I must always be half asleep.

I'm sorry I was so bitter in attitude about my dad being a little mean, poor guy, can't help it.

Tim Burton, Johnny Depp

Who else????

In Trouble

If I am in any trouble, I'd say Ellen is, too..

My Life Is Stress

Constant disapproval.  It's trashed.  It doesn't matter to the people "who 'matter' most."

More

more secret threats..

Problem

They are causing glitches to cancel out their getting my message.

My True Feelings of Ellen

I don't like how Bella is so much put in front of me.  I was only mad because the noises in my room were unfair.  I can see people use me as an example of what not to get involved in, if possible.  I shouldn't even be saying this, but it's distressing to always be a #2.  I can't perk myself up.  My dad keeps fighting me, and I think Ellen does, too.  I think Ellen has a grudge that I thought it was neat people used to watch me in my room while I talked to them on paper and it was when I lived where she is from.  I thought it was just an interesting experience.  I didn't need it to happen again but bad to me.  I guess I just hadn't gotten around to posting about it online on a website.  That's very violent and, like, "self-assertive," like very certain of something that would to most people not be a certain option.  I mean to end up like this? when you're being watched every second.  I bet my life would be better off otherwise a long time ago.

Not Sure Why I Thought This

Some thing I shouldn't have, must have been a unique situation with some coping irritation.

Why

did I have to go thru all this trouble to find an applicable answer.  I guess it's just their game.  I did come up with a point.. superstitious to trust that then some.

Well

I'm beginning to see the light.  Everyone needs special needs to be stimulated.  Fame plays a big role.

Upset

I'm not mad at you, just the situation.

You?

You deserve a relationship that others don't?

Just asking.

Problem

I am not having fun.

Another Issue

My aunt came online just to answer me, apparently, no new news.

What's this?

More secret messages to stimulate a special someone?  From someone else?  You have no right to say I can't hit things when I'm mad.  I know that's why you did it.

Just the lo down, the 411..

I'm not expecting a reply, or am I??

I'm not listening to anyone!  No one is living freely.  Saying what's on their mind in a problems blog.  You think every other sentence will give someone an o***** if not taken properly.

I'm sorry if this inconveniences anyone.

I see you tried to send me a train of messages to insult me and rub people into me!  Why do you do that?

Look, I'm not shouting, but I know you do and you get mad.

I just know I'm right, but I don't know if I needed to say this or what I need to say, yet.

I understand there may be a coping side, but in a way maybe not.

Also, if you are stimulating them, why do you show it off?  Not in it for the right motives!  What if someone did that to you?  All are equal, period, no more toying with that statement or letting something wrong out.

Again, this is getting tedious being apologetic over and saying I'm not shouting sarcasm.  I don't believe in mum.  I have my rights.  You all framed and ruined my life!

I'm sorry if anything was offensive.  You are free to tell me if so..  I haven't gotten a good PM in a long time from a "real" person.

Problem

They said someone who was close to someone else maybe cuz once I stated to myself I didn't care about that for them like I wouldn't with anyone else but would for people equally.. and now we're playing a game about her being close but me getting further away.

Well

They're keeping it up.

I just had an upsetting supper.

I tried to go thru it.

Several "points" were made.

I don't like confronting people that rub into me and those I care about including possible future kids and knock everything else out.

Also, I realized these hardships are payback for Ellen and they've been consistent.

I was made to be gradually more upset.  I did ignore it mostly at 1st.  They are being mean to me cuz I hit my sofa when I was mad etc.  That doesn't make me automatically a bad person.

cont.

Do I need to add a disclaimer?  I'm worried.  I'm upset.  I know that's the point.

Problem

What's up with Ellen thinking someone will go all perverted, like she has a say in all this and not others?  So, she makes them perverted for them.

Are you serious?

Pointing me to a black man, by someone I like?  What's your problem!?

Problem

Why do you always wanna fight?  I thought I was supposed to ignore everyone.

Problem

My dad is being a bad man, too.

Problem

They're on something.

Problem

They're really messing with my relationship now for no good reason.

Problem

They keep saying "not to do it."  Not to think happy things and because my dad says no, but he's an invalid source.

Problem

They won't stop saying bad things to me.

My Dad

My dad has no business in my life like that.

Problem

So, who "did it?"

THEY ARE EVIL

They made a Twitter not post my favorite pix anymore after stupid Lion Country Safari blocked me when I pointed out they were racist.

Threats

They keep threatening me.

Problem

They wanna rub Ellen DeGeneres's trademark of feeling *** like a kid.

Threat

They are making up stuff about a possibly future kid.

Problem

They are making it a reality.  You're too stupid to understand, whoever.

Being Wrong

They keep digging into me telling me I'm wrong.  It's for little things or stupid reasons.

What?

Why are you doing that now!!

NO..

THEY AREN'T STOPPING

Who started this?  Ellen wants her way?

THEY WON'T STOP!!!

Now they are making it stupid for me, like it's blocked up and not real.

PROBLEM

WHAT THE *BEEP* IS GOING ON

You wanna challenge?

They are finding more reasons logically that aren't true.

Problem

They said they won't do something I like!  They won't frickin' shut up!  What the *beep* is your *beep* problem?

Upset

Not trying to be vicious, but I feel hurt and for people even more interested I feel lied to.  It must have also been a last resort, like everything they must think they do these days.

Issue

They did something I liked for someone else, like it doesn't matter.  They had an attitude and are being stupid.

Problem

Too many threats and stupidity!

Problem

THEY WON'T STOP

Problem

I didn't make up this weird stuff.  What you said is phony and racist, whoever you are.

Problem

They are still being mean..

What did I do?

I wasn't really wanting to be mad at anyone.  Guess I'll have to be more careful.  I think it was more whoever did it.  I had to stop there.

Ruining the Day

You all find a way to ruin every day.

Submitting

Are you just using me for submission?  I said no.

Problem

They're going crazy acting like someone I like just cuz I hit stuff in my room.  They said someone else was for her.

What, now?

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM

They keep talking about positions with my dad.

So what?

I've been hitting things in my room.  They started to annoy me again after I stopped the 1st time, tho.  It started in bed, I just felt like punching.  How am I supposed to handle this all like that?  I was just in my bed trying to sleep.

I have no will to hurt others.

So, no, I did not curse them out for what they did.  I disapprove especially of my dad even over this all, guess he's trying to help tho.  However, the old man coughed so many times.  I keep feeling bad in a certain area.  Well, 3 instances.

Problem

Someone on the Dr. Phil board thinks I'm a reject in the same way they think he is.. too warm and fuzzy to be a friend.. not true, lotta people have raspy voices like I can.

Problem

Someone is trying to make fun of me to cross my eyes thinking of green.  It's the person with the dog.  I'm not into whoever told you to get a dog at a time and act like it's to annoy me.

Problem

On Facebook, the block to comment on fell under 2 Reposts.

Messing With Me

Today, I got the same number of Facebook notifications twice.

Problem

They are saying I can't have something with someone I like again.

Problem

You're acting like someone I like decided to have this happen.

Problem

YOU'RE NOT LETTING ME SLEEP

Won't Stop Bothering People

Someone's marriage has been affected.  Do you dare suggest you'll do these things to me?

PROBLEM

YOU'RE KEEPING ME UP

Problem

I can't get them to stop bothering me.

Problem

They are turning someone on me.

THEY WON'T STOP

They are threatening my relationship.

A Nuisance

Creeping up on me.

Won't Stop

YOU JUST KEEP PLOWING ON

Won't Quit

They won't quit inflicting my dad on me.

They won't quit

being a dummy.  So what if I told you off or you think I did.  Something happened to me.

Stop

Making someone I like into a fool!!!

More

My dad won't quit being perverted.  He kept coughing and said, "Shoot - me.  I didn't have any kids."  Why doesn't he get outta doing this?

You were mean to me.

I'm not accepting this foolishness.

Won't Let Me Sleep

In bed for hours, and they keep making a ticking noise as I'm about to fall asleep.

THEY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

I HAVE THE FEELING OF MY DAD IN A CERTAIN PART I DON'T WANT

More

They're still bothering me..

Issue

I feel tickled in a bad way in a certain spot.  They "changed" and put someone there else.

Threat

They are threatening again my possible future kids..

More Trouble

In the middle of getting a book and supposedly the person I like trashed my possible future kids.  I notice hints of them being younger when they're not.  I think someone likes it that way.  It was disgusting, tho, how they trashed them.  Maybe, they do it, maybe they don't, but it also caused some irritation.

Issue

Now, I wanna get a book.

They are trying to prove they can control what my possible future kids are.  Well, they're not supposed to make them bad.

I mean

making up that I'm bad in suggestive ways

I know

I don't need punishments made up for me and I don't care what my dad wants.

A Bother

They're still bothering me.

I know..

I know you coordinated this.

Whatever I Say

It's not bad enough to meet what was done.

Problem

You are nasty and begging for trouble.

Annoying

Not the only time this kind of thing has happened.

Problem

Making someone I like look stupid by basing someone else's buying a dog on them?  Literally?  Not being sarcastic.

So..

..What's the big idea?  You can complain and I can't??

Problem

They pretended something nasty by someone I like.

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM

You just get mad all the time.  I didn't do anything.

WHAT NOW

Someone just said they bought a dog.

Regretful

I wish I coulda calmed down 1st.  I didn't or don't mean anything to hurt any one person.  I explained what upset me.  I just wanted to explain what upset me.  I think I freaked out when I coulda thought of something else..  I guess it makes sense, but not the part where I'm the one that loses it.  Stuff happens.  I know this won't be looked on well by some.  I need to cool it and recognize what should be by me.  I'm just upset about my being seen as guilty.  I need to ignore this stuff and try to live an attractive life, find the other fellow kids like me.

The Issue

What about the birthday thing?  I don't feel any love.

Problem

LOOK I DIDN'T JUST DO ANYTHING BAD YOU DID

Not Okay

and that's not okay

Then, why..

..should I care about someone else like her in that way?

I know it's all just bad stuff for me, no one cares, my dad is crazy..

So..

Ellen is incompetent and an influence with an unwanted magic ending in certain aspects??

NO!

I AM RIGHT

WHAT YOU THINK

I DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM

RUINING MY LIFE

YOU WENT AND SAID I WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH AS A PERSON AND FOR HOLLYWOOD

THEY WON'T STOP

THEY SAID I WAS OLDER AND SILLY INAPPROPRIATELY

I AM NOT ACCEPTING ANY OF THIS S***

Ruining It

Why do you keep ruining it for me?  This Twitter thing was a big thing.  I just wanna know what was wrong with my dad at the table.  Not to mention all the other things and that you say it is to be bad to me.

PROBLEM

JUST BEIN A BABY

Problem

Why is Ellen doing all these mean things like my dad wants!!  I want this outta my life!

Problem

They're seriously messing with my relationships online.

Violence

Why are you so violent?

So..

Why is Twitter being associated with my dad like I did something???

Problem

They are doing weird things with people and rubbing in what I don't want.

So..

..If someone wants to hurt me, can they just do it and it's over?  I can't have this!  If you don't talk about it on a Problem blog you will never figure it out!!

My Dad

Who cares?  He has shit for me.  He keeps on being testy around me.  HE IS.  NOT ME.

Problem

THEY ARE LOOKING AT ME LIKE I'M THE CASE WELL "WHY DON'T YOU LOOK IN A MIRROR!"

Problem

WHY ARE YOU GOING ON AND ON

Well?

YOU'RE NOT RIGHT I AM GOOD

Incompetent

They can never stop, until I've gotten upset, so they can blame me for it again.

PROBLEM

THEY ARE RUINING MY SOCIAL LIFE I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING YOU DID

WHY

WHY DO YOU KEEP ACTING LIKE YOU HAVE TO DO THIS

No..

Why should I listen to anyone at age 29 and you're really wrong and just backtalking me that I reported you to the public?

Threat

They said someone wasn't participating in something I'm doing now acting all bad.  Ya'll're pathetic.  I can't seem to express my anger, which I don't want to.

What It Is

I feel attacked about my possible future kids, like, "Ooh, I got it! I got it!"

Felony

I feel like I can't feel good without problems.  Why are you all "all up in my face?"

What's this?

What are ya'll doing now?  Swinging on a star?  Thinking you're a princess?  Jealous of me?  Trying to ruin it for me cuz you hate me?  Want to k*** me cuza my race??

Commercial

People I know who don't know each other have named their kids about the same thing.  I saw a commercial, and I took offense to something related that's inappropriate.

What?

What am I supposed to do about this!!  It's not that big'a deal!!  "Who do you think you are?"  Someone's telling ya'll to be stupid.

Fine!  Whatever, but I know what the message really is for me.  I am a good person and I didn't do anything, so why are you reaching in my pants like that?!

More

They're connecting more things./

Problem

I am not the one who's a bad person!

A Nuisance

My dad got mad at me secretly today and acted like he had to move to California cuz I don't wanna infiltrate in another place like that, and now Twitter accepts your birthday.