Sunday, October 26, 2014

Like, get them outta my life!

I even said so on Facebook they weren't really in it.

I feel people creeping up wanting to kill me for losing control when I was mad at being hurt.  No one is there for me, and they shoulda been before "this" happened.
 

Mal-Punishment

Punishing me when people are mean to me and I get upset or I indulge in or process private thoughts is already wrong.  I will not give up anything for anyone's lost fantasy for my life.

You do not provide me with a way.  You do not even let me live peacefully.  You all try to test me.  They do.  They do it repeatedly and expect me to say sorry for it.
 

The Joke

My dad actually is coming out trying to admit that he's in for "the program" that I should be considered too old to look to Late Boom women as a mom.  My mom won't let me use her age, though.

If you didn't understand, he said it in a tacky way, it seemed.  He didn't literally say it but seemed to be getting the message across that Ellen DeGeneres is indeed special and should not have anything to do with me cuz I'm not good enough.

The joke keeps coming up that Ellen DeGeneres is too young to be like a mom to someone my age.
 
 

"Did It"

My dad came in and bobbed his head he wanted me to be a case for wanting younger women as my mom.
 

Problem

They won't leave me alone, they want to talk about this later, like tomorrow.  There's nothing to talk about.
 

Tweet by Me

 

This can't be..

 

I just learned not to

get mad at something.  There is always a better answer.  It was sorta an accident closing the cupboard loudly.  I have to remember my sick mom for that.
 

:0

What can I do, now?
 

Problem

They went wacko, my parents, and started talking about school and stuff for my kids being the result of my saying no to suffering a day for thinking of the word k***.  They talked at length suddenly.
 

Help!

I cannot say for one moment that Ellen nor my dad did not help my mom get cancer ultimately.  Supposedly, it was stress partly from my being upset when she's mean..
 
  ,

Please Pray for My Mom

I made a loud noise after she wailed to stop.  It's so easy to do.  I have no self-control ingrained in me, I'm a blank slate.
 
  ,

Feeling Bad

Maybe, when you're with other people it's okay, but my dad rubbed in my older aunt as opposed to Ellen and people her age as being associated with me being my generation.  I don't feel well about it.  He said that's what I have to think about tomorrow.  It makes me feel bad.

He did say it in a joking way, but he still said it.
 
 

Lame

My neighbors just ruined my life.
 

Apology

I hope you are okay, whoever is watching.. can't see why not.  I did say, "Nigger" to them.  I could not stop being mad about Ellen punishing me when I was good.
 
 

Apology

I can only hope and pray everyone is alright.  Let me extend myself to an extended set of people who are not in my life and that things with them are going fine.
 
 

A Lady at the Store

was flipping me off and thought since she had bright pimples that she was really fairer and better than me, but when I got mad the pimples on my face turned that.
 

I can see

her brush aside everything I say like I have to curse in caps to get her attention so she can tell me to go away.  Ellen.
 

Sick

MAKE HIM TAKE IT BACK

My dad said, "If it's not Barb, tomorrow, it's not."
 

Stop

Ellen DeGeneres cannot act like I did anything wrong and then "punish" me.  Stop lying when you act sweet, you are mean, and you insist it is if I don't believe that's what it's for.  I mean this in a strong way.  Stop brushing it off as stupid chiming.

My dad sold some shit when he sent secret messages with the noises he made saying things like my daughter is "not even the sea."  And Ellen is "not even my sister" funning around I'm tiny so much but younger kids have it good with attractive people like Ellen's age.

I've been terrorizing my room and knocked down my spotlight lamp with a blanket, pondering on Ellen and her stupid punishments.

My dad came in here and asked if he could help, and I still don't feel good.  I don't wanna waste my life doing shit.

All I did was come in the room and act like I was saying, "Stop it," over and over for saying there would be no tomorrow because the word "kill" was used with me by neighbors as I came home.  They tried to pull out my bottom and legs because I was upset Ellen had cute boobs because I believe she took mine away a long time ago.  I'm worth shit now!

You can't keep saying Late Boomers and their younger kids generation are better!
 

STOP!

Ellen is having my dad not answer me sometimes.
 

Yup

My dad is talking with an attitude like he's mad.  I told/asked him.
 

Something Else

Ellen does that we're not supposed to do to her

She imagines me asking something like some kid with a ball in its stomach looking up with a small, thick, wet nose.  Stop getting me close to my dad, too, in bad ways.  Just because I said something you are gullible and listen to what you think my Gramma believes and then you "do it again" and actually that's ill.
 

STOP RUINING MY LIFE

MY DAD IS COMING IN ACTING LIKE I DESERVE THIS, TOO
 

STOP IT

MY DAD IS BEING SICK AND WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE, HE HAS AN ANNOYING SNIDE ATTITUDE THAT IS UNATTRACTIVE

HE WANTS ME TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR OLDER PEOPLE AND OTHERS YOUNGER - STOP IT - IF OTHER PEOPLE LOOK LIKE SHIT IS THEIR DEAL NOT MINE, THEY WON'T LISTEN ANYWAY - STOP BEING VIOLENT TOWARDS ME
 

PROBLEM

STOP JUST LISTENING TO OTHER PEOPLE AND TELLING ME I CAN'T DO ANYTHING
 

STOP IT

YOU AREN'T IN MY PERSONAL LIFE LIKE THAT YOU SICKO
 

ANNOYING

NO ONE HAS TO BE MEAN TO ME - STOP SPREADING YOUR GERMS
 

STOP IT

STOP IT - THEY WON'T STOP BOTHERING ME..  DIDN'T I ALREADY SAY THAT?
 

STOP

MY MOM KEEPS INSULTING ME TALKING WITH THE NOISES SHE MAKES
 

MANIACS

MY MOM WON'T STOP

SHE HAS A "MESSAGE FROM ELLEN" I CAN'T BE WHITE NOW, YOU'RE WRONG
 

STOP IT

I DON'T WANNA LISTEN TO YOU ALL
 

QUIT IT

ABUSING ME - STOP TEARING UP MY BODY - ELLEN STOP DOING STUFF TO US AND SAYING WE CAN'T FIGHT BACK
 
I JUST TOLD YOU YOU WERE BEING BAD AND MY FAMILY
 

Problem

Looks like my dad is being suggestive, like his oldest sister, about Ellen DeGeneres, pleasuring her.
 

Problem

They startled me with a noise.  You keep coming in and bothering me and I don't care about what you all do.
 

Problem

These people are acting like they have something on me when I don't say what they do.  They changed something more quickly this time, too.  This is sick.  And it's for Ellen.  It should stop.  I need my real life.  I'm not gonna die like this.
 

Problem

There are weird ads on IMDb, too, of nonwhite people with their mouths injured or grown the wrong way.  I even saw Ellen think, or have a dream, about it on the show.  I sense this is for a stupid reason, like going to Disney when my aunt supposedly wasn't coming and then said to my dad she'd tell me later.  Ellen just messes up my life.  I want real friends!  Everyone just follows Ellen like a zombie.
 

Problem

These people watching me in my room are being silly and won't be quiet.
 

I care even less.

I care even less if it has anything to do with my irrational dad being mad.
 

Problem

Yesterday, Ellen DeGeneres took happiness in having a poster tell me she wants me dead, and now a poster I just said I liked put up a "Siamese" (like Asian) cat as his profile pic.  She can't tell a person who likes being white they are Asian.  I don't care about what the show says, it's wrong.  This was nasty, and there was no reason to do this.  I don't care about being safe and that someone else does it because I hate on them, too, or sometimes am able to ignore it if it seems like an accident.
 

There's more.

Now, the ads won't go away on Yahoo! Mail.
 
Subscribe to: Posts (Atom)