I tried to go thru it.
Several "points" were made.
I don't like confronting people that rub into me and those I care about including possible future kids and knock everything else out.
Also, I realized these hardships are payback for Ellen and they've been consistent.
I was made to be gradually more upset. I did ignore it mostly at 1st. They are being mean to me cuz I hit my sofa when I was mad etc. That doesn't make me automatically a bad person.