So..

Why do people think I'm a guilty person?  They didn't before on the outside.

Whatto I do now?

My parents/people keep saying "Ellen says this, Ellen says that, you watch the show, but you don'know!"

Why..

Why would people use famous/popular people "at their disposal?"  The cheap answer is because it's okay if it makes me jealous.

I noticed

I noticed there are things other people say that I'm not supposed to.

Since when..

..does Blogger find it necessary to break up each day of posts into several pages?  I know I have a long list of tags.

If..

If anyone is mean to me, they just say they did it to make me look good (to foil me.)

Problem

What's with the idea that you think you all fooled me into being bad?

Problem

Taking a walk and it's all @ saving Bella Thorne and being mean to me.  Saying the name of someone she dealt with.  Saying Ellen said it to me.  Like I did something.

Problem

What'd I do now?  You're lying about what I said.

Some cars sound like they said I'm off with Ellen, well tomorrow which isn't important to anyone in any way of what else that could mean, too, possibly.  What?  Now, I heard, "She is never allowed to be with Ellen DeGeneres."  I am not the one being mean.  I don't hear people just say that to people.  Maybe, I won't.  You don't know for anyone, and it seems like she'd like some people.  I don't talk about those things, tho!  They just wanna know.  Well, now it's no and it doesn't have to be yes.

Something about this seems partly untrue and bothersome and sorta startling to hear said.  They're officially being mean acting like someone told them this.

I know this is bs.

So, I have nothing to worry about!

(Some of this is bs!  A ha ha!  I saw it.  I know how it was made.  Whatever I know..I know!  :D  )

Well..

..I guess I have nothing to worry about, just a little shocked and realized there were things that I haven't said.

What?

I didn't say what really upset me even.

What'd I "do" that's so bad, now?

*You looking for trouble?  Cuz I know "less popular" people pursue me.

*not in a sarcastic way - that phrase jumped up and bit me in the arse, no sarcastic intent

Problem

I keep getting freak messages via cars outside, the way my parents act, and the ticks in my room.

All the Worst Possible Things

It's a "thing" now to "unite" with my family, but I'm supposed to be outta the house in spirit and don't deserve no money.  I thought this Emmys thing was supposed to be okay.  I'm not the new bo'.

It's like being cut off from the world still at odds.

So what?  What "can't" I do?  I just think of curse words sometimes, like at the table, but try to stop.  It's not really any of anyone's business.  It is interesting it would be a threat to people who know me..

Problem

So, why/how would I want to assume what my mom tells me is a message from Ellen DeGeneres if she wants to be in peace in that way as a person?  Like when it's about her?  She is mad all the time, too.

So..

..yea, people seem especially mad at me, these days..

Problem

I don't know where they're taking what I really said.

Problem

I've been trying to be pretty nice lately, with no help from anyone else.

Problem

I wasn't mean to anyone, but others are mean to me and they always feel sorry for the other person.

Problem

I got upset thinking Ellen DeGeneres had someone ruin my nose.. and I was upset and now people think I'm the bad one and don't deserve a nice, good nose.

Problem

They keep overreacting, taking big things from me for what I see as little inconveniences because of my grandma and oldest aunt.  They are also being meaner because of someone else, being scared of my dad and maybe Ellen DeGeneres to be nice to me, all the popular people scared to not be meant to me!  They are really turning on the switch like I don't matter, a big change.  I get upset a little "by accident," they don't care they are really mean to me.  I can't "apologize" nor "feel sorry" for anything ever.  It's always something where they're really in the wrong and I'm "too late" to "perform" my best, for them!

Problem

Why are they trying to make me perverted with my parents and relatives?  Are they jealous?

Telegram

I think Ellen DeGeneres is trying to "punish" me and making it complicated in order to make it seem like she's not.