I also wonder then..

..why other people are doing it still.  For attention?..

So, what about..

..it's already been done for me but you still mess up my days.

Isn't Johnny Depp..

..like that, thinks people like me should accept others thrashing at them or something?  Like, it's okay for them to do it but not me?  People on his boards used to be like that.

Not Usually Like This

But no one used to hate on me much.  What do you do, you act apologetic all the time for stuff?

Oh no!

I did it again!

I warned you, anyway.

The thought sorta came to me.. that someone else got something insteada me probably for/cuza Ellen, tho.  WHY WON'T THIS STOP!  I can hear you jesting at me.  I'm a good person.  You people just walk around on eggshells.  This is so pathetic.  I never asked you all to be bad like this.  I miss when my life was normal.

I caught something.

Why when people all interact and care do you act like you're not supposed to when you are doing it?

Can anyone help me?

I'm a good, nice person.  People come up and are mean to me.

They are trying to stimulate me in bad ways.

My Imagination

Why do I have to use it?  It's good sometimes.  But I think I am recepting negativity.  I am sorry I do this.

Setting Me Up

The biggest joke is they think they are actively determining what and "who" my possible future kid/s would be.

People are being suggestive to me and I have to think about it.  I don't deal with that foolishness.

What's wrong?

Why do people keep fighting me?  My dad?  The experimenters?  They're not really that mad at me??

It's too bad you can't warp into a person and neatly lay it out in bullets or on a chart or graph.

What..

..not a nice thing to decide to say??  I didn't realize that cuz I bet in some ways that's not true.

Who would..

..be triumphant if I got breast cancer?

So..

Just get everyone mad and not deal with real things??

You can't..

You can't get mad at me for people experimenting on me.

Warning Sign

I think I'm going to be upset, even if I'm not, cuz I've got nothing better than what I'm doing.

Problems/Apologies

I'm sorry something came off as bad.

I was told I was rolling my eyes in a tacky way for saying that the cars bothered me as they drove by.  I shouldn't have been so mean.  When I stopped trying that.. I swayed crossing the road and made my stance again against the cars.  I simply thought I wasn't listening, shouldn't be necessarily true..  I don't know why it matters to anyone else.  I wanted to drop anyone's philosophy after some thoughts of things like this that didn't make sense in reality.  I just need to focus on being nice.  I don't think thru some bad things.

You know, they are acting like they are forcing someone to feel inappropriately who I look up to because I look up to them and they have such a big grudge they just do whatever it seems.  Sorry, if that didn't come out nicely.  Just the 411.  Anyway, they are tactually doing it by the day.  What does this mean??

Confused

I'm known as the best behaved.  You drilled in and made up negative connotations about my private thoughts.

Edit

I added a note to my last post.

So, what

Am I the only one who has accepted my dad?  Obviously not insofar as others *listen and are mean to me.

*"Listen" as in something like to be mean to me.

Upset

You just tick at me until you can make up a mistake I did.

How can you

tell me what I am and what I like?

No Chance

I was interested in people younger than my dad.

I'm not show offy!

I don't need to be taught a lesson.

Problem

I got a secret message that when I was excited someone was visiting where I'm from I got excited.  They think I am s***.

Gauging

Gauging how much I say to make a point about something negative in my life and trying to stop things from happening after something important happens, the bad things.

I don't mean to be mad/mean.

I just have a point to make.  I'm not used to being fought and think a lotta people like me aren't.

What I'm Against

Just people in general saying I'm stupid and worthless for no reason but making them up.  That's what I was talking about with my mom.  People would not want me to say this, but it's true.  Can we talk about this?  I will.  I am not stupid because of my dad being my dad!  I am not stupid!!  I didn't say anything about my dad being that way, too, even.  I don't think that people with dads a little older should be considered worse than others.  No one ever talks about that.  What they did was try to say I did something typical that was bad, but that's not my personality!!

Negative Connotations

I didn't really say anything bad.

Apologetic..

I just feel an irritation that I'm not that good.  When I went and did something else I was fine.

..You think

I share their flaws

Wasting My Life and Free Time

I don't have the problems you think..  You think I'm overly attached to my parents, but I'm not.

These people are sick.

They think that people of certain ages between others are more beautiful and cunning.  What a perverted rhyme and reason and style of expressing.

Problem

These people won't shut up.

You're just being bad!

What was that?

Why are you being mean?

You're doing illegal things and think you're cool.

I WILL NOT LET THIS HAPPEN!!!!

My mom is acting like she is younger for a stupid reason that my dad is older.

Problem

They can't "work for my dad" and be forced to be mean to me.  I will not take that!

Not Okay

They must be displaying themselves as ***y but not nice.  I am nice, tho.

Why did you just do that?

You made a sound that said you'd switch my room with someone else and then my mom came in and pushed open my door and I had to get up and fix it.  That's disturbing.  Why did you send me that message?  You think I'm a pile of mess?

"Ambiguity"

I am partly ambiguous.  Obviously, I wouldn't have thought any of the little I did if I knew it was wrong to someone nice.. hopefully for unselfish and sensible reasons.

I should sit here and hone in on them.  I was not really mad towards them but could be made to feel that way.

More..

I'm not mad at them, but I could be made to believe I was.  I'm kinda upset they got upset for what I did, as in sad.  I knew already not to think of them, but the places were there for those thoughts.

More..

I know for instance in Europe they can curse and no one will k*** them and they are still upstanding Europeans.  I have a limited vocabulary and am being put up like I don't try to be nice.

I did get upset at something but not at them.  With them, I am not upset.  Their lives are manipulated.  They don't have to do what they do.  I wish people would act normally and not sacrifice to either show off or be "too nice" and say hi but get upset later etc.  You get the picture.

I'm very sorry I know my original thoughts were off.. I know I was being lazy not to talk about it on a problems blog nor to physically sift thru my thoughts.. yet emitted a certain negative air.  You get the picture.

I am sorry today I told myself hatred for the weird noises cuz I see that hurt their feelings.  I was "trying to get it out."  I guess I can try harder..  You know, this is kinda rough and unfair to me.

I saw that my dad likes me, but it's hard for people to like me who are younger than my dad/parents.  I feel unlikable now.

What really does it..

..you hear a car go by with the latest news of negativity.  And it "applies."  "It was really to you."

I thought I already..

..told you what I thought.  Why are you getting me annoyed so much, making ticking noises every few seconds, so that I think something I've been avoiding and get in trouble with you for your reading my thoughts?

You were"blabbing.."

and want me to not know what to think.  I don't have to accept what you do.  It would haunt me.

You have no authority

to decide my life.

Why are you

"blabbing" at me?

You have no right..

..to hold me back in how I act in general.

Upset

I don't wanna see myself sitting here cozy with my dad and in ways I don't like while I get told I'm bad for something.

So..

Who's telling the people in my room to hurt me??

This Morning

They were bugging me and they are very annoying for some reason.

When I got a stupid message, I did just admit to myself I didn't do anything wrong.

I was upset that people degrade me and still am for more new reasons.  They praise others and think I'm here to sit around and be beat around the bush.  I was a little jealous or "interested" in how someone else was openly accepted by the public.. as far as the person goes, I'd imagine they'd just have to go along.

I didn't say I didn't make a mistake!

I know I wasn't perfect, but something had happened and I was trying to deal with it and come up with a stance or something.

Apology

I didn't mean to hurt anyone's feelings.

So, what was it??

Just to be safe?  You say I'm in trouble?  That makes no sense.  It will come back to haunt.

I didn't..

..I can disagree with something like anyone else.

Making Mistakes

What mistake did I make?

Something Funny

It's like my life is overtaken and people decide how others treat me for them.