My relationship is ruined in another way, too. They are messing with my gender physically in the private part, like I owe it. I accidentally had a thought, but I didn't mean nor say it. It had to do with someone. They were at me. So, it was confusing. I knew it would happen and told myself I didn't wanna think it, but they kept at me and it came. Things come like that. I am good and then suddenly I am just mad when I'm doing something.