torture.
If this is wrong, then what? It has cost me a friendly relationship, like I have to have relationships with others, tho.
They won't ever leave me alone rather than say I should be tortured cuz they don't want me to get away with it.
If I had to chose, I'd rather try at the relationship than give it up. If it ends too badly, of course it would not be a good option. I don't know how bad it is. I just feel like a joke.
I even was not mean to this person so much when mad. Something that affected my life, too, was that some people I saw acted like this person got down with them to say they're all that and I'm shit and kept it going all too much. I was already upset they pretended it was that person I look up to saying this for us. Now, people are mad this late in the game I got upset at what was supposed, like it was nasty.
I know for a fact I think people here get enraged and try to act annoyingly around me and hurt me physically that way and make suggestions about what to think about myself. I get singled out by bad people. There are very good people, too.
So, the fact of the matter is supposedly this could have been avoided, this person I look up to supposedly being so mean to me. Like, my episodes of self-anger that caused public anger and with my dad noticing.. or me prior continuing to think, "Stop," when I get a whirlwind of commands to detract from the relationship.
I should deny these things these experimenters and others tell me acting like it was crafted by that person..
They are also rubbing in like maybe I said people had to do certain things with me. People have acted like what I say should be shoved aside. All I said was something I like to talk about, that people are making sure I can't meet people I admire, anymore. They are suggesting I dream of too much, but that was other people telling me that. They must be mad I even accepted the nice things that have been said for me. I notice a calm sometimes after I do something that seems out of ball park but not really bad. Then, they come back triumphant and creeping up to my knowledge that something has been done about it to "punish" me by a larger margin. They might do this for me getting upset I thought they should not prevent me from being like everyone else rather than being told upfront I can't like someone, and they think "I think I'm special." It was a very strange calm. It is of a general topic I believe in. I am just waiting for the extended mistreatment or "punishment" for that. I feel extra threatened, too, tho.
I just woke up. Who knows what messages await from how my dad arranged things in the kitchen and dining area. I am, as usual, confident I should be okay. You know, my dad was being mean and then acted excitedly when I talked about the movies. That's not til the weekend tho. You know, I think he got himself involved in my other relationships, rather than letting me have fun in my life without him bothering me and sending punishments for times when I think things have been forgiven.
Monday, May 23, 2016
"When Push Comes to Shove"
Bella Thorne thinks she has to take all my relationships fro me cuz she works for Ellen DeGeneres.
Ellen DeGeneres put illegal, hurtful noises in my room throughout the day soon after starting to watch her show after following her on Twitter. I used to cuss about it. So what? Sounds like a valid reason. Why do people believe otherwise?
Ellen DeGeneres put illegal, hurtful noises in my room throughout the day soon after starting to watch her show after following her on Twitter. I used to cuss about it. So what? Sounds like a valid reason. Why do people believe otherwise?
Just the Popular Ones
Okay, okay, everyone wants to know if someone I look up to is causing all these bad things, but I figured out that the people here did it. They're why everyone's scared. Not everyone from other places is like this! Maybe not much at all. Just the popular ones.
"No matter what they say.."
No matter what they say, they do not have the right to do this because it is a fact that it's wrong.
Under "Constant Attack"
I don't like that someone I look up to is hacking away at me.. bad things come of this.
Under "Constant Attack"
They keep saying someone I look up to is attacking me like they're killing me a lot and that it's my fault. It is bugging me to ward off and I don't make the full effort..
Supposedly "Frequent Reminders"
My gramma called for my birthday and said to call back soon, but I don't think I will.
Threatened..
They are threatening to replace someone I look up to with my grandma for me, to think of excessively etc. when I simply don't do things of the nature they suggest.
I already posted about it in a nicer way, but "this has gone too far."
I already posted about it in a nicer way, but "this has gone too far."
"It's like a game."
They keep bringing up my dad's family like it's a game where they are threatening to hurt people I know.
More Stabbing at Me with Things
They relayed that someone I look up to desensitized themselves/partially so I can't enjoy and to be like someone else in an annoying way.. and probably reprogrammed.
They might keep annoying me when I can't post what they did, too. People outside are doing stuff, too.
They seem calm now, like they know what they're going to do. They better leave us alone. They don't know what they're doing. I knew this at the beginning.
They might keep annoying me when I can't post what they did, too. People outside are doing stuff, too.
They seem calm now, like they know what they're going to do. They better leave us alone. They don't know what they're doing. I knew this at the beginning.
"1 Minor Detail"
I felt stressed and pressed upon and thought of digging something into something, and now people think I've done something bad, it's off, etc.
"A Changed Man?"
They are doing something stupid, pretending what someone's pet peeves are. Like, they just said, "I did all this stuff for you before, but now you're a different person," and threatened me to death! They didn't have to do that, but they did. I don't really know what to think of any of it. I just have wishes to talk to some people like a normal person, etc.
"Dragging Me Down"
They keep dragging me down to the point I don't want to do anything but post my problems online.
"Letting Go"
They are trying to make me focus on my grandma in weird and excessive ways that is not like her to do.
"In Trouble"
I was upset at home but didn't mean to look ridiculous. I couldn't get myself to seem how I wanted, and of course my mom was getting at me acting badly with no right to. My parents remain calm and swivel around closed doors and a plan is made to get back at me with something big for it.
Things Wrong
I don't like when I get in trouble because I don't wear the right clothes or am down on my luck.
I found out I cannot join the military because doctors pretended I had schizophrenia. (You may be able to bend those rules in some cases.) I see it as they want me on medicine so I can't feel in control of my life, feel pain and too tired to get up and do some things. I can't believe my parents disowned me to this superstition. Why should I abide by them? I live with them and can't see how I could possibly live on my own without money nor energy to work. My mom said I have to take this medicine if I live with them. You know, I've even tried singing to get a record, my life's fruit of labor in some ways.
I found out I cannot join the military because doctors pretended I had schizophrenia. (You may be able to bend those rules in some cases.) I see it as they want me on medicine so I can't feel in control of my life, feel pain and too tired to get up and do some things. I can't believe my parents disowned me to this superstition. Why should I abide by them? I live with them and can't see how I could possibly live on my own without money nor energy to work. My mom said I have to take this medicine if I live with them. You know, I've even tried singing to get a record, my life's fruit of labor in some ways.
"That's fine!"
They think it's okay for me to be treated badly without admitting it.
They lie about what really happens.
They take great measures to punish me for no reason, like if I feel defiant about their sins. If something weird comes up where I lose myself in my thoughts or feel attacked.. they do something big.
They lie about what really happens.
They take great measures to punish me for no reason, like if I feel defiant about their sins. If something weird comes up where I lose myself in my thoughts or feel attacked.. they do something big.
What did I do?
I don't know how I feel about "what I've done." You might say, "I failed to do anything."
I guess it was lazy of me to send that letter, when I wasn't instead clouding up my blog with the stray thoughts. What else could be? It wasn't as bad as some people would make it out to be.
My asking my dad why he came to get me nicely? Triggering a violent reaction? He just doesn't like me. Then, my mom lectured me for an hour. I'm not sure what happened here, but they're acting very domineering about how people I find I am interested in treat me.
My continuing to be in denial when ticks in my house were spouted out at me when I was quickly informed not to.. that really *"flipped my lid." It was out then.
This is all concerning someone I met using the internet.
When I lost it in public and with my dad? Well, that was awkward. It starts small and grows. People say it's too late if I make a fist, and I am already holding it in and get more mad. It seems to have stopped. I control if it occurs.
I programmed myself not to say mean things about others. It worked until I was unprogrammed, but it still exists. So, I do not start mean things and don't have as bad a reaction. I do feel confined by others in my thinking.
What in all this am I looking for? Can I make anything better than otherwise?
I think it's when I think, "Stop." It's also if I think something weird and out-of-the-box to get ahead. I get irritated in general and want to dissociate it from innocent people. I didn't succumb because I don't know who all and wouldn't do something bad.
In the end, I'm in denial and not in control of my responsibilities. I also have too bleated out a past, game over!
If I'm mean in my thoughts sometimes, I am treated meanly. I do not try to be mean.
*suddenly become deranged or lose one's self-control (link)
I guess it was lazy of me to send that letter, when I wasn't instead clouding up my blog with the stray thoughts. What else could be? It wasn't as bad as some people would make it out to be.
My asking my dad why he came to get me nicely? Triggering a violent reaction? He just doesn't like me. Then, my mom lectured me for an hour. I'm not sure what happened here, but they're acting very domineering about how people I find I am interested in treat me.
My continuing to be in denial when ticks in my house were spouted out at me when I was quickly informed not to.. that really *"flipped my lid." It was out then.
This is all concerning someone I met using the internet.
When I lost it in public and with my dad? Well, that was awkward. It starts small and grows. People say it's too late if I make a fist, and I am already holding it in and get more mad. It seems to have stopped. I control if it occurs.
I programmed myself not to say mean things about others. It worked until I was unprogrammed, but it still exists. So, I do not start mean things and don't have as bad a reaction. I do feel confined by others in my thinking.
What in all this am I looking for? Can I make anything better than otherwise?
I think it's when I think, "Stop." It's also if I think something weird and out-of-the-box to get ahead. I get irritated in general and want to dissociate it from innocent people. I didn't succumb because I don't know who all and wouldn't do something bad.
In the end, I'm in denial and not in control of my responsibilities. I also have too bleated out a past, game over!
If I'm mean in my thoughts sometimes, I am treated meanly. I do not try to be mean.
*suddenly become deranged or lose one's self-control (link)
Sunday, May 22, 2016
"So, yea."
They're messing with my stance with someone I like and wish I could meet. These people experimenting/spying on me.
I just went thru a fit of disturbance and realized to myself that when people do these wrong things to me and say people I like feel that way, I just tell myself to ignore it cuz it's not right.
I just went thru a fit of disturbance and realized to myself that when people do these wrong things to me and say people I like feel that way, I just tell myself to ignore it cuz it's not right.
Harming Me
They are poking at me for saying I was suicidal, like them causing it is an inconvenience.
Deserving Torture
They want someone to say I did something bad and always torture my life.
They torture my life emotionally/mentally by saying things like I had a shot but it's too late and now I gotta be a nobody and act like everything's cool all silly against me. If not, they threaten me with other social things, digging too deep. In the end, the cool people who would have liked me can't do anything about letting this happen.
They torture my life emotionally/mentally by saying things like I had a shot but it's too late and now I gotta be a nobody and act like everything's cool all silly against me. If not, they threaten me with other social things, digging too deep. In the end, the cool people who would have liked me can't do anything about letting this happen.
Cases (continued)
They want me to tell it like it is, but I said it was too late.
Okay, I was 1st looking at someone who made it feel like I was angry at someone I like for being mean to me. This person fudges things like this, tho. I was getting ice cream..
Then, I was around some annoying people who thought they were better than me and acting tackily. I posted that young girls were being schooled once, and everyone found out and interpreted it in weird ways. So, these people knew. They acted like they got down with someone I like and were in the situation to say they triumphed over me and could not deal with me, mothers with their teenage daughters. They would not stop and moved me into the virtuality that someone I liked was getting down with them (against me.) They did it in abstract, clumsily resounding ways, like they were horny and failures. They thought this was appropriate and dug into the fact that someone I like would agree and be down with them and therefore not me ever/anymore. So, I was upset at that.
Okay, I was 1st looking at someone who made it feel like I was angry at someone I like for being mean to me. This person fudges things like this, tho. I was getting ice cream..
Then, I was around some annoying people who thought they were better than me and acting tackily. I posted that young girls were being schooled once, and everyone found out and interpreted it in weird ways. So, these people knew. They acted like they got down with someone I like and were in the situation to say they triumphed over me and could not deal with me, mothers with their teenage daughters. They would not stop and moved me into the virtuality that someone I liked was getting down with them (against me.) They did it in abstract, clumsily resounding ways, like they were horny and failures. They thought this was appropriate and dug into the fact that someone I like would agree and be down with them and therefore not me ever/anymore. So, I was upset at that.
Something to Solve..
I don't like your idea of "cool" for me.
No, you are not the only one in the room talking to me and not who I'm directly talking to I hope/know.. Isn't that my dad's excuse for being mean to me and pressuring others to do the same? He only blames the world collectively and his mom, who is 87 and born in 1928 around the start of the Great Depression.
No, you are not the only one in the room talking to me and not who I'm directly talking to I hope/know.. Isn't that my dad's excuse for being mean to me and pressuring others to do the same? He only blames the world collectively and his mom, who is 87 and born in 1928 around the start of the Great Depression.
Is anyone else at church "concerned"/disturbed..
that Father Charlie's letter in the bulletin has been shortened into half and the other half of the page is made for Spanish?
Taking This Up
How can anyone related to me deny that their "being" ruined my life because of how bad all of their kids turned out to be? They try to cover up their annoying presence as adults. What's anyone's point in knowing other human beings?
I simply have proof because that's how they are and I see their parents spend their time visiting concerned about disciplining their children "in the process" of meeting others. Did you know in experimenting/spying on me, they get mad at me for no reason saying my thoughts are not all flowers and butterflies? Like, my mom will rough me around and linger with more hatred and punishment for no reason. I will feel upset a long time to myself and eventually something will come to mind. Then, I get in trouble because somehow she can tell.
I am feeling suicidal and often violent, but I would never hurt myself much nor others in any way I know of.
I simply have proof because that's how they are and I see their parents spend their time visiting concerned about disciplining their children "in the process" of meeting others. Did you know in experimenting/spying on me, they get mad at me for no reason saying my thoughts are not all flowers and butterflies? Like, my mom will rough me around and linger with more hatred and punishment for no reason. I will feel upset a long time to myself and eventually something will come to mind. Then, I get in trouble because somehow she can tell.
I am feeling suicidal and often violent, but I would never hurt myself much nor others in any way I know of.
My Good Reputation
People outside of my family all see me as a very good person and say so.
My parents make up things about me cuz they're uncomfortable racially. People find out and it became a big thing in secret, while other people who annoy me or others a lot are off the hook.
I live with my parents, and my dad won't stop initiating hatred towards me and propelling it among others, so they can claim. My mom might have a little something, too.
Someone I like is in my life programming things from afar/a distance, like a cold relationship, to punish me for no reason. Like, I had a hard day and didn't get my laundry out of the dryer, but it's not my fault I have bad days. They keep threatening me every time I disagree with their opinions.
My parents make up things about me cuz they're uncomfortable racially. People find out and it became a big thing in secret, while other people who annoy me or others a lot are off the hook.
I live with my parents, and my dad won't stop initiating hatred towards me and propelling it among others, so they can claim. My mom might have a little something, too.
Someone I like is in my life programming things from afar/a distance, like a cold relationship, to punish me for no reason. Like, I had a hard day and didn't get my laundry out of the dryer, but it's not my fault I have bad days. They keep threatening me every time I disagree with their opinions.
Personal Problems
Everyone I see, even strangers, act like someone I like is doing all these mean things to me. They drive in saying it's true with their own kind of proof, like methods I've seen and ways that are validated.
Everyone blames someone else. Others who are respected are living more comfortably socially while I suffer.
People keep all telling me I can't even feel upset to myself as a reaction, while they all go around like animals being rude to me and "living it large" themselves.
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