My True Feelings of Ellen

I don't like how Bella is so much put in front of me.  I was only mad because the noises in my room were unfair.  I can see people use me as an example of what not to get involved in, if possible.  I shouldn't even be saying this, but it's distressing to always be a #2.  I can't perk myself up.  My dad keeps fighting me, and I think Ellen does, too.  I think Ellen has a grudge that I thought it was neat people used to watch me in my room while I talked to them on paper and it was when I lived where she is from.  I thought it was just an interesting experience.  I didn't need it to happen again but bad to me.  I guess I just hadn't gotten around to posting about it online on a website.  That's very violent and, like, "self-assertive," like very certain of something that would to most people not be a certain option.  I mean to end up like this? when you're being watched every second.  I bet my life would be better off otherwise a long time ago.