Just to Make the Report

People don't seem like .. I don't feel like anyone is paying attention to me since this girl and since my life became an experiment 10 years ago.  I feel like I alone am unaccomplished.  I don't feel I've done nor earned anything, while other have "done something" at all in their lives, opposingly.  If I earned something, a reputation or respect or affection, it all slides down the chute to this girl.  They pretend she's me: the look about her, her demeanour, her track record, it all.  She is a beautiful human being, like the rest of us, but I'm sure she's been platformed on a pedestal.  Ellen acts like she isn't being touchy about her to punish me, but I'm sure that rumor is false.  She did it to get ahead and got me to not name her when I talk ever about these things that she thinks is obvious she did.  I liked not bringing her up, but I already brought this up.