I'm just reporting my problems. It's not to be nasty, but I felt people hated me. I should deal with it. I didn't address it to anyone. I dunno what to think about that, but it seemed like the same message, either way.
Moreover, I am sad that girl deals with this. I just know Ellen is nicer to her to punish me. Why look up to someone like that, why look up to anyone then? Ellen is using her and has offset her, it seems, or she just wanted more than 1 thing different.