So, basically

they are acting like a person I like is when I do something slight they think is questionable but is okay..

-that I deserve to die

things like that or parts of like that

Issue

Why does/Who made YouTube have its URLs look like "Bella?"

https://youtu.be/

They have a problem

with me carefully explaining someone is a good person but can be really mean.

Problem

They are threatening to r*** me.  I am good.  I do not deserve to be experimented on like this.

Issue

My grandma has always been aggressive, but she was healthier and trusted life.

I feel sad about the problems in her life.  I want her to get better, of course.  She used to be more substantial physically.  It's like her heyday is over.  She has overmodernized herself and it's like she's forgotten who she is.

Anger

I think I was supposed to hold it in.  I figured a reason they don't matter.

My dad used to be more tactual.  Now, he just treats me like scum to be murdered, as of sometime last night in particularly.  I don't mean to be harsh myself.  Not sure what I should say otherwise.

Apology

Getting mad.  Why is it okay to discriminate me racially and in a mean way?

Problem

My dad seems upset and racist to me.  Is this some sort of strategy that should be reconsidered?

It's such a touchy thing to have not cared about it all these years, avoid it in ways a lot in this house, to lash out after all these years, like riding some pony in a dream?