They're messing with my stance with someone I like and wish I could meet. These people experimenting/spying on me.
I just went thru a fit of disturbance and realized to myself that when people do these wrong things to me and say people I like feel that way, I just tell myself to ignore it cuz it's not right.
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Harming Me
They are poking at me for saying I was suicidal, like them causing it is an inconvenience.
Deserving Torture
They want someone to say I did something bad and always torture my life.
They torture my life emotionally/mentally by saying things like I had a shot but it's too late and now I gotta be a nobody and act like everything's cool all silly against me. If not, they threaten me with other social things, digging too deep. In the end, the cool people who would have liked me can't do anything about letting this happen.
They torture my life emotionally/mentally by saying things like I had a shot but it's too late and now I gotta be a nobody and act like everything's cool all silly against me. If not, they threaten me with other social things, digging too deep. In the end, the cool people who would have liked me can't do anything about letting this happen.
Cases (continued)
They want me to tell it like it is, but I said it was too late.
Okay, I was 1st looking at someone who made it feel like I was angry at someone I like for being mean to me. This person fudges things like this, tho. I was getting ice cream..
Then, I was around some annoying people who thought they were better than me and acting tackily. I posted that young girls were being schooled once, and everyone found out and interpreted it in weird ways. So, these people knew. They acted like they got down with someone I like and were in the situation to say they triumphed over me and could not deal with me, mothers with their teenage daughters. They would not stop and moved me into the virtuality that someone I liked was getting down with them (against me.) They did it in abstract, clumsily resounding ways, like they were horny and failures. They thought this was appropriate and dug into the fact that someone I like would agree and be down with them and therefore not me ever/anymore. So, I was upset at that.
Okay, I was 1st looking at someone who made it feel like I was angry at someone I like for being mean to me. This person fudges things like this, tho. I was getting ice cream..
Then, I was around some annoying people who thought they were better than me and acting tackily. I posted that young girls were being schooled once, and everyone found out and interpreted it in weird ways. So, these people knew. They acted like they got down with someone I like and were in the situation to say they triumphed over me and could not deal with me, mothers with their teenage daughters. They would not stop and moved me into the virtuality that someone I liked was getting down with them (against me.) They did it in abstract, clumsily resounding ways, like they were horny and failures. They thought this was appropriate and dug into the fact that someone I like would agree and be down with them and therefore not me ever/anymore. So, I was upset at that.
Something to Solve..
I don't like your idea of "cool" for me.
No, you are not the only one in the room talking to me and not who I'm directly talking to I hope/know.. Isn't that my dad's excuse for being mean to me and pressuring others to do the same? He only blames the world collectively and his mom, who is 87 and born in 1928 around the start of the Great Depression.
No, you are not the only one in the room talking to me and not who I'm directly talking to I hope/know.. Isn't that my dad's excuse for being mean to me and pressuring others to do the same? He only blames the world collectively and his mom, who is 87 and born in 1928 around the start of the Great Depression.
Is anyone else at church "concerned"/disturbed..
that Father Charlie's letter in the bulletin has been shortened into half and the other half of the page is made for Spanish?
Taking This Up
How can anyone related to me deny that their "being" ruined my life because of how bad all of their kids turned out to be? They try to cover up their annoying presence as adults. What's anyone's point in knowing other human beings?
I simply have proof because that's how they are and I see their parents spend their time visiting concerned about disciplining their children "in the process" of meeting others. Did you know in experimenting/spying on me, they get mad at me for no reason saying my thoughts are not all flowers and butterflies? Like, my mom will rough me around and linger with more hatred and punishment for no reason. I will feel upset a long time to myself and eventually something will come to mind. Then, I get in trouble because somehow she can tell.
I am feeling suicidal and often violent, but I would never hurt myself much nor others in any way I know of.
I simply have proof because that's how they are and I see their parents spend their time visiting concerned about disciplining their children "in the process" of meeting others. Did you know in experimenting/spying on me, they get mad at me for no reason saying my thoughts are not all flowers and butterflies? Like, my mom will rough me around and linger with more hatred and punishment for no reason. I will feel upset a long time to myself and eventually something will come to mind. Then, I get in trouble because somehow she can tell.
I am feeling suicidal and often violent, but I would never hurt myself much nor others in any way I know of.
My Good Reputation
People outside of my family all see me as a very good person and say so.
My parents make up things about me cuz they're uncomfortable racially. People find out and it became a big thing in secret, while other people who annoy me or others a lot are off the hook.
I live with my parents, and my dad won't stop initiating hatred towards me and propelling it among others, so they can claim. My mom might have a little something, too.
Someone I like is in my life programming things from afar/a distance, like a cold relationship, to punish me for no reason. Like, I had a hard day and didn't get my laundry out of the dryer, but it's not my fault I have bad days. They keep threatening me every time I disagree with their opinions.
My parents make up things about me cuz they're uncomfortable racially. People find out and it became a big thing in secret, while other people who annoy me or others a lot are off the hook.
I live with my parents, and my dad won't stop initiating hatred towards me and propelling it among others, so they can claim. My mom might have a little something, too.
Someone I like is in my life programming things from afar/a distance, like a cold relationship, to punish me for no reason. Like, I had a hard day and didn't get my laundry out of the dryer, but it's not my fault I have bad days. They keep threatening me every time I disagree with their opinions.
Personal Problems
Everyone I see, even strangers, act like someone I like is doing all these mean things to me. They drive in saying it's true with their own kind of proof, like methods I've seen and ways that are validated.
Everyone blames someone else. Others who are respected are living more comfortably socially while I suffer.
People keep all telling me I can't even feel upset to myself as a reaction, while they all go around like animals being rude to me and "living it large" themselves.
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