Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Apology

Sorry I ended up getting into something weird about my dad..

Apology

I said something was not worth it once but didn't mean it like literally.. guess it was not good of me to talk about like that.  I think I did already apologize, too.

Prayers

for all the hate we've had and that people learn to relax and revere riveting life

for our dads and moms in their old age and a we learn to function by ourselves, as well

for the possibility of love and wonder in our lives and things you may dream you had out there.. learn to find who you are and what you wish and make goals for your life daily

Apologies

Sorry for a plethora of silly things I've done by accident..

My Dad

He kept turning around when I went to the kitchen to try to make my future possible babies feel like this morning when I said how he was tacky with his lunky, big hands.

Mad

How did I know my dad thought that?  I'm not supposed to be close like that to him.  He's being nasty.  I have to watch him in a green shirt, too.

Disrespectful

My dad thinks I'm a dancing frog.  I don't wanna do this.  I don't know what he thinks I am.  He needs to clean up his act and fix his life.

Hurting Me

They are testing me and tapping into me and my possible future kids trying to just ruin me.  You're just torturing me, not respecting me.

Insults

They keep hurting me by tapping into me and saying it's a message from someone.

Bothered

I refuse to live like this.

Forcing Family Flaws

I feel he's forcing his flaws on me.

Lame

My dad pays attention to me too much when there's no reason for him to.  I'm pretty much pretty alone or try to be in a way, tho I do wanna be a famous singer/actress.

Nuts

He's gone nuts.  I am not in trouble.  I will not do what he says.  He brings trouble.

I DON'T WANNA PLAY

WITH MY DAD ACTING BAD

Questionable Things

Jackie Evancho dyed her hair red, maybe temporarily tho.  She probably is copying others.  She seems to want everything, whereas before she acted like a bystander.  The world could be going at a fast pace, too.  She supports this, too.

Not Okay

My dad is not someone I need to listen to.

Violence

My dad wants to hurt my mom for being nice to me.

He thinks I'm bad cuz he knows I said something, but whatever it was was a factual-based thing and isn't posted online.

Taunts and Threats

They're making up things about what I already said..

I don't believe this is right.

You have no respect for me.  You don't think I'm great, anymore, and you're hurting me.  That is not fun.

Meddling

People like my dad don't need to dig into some feelings in situations like they mean nothing to act impressive.  To not meddle in others's business.

More

YouTube is playing ads at the beginning of a song I like I'm using to practice now.

What's Going On

They are telling me "I can't have someone."

Quit

making me put up with you for some thing I did.

I'm never putting up with you.

YOU'RE RUINING MY LIFE

Upset

They made my toes feel like my dad's in a way.

What Made Me Upset

You!  Not some random person.

Also

They wanted me to say this time that they pretend everything is for Bella Thorne.  They think my cursing at noises Ellen DeGeneres put in my room means this.

Disappointed

Why are you wasting time punishing me for nothing?  You must be uptight to always play it safe and say I did something when I didn't.  I guess that's just how you waste time.

Edit

My Wish? ... No, I do not wish people to not get attention.

Edits

I made some edits in my past posts, taking some things out..

cont.

This was uncalled for.  Why should I read into this?

Again?

Nope, I did not say who I was talking to anyway and you just acted like I did something wrong again.  And that's all I have to say.

I caught a lie.

My dad expects people to be mean to me.

Issue

People keep on acting like they are stimulating someone I look up to.

I'd say

I wasn't mean to anyone.  It was they who started doing something to me.

Apology

for being overly sensitive in my old Problems blog..

Why

do you attack people who talk to me?  You bother me all day, too.

Why, tho?

Why problems popping up all day?

What I Could Be Bringing to the Table

I dunno how old ya'll are.

Bye!

Prayers that things all go alright for people in the world as much as possible.

Working It Out

I hope what I've been doing these past few months or so still works out.  I'm trying not to complain too much, but when you have a problem you have to talk it out on a journal and ask for help.

My Wish?

I don't know what to say except that it's a big tactic to have Bella Thorne follow me around and feel more accepted than me when I meet people.  For me, it's like I can't meet people.  She has only seemed to complain about this that she's #1 because I messed up and maybe she isn't messed up with something, like being in check.

No, I do not wish people to not get attention.

Problems

I had to start a new blog cuz they made me mad and say to stop it a lot.

This morning, they tried to make it so that I was only gonna talk to my dad, but he's disagreeable and it's disheartening, to have only him as my #1 or only anyone.  I have many #1s.  I am not a sheltered girl in a bubble and am not highly compatible with mom and dad.  I put up with a lotta time alone.

Another problem is he did something annoying he recreated with symbols.  Now, a lotta people were looking like him, like the shape of his legs.  One day recently, he curled his hand pointing it to himself saying everything from me is all to him, like his saying "to me."  He was thinking about the large, chunky, slicked nature of his own hand, "Did you see it?"  Now, I'm not one to get close to my dad.  I felt the symbol of his big, chunky hands again today with symbols around the house like he gets to talk to me when he's the one who ruined my day.  I had a perfectly good day, but he wouldn't have it.  I like someone, and I don't want my dad involved like that.  He kept bugging me and in the end knocked out some of my brain with a noise while I wanted to show him something on the computer right after I read a part where Bella Thorne gets picked up by someone.

This is not yer party just because I met someone I like to constantly insult me when I made up such a good day and act like something went wrong when I'm upset.

I feel my hands affected by what he did this  morning, at the top or my wrists.  I find what he did highly tacky and annoying.

I did get some violent ideas but not on purpose and not that much.  I need to keep things even keep but at the same time get him and his oldest sister off my back.  I'm 28, and they never did this when I was younger.

My dad thinks things can't be happy and smooth, like he can tell me what to do and make me feel bad and not enjoy things, like "What're you doing!?"  Really.  He wants me to constantly be that way.

I don't appreciate this just because I like someone new.  You all can't do this.  I don't need your constant insults and annoying symbols that affected my wrists!  I don't need your incessant, lazy insults to the point I have to jump off my butt in your presence.  What about my wrists, now?  I don't need this pressure.  I don't need a symbolic ambush.  I don't wanna be like my dad, and that's final, not in that way!  You have no right to be doing this.  I see Ellen DeGeneres made people look like my dad.  That's not nice.  She did something foolish, and I was thinking of my dad when I thought of it, and she did this.

They just said they did it.  No, I don't want to.  You have no right to do this.  Did I just say nothing to you?  You can't control me in my room!

My wrists are irritating me.  I don't wanna be susceptible to the world.

Now, this is affecting things like my being able to go to school.  I made a few typing errors.

I don't care if you all are scared.  You can't do this to me.  You make my life worse and worse.

Stop taking that person away!  That's my favorite person!  Or one of them.  And I'm not gonna listen to my dad when he bugs me!  It's confusing when he changes for the better.  I am nice to him and accepting.  He is mean to me and wants to m***** me.

Now, I have to worry about what superstitions they have next that I actually even talked about it.  They are going on.  I am not listening.  I am not the product of my dad.  I am nice to him, already.

I said stop

and I am not listening.  Why?  You said something that would not work out.  I see you all laughing at me for my last word captcha and like it's true.

Had a Good Day Out

My dad came home and acted up.  My day was almost perfect.  1 little thing and the experimenters act up.

Well, pray for a better day tomorrow..

I am worried about my addiction to post problems on here so much.  Why were there problems?

Every day, you  bother me.

I mean, yea, I can write some problems down.  I just want things the way before my dad.  :(  I prayed for him yesterday, too.

I was only upset at the insults from Word Captchas coming at random.  It was when it was a specific thing that bothered me.  So, I talked it out.  I can't do this.  Something specific made a turn of events.  My dad was like tailing me to ruin my good day.  That's totally unacceptable.  What is going on?

I don't wanna play with you.

':(

Stop it.

They are messing with what something is for someone.

STOP

They are making the person seem corny.
They made it like that person.

What did I do?

I can't get over some of your crimes and hate.

Why won't you stop?

They gave me a corny impression.

Problem

I couldn't get rid of a whoozy feeling of my possible future maybe daughter.

Stop

They are trying to get at my future possible kid and ruin them.  LEAVE ME ALONE.  QUIT GETTING ME TO TALK T YOU.

HELP

They took a relationship from me.
STOP YOUR SASSING
I SAID NO

Stop

What was that?  Quit it.

I don't wanna talk to you!

About this.
I SAID STOP

GET OUTTA HERE
SOMEONE HELP

Stop it.

Don't take someone from me cuz I was dealing with your meanness.  I will not listen to you.  You can't take away people from me.  Why won't you stop?  You just followed thru with something I didn't comment on.

Not trying to attack..

..I'm a bit superstitious about these words, gonna try not to.

Well, whatever you said..

..you sure said it.

I already said sorry

if I did anything.. what just happened?  What's with you and the word captchas?  This stuff would stick in my head.  Bella doesn't sit here and do this all day.  Why are you trying to stop me?

Problems

Why is all this happening to Bella?  My dad ruined me life.. stop!!

Stop..

Stop flooding me with messages.

GET OUT

STOP RUINING IT I SAID STOP DID YOU NOT HEAR
STOP

Don't

Don't build me more mean messages as you go.

I TOLD YOU STOP

DON'T SUGGEST I AM A RACIAL SLAVE TO BELLA

Why won't you stop??

Look, you're being mean.

No Right

You had no right to bring Bella into this so much.

I said stop it.

They talked to me with pizza.

What?

I don't have time to fart around.  Stop belittling me.

I said no.

Don't bug me.
I  just said no.

Not Taking This

My dad keeps acting like he's stimulating someone I like.

Apology

if I've said anything to anyone

Being Weird

They introduced their act with erasing my mom from me.

Problems

In the shower, I cut my fingernails today and they made the vent warble sooner.  I feel like I have m********ed.
THEY WON'T STOP

They said

scissors and there's something disgusting.  What is this, party and insult me for my new relationship?
This might be bad for me, now.

What

Why aren't the post titles showing up on the side for the posts with no title?

More

They did beef.

Stop it!

They put wine bottles for the captcha..  What did you and my dad do to change things?

Morevoer

They got in my music and now I couldn't feel it the same.  Quit it!

More

They just did pizza.

I felt like adding the tag

in this order:

Prayers
Glitches

They are trying to set me up to get super stimulated by my dad's oldest sister just to act like I need an old mom.
Stop it.  This is irritating.
I just told you to stop.

Upset

I just added a Glitches tag.

They acted like my dad's oldest sister chopped the bare space in front of my recording in Finnish singing so somehow I started singing right when it started to record.  I posted this to some people online.