So, the incoming negativity fails to cease. My suspects are the following:
(1) people who experiment on me, nurses, psychologists, "social scientists"
(2) my dad
(3) Ellen DeGeneres
(4) other people who are popular like Ellen DeGeneres
I get the messages from them thru little noises like clicking in my room, which is the garage. It also comes thru being in contact with others, usually my parents, who have their own nasty messages. The computer loads suspiciously, as well, almost every time to me it feels, at least on certain parts.
The messages are little insults to startle me and make me feel out-of-control for some reason, maybe in anticipation of what they chose to do to me, legal or not legal. Hey, I even got hints that they crash planes and kill people to stimulate me, like say Ellen decided to do it, and she wouldn't just say no cuz maybe she thinks there is some case where her royal highness can give such decrees.
I don't know why I'm bad to people. I only got mad if someone did something to me!! You're supposed to, like you getting mad at me for no real reason. I do little things for fun or sometimes slip up a little, like in attitude, and this is what I get, the one who is called Miss Perfect by the whole class? That's suggestive and selfish to barge in and control my life constantly sending me these messages. I feel all drained! Like they soaked the goodness outta me. They don't understand life. They don't live it! Sorry Orlando, too, me running into poor, weird people. These people single me out and don't ever listen to me worried about my race and how because of my parents I turned out. I was doing fine until something happened. See, they are sinners. That just proves it. I had a miserable life, as though it weren't my parents fault. I was that dorky looking figure of a person with straight black hair cut in a bob with bangs.. What do they do now? Act like they can control me. They keep saying I'm shit because of who each of them is. But they do what they want. They don't want me ahead. How sick is that? People don't like me cuza that. I won't live this life! Something's going down. I'm already 28. No, I do not want to get back totally at my parents. They did let me go thru schools that teach nothing in social studies. I don't think slaying them would be the answer. This isn't TV. That's not what I meant by "going down.." I would not mean that obscurely.. so. At least, I explained this one. So, what is this? Is my life that bad because of one thing? I am always really good.