I get treated hurtfully if I think of something bad by accident.
I think my dad wants me to get "punished at age 30" a lot all the time and emotionally harshly because I'm supposedly less sensitive to punishment than others. Also, I don't get it over with right then and there, f.y.i., like most hurried "cases."
There should be some process of leaving the issues, but I am beginning to feel I can't look forward to a clean slate so soon. So, it's like I know now I'm waiting for the unbelievable in attack of emotional stability.
So, my point is there is nothing I can do to alleviate this when things happen that do not seem to really be my fault. I wonder what I am supposed to do. It's like telling me to tell myself I am really worthless. It doesn't happen, and then I get in more trouble.