Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Weird Wiring of Will in the World in What I Witness

Oh my!  Aha ha!  Just amused yet upset, like there should be no strange agreement nor communication line with my dad regarding my being and concerning other people.. By that, I mean the agreements he makes to hurt me saying he's punishing me at age 30.  He just finds it a matter of consequence that we bump into one another.

Is this just the 4H Club? because I don't do no drugs, I don't get drunk, and I ain't smokin'.

I'm trying to solve this.  I didn't react physically nor do anything awkward, but he is still watchin'!

Tell me more so I can learn about this weird, punishing communication line that connects back to my dad when I talk to other people I like a lot.  Let me guess, "there's nothing to it?"

What's wrong?!  Think how pathetic this is.  The answer is "fail."  "Live and let live."  I am not "the weakest link."

Those people that end up on Dr. Phil, they don't believe their actions are of any consequence to anyone other than themselves.  Then, they find their parents on their case in their 20s and even older, much less Dr. Phil.  It's between them and the law, that they are "law-abiding citizens."

I wasn't trying to initiate and stir an onset of trouble.  I do lose it sometimes.

It seems like no oasis where there is nothing special waiting for me to look forward to after being pulled from my successes in life.  It's like when I was called to the counselor's office in highschool for a poor grade and changing mood, which got me behind from being pulled from and being counseled during other classes.  If something special were waiting for me, supposedly it's my fault if it's lost.  Say what?  They make up weird little rules where I'm the only one under real constraints.  They say they do one thing and do another.