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Problem

They won't stop taking things down.

and

that it's this way for good

Cars

say I can't be like someone's child, anymore.

Also

I didn't grasp why, too much for 1 day.

Apology

I was just reciting my beliefs to myself, but you know you can do what you want.

Problem

They said I am like someone I don't wanna when I personally disagreed someone I like was supposedly annoying me being a certain way tying it in to someone else in an annoying topic etc.

Problem

My neighbors are being annoying, even with the noisemaker on.  Oh well, turned on music.

Problems

I was going to the shower and .. oh no, what if something died in me?

Problem

They are playing around making up new threats.

Problems

They tried to kill my possible future daughter by surprise and are saying my day at church is ruined both today and tomorrow.  What devils.

I closed the door sorta harder or faster again after someone left where I was, but I didn't really slam it.  So what?

cont.

They keep getting at me but are nothing to me in that they think they are over and above.

Someone is over.

I can hear them, judging me.  Get a life!

Bothered

What can I do?

So, I was technically bothered when my dad knocked on the door, like an opportunity to talk to me, like he acts like every day.  He insults me all the time, so I don't like his closeness.

I asked..

..and they sounded mad.  My dad came out like something was wrong and spoke in a British accent but mad at me, and I guess that's just an example of something silly happening in my house.  I'm sorry if you are sensitive to that people slam doors, that if I don't close it like mouse I must be like everyone else and my dad slams his door, just not when I'm right there too.  He does it rarely when mad.  I didn't do that.  I'm not much for slamming doors.  I just wanted to be more assertive so I don't stress myself out, but I guess it was social discomfort.

Why

is my dad invading me socially?  I don't like his lust for hypnosis and controlling me.

What's their problem?

Why won't they stop ruining it for me?

I guess, my dad

 can't handle himself.  He gets offended when I feel uncomfortable about him being mean.

They just said something where I was close to him in a way with this, something special to me.

What are they doing now?

Trying to find something to flirt about?

Problems

I heard, "This isn't this isn't this book."

They keep adding more problems!

Get a life!

I'm not here to close doors like a mouse.  They just wanna startle me!  It wasn't slamming the door.

Problem

My dad was able to affect me how he had not, like someone I trusted told them to.  He cleared his throat saying, "You're not allowed to have it in my family," and I moved forward.

Problems

They keep threatening my relationships.

Problem

I wasn't even talking to him.  I was asking my mom when I can go back in my room, where it's quiet.

So

I didn't slam it.

Problems

They associated it with important things in my life.

cont.

Talk about busing a move.

Upset

My dad was talking like he was British in a tacky way tho to me, and as I walked by I just wanted to close the door efficiently and it was a little sudden/louder, but I didn't mean anything, and he came out walking by then.

cont.

My dad said like my possible future son or me, "Slow down."  What's his problem?  He's been at me since last night for no reason.

cont.

cuz this person got too much attention and we're trying to find out who did it cuz it was in a bad way

Criminal

my dad

Problem

He said that was the name of who I look up to.

Problems

They are playing around with what someone said.  My dad went ahead and said, "You cannot imagine me to do it to Miami."  And something else I didn't get, like something was always for someone else.

Problems

They said just because I like someone a lot, everyone else is using them like they're a replacement for everyone else to them so they feel ditzy from attention.

It's not safe.  They think I have to do whatever they say and that there's nothing to worry about cuz that's the only rule.

Problem

They won't stop.

Sersiously

They really want someone else to have my relationship for no reason.  They are acting like i'm bad.

Problems

They said when I'm talking about someone getting my relationships, it's like that when they "retire."

Problem

They won't stop being especially mean because I didn't like them taking from my relationship last night, treating me like a kid being reprimanded but just for the heck of it.

Problem

They're just playing around to hurt me all the time like there's a reason.

Problem

Why ruin such a good relationship?  This is constant berating at me, like a list.

Problems

Why is someone I like supposedly ruining my life like this.

They said that person is trying to kill what feels in me in a certain way.  Pressure.  😟

Problem

Also, why are people trashing me and caring so much about the peeves of others?

Problem

They said someone I look up to just said I can't get what's most important to me in our relationship.

Problems

i wish i could listen to @bellathorne calling me "babygirl" someday 😔.

— gabriella (@yourdobrev) December 2, 2016

Baby girllllll❤️💋 https://t.co/iqyybsDDOp

— bella thorne (@bellathorne) December 3, 2016

Happy birthday auto💥✨ @charlieputh

— bella thorne (@bellathorne) December 3, 2016

I think this was intended for me?  Someone is sensitive about how others see them and then get mad like I have to pay for it.

Problems

They keep bothering me, trying to mess with what thoughts enter my mind.

Problem

The sounds being made in the house, like dishes and my dad sneezing and coughing, are bothering me.  I have to wait somewhere else right now outta my room.  I was sleeping.

Punishment

They are taking away my fame as mattering.

Problem

They are taking me away from a relationship in specific ways and giving it to others!

cont.

and they keep doing it

Playing a Game

They told me things I did not like about a relationship and every time I felt upset they added more.  They said it was okay.  Now, they are just hurting me again.

Problem

I think my dad startled me and made me not feel as good but feel him.

Problems

They maybe hinted, that since too many people think of a relationship I have cuz I have it, to play around and say I should not think of them but maybe some others can.

I dunno why.  They lied to me that things would be okay, again.  I didn't like the mean messages, but I finally settled in that it was just something that would pass.

I was just reminded they think I should be a boy, like I'm in trouble tho and I don't know why.

They are acting like I'm in trouble for fun all the time.

I think they are trying to come in and cut me off.

They also said, "Ellen DeGeneres."  They think if I want a relationship it should be her, but I like other people too.  She wants someone else to find who I like and be their relationship instead.

No one seems to care to think if my relationship can be taken for dead, with how much they've been affected by attention by others, because they want to hurt what's most important to me to punish me, how crazy and absurd.  I feel as tho I've warned about this, but no one cares.

Resolution

I have always come back around and not feel I am an enemy recently.

Problem

I don't want my family to be closer to me in horny ways.

Problem

They are like threatening me with someone when I masturbate and they're not supposed to be involved.  I just don't know if they'll stop this kind of thing.