You couldn't openly talk to me about what you say in secret.
Like, how if I stomp my feet in my room or something I lose something big of a relationship towards totalling things. People know me to be good. They won't say anything else. Instead, I get this, tho. I try not to do it. Maybe, I could be better. I just feel bad I was so mean in a way when frustrated. I didn't mean it. Things come up. I have a hard time processing what this is, and I should just try harder to ignore it. Tell myself things are okay and I can just get thru this without doing anything at the time and come here and post if I want if I think I need "help."