Monday, November 28, 2016

Problems

They keep adding more.

Problem

My legs and some of the front of my body felt shocked off when my mom came in when I was talking about a beard or literally "sideburns etc."

Someone was following me around because I didn't personally take to their rebellion in having facial hair cuz I've seen it too much and it has to do with me..  I think it was Election Day for President.

Problem

I feel like I have to think about my breasts to keep them okay.

Worried

The feeling is gone and they may grow.  What if they want to give me cancer?

Problem

Now, I feel disconnected feeling-wise in an inappropriate way that feels there.

Problem

People were nice to me, but now they are saying I forced them to.  I was just attacked strongly after some message they said someone I know gave but partly/maybe.  I felt my breast swirling around in a way I did not like and it was hard not to lose it.  I'm sure damage was done.  What made me uncomfortable is that someone was able to do something like that.

Apology

People have marred me in my ability to relate to others, but I do not want others to go thru what I have.  I only said I didn't like being in that disposition.  I don't think my thoughts got the better of me completely.  I was also outside around cars.  I don't remember exactly all the details of what it was nor who "said"/thought it originally and kinda marred me.

cont.

He thinks he has to be bad to me and with the spying on me.

Problem

It's hard to get rid of the feeling my dad gave me.  I feel dysfunctional in general because of how I feel from him.

Problem

That's a big but catastrophic thing to do.  I don't want to feel a certain way from my dad and I'm not supposed to and suddenly it started happening.

I need my freedom of speech, too.

Problem

I never wanted to be affected thru my dad.

Feeling Inappropriate Things

They made it so my dad affected me emotionally.

Threats

My dad came in and made it so I could not feel certain affection from someone.

Hurting Me

My dad is threatening things about me, like how I look pretty ethnically in a way I managed to do.

Problem

They are saying I can't talk about sensitive issues that involve me cuz they'd theoretically involve others and I'm not much sexually they say.  I didn't say it as of yet what I'm thinking.  I know Ellen DeGeneres thought it was an idea not to talk about it cuz she knows people like that.