Christina Ann Joanna Barrett 
thinking about doing something crazy
Some people have had the doctor order change in my life that isn't going away. They think I have done wrong and are treating me like a kid, being mean to me like they are punishing me. It has happened for an unusually long time, when I never meant ill on anyone. I haven't exactly lashed out at them on my Problems Blog but have reported it there. By the way, if someone is being hurt, they have the right to feel upset and talk about it, tho it's probably better if they don't take it too seriously. The thing is I could go in and smile, but I really can't put up with one problem after the next. I don't really know where this one is coming from.
They are snapping at me if I feel good is what it is. They have upscaled their value by doing this to me. There are little noises in my room..
The only thing I am wondering if it's not just being mean/"punishing" me. I used to have nice dreams a few years ago. For some strange reason, I bumped my forehead in the bathroom, not that hard, and these cool dreams stopped. Someone probably sliced their hand in front of my brain and even remembering normal dreams watered away.
So, I see it as I was not very bad so it's bad they are taking away my pleasure. They see it as I was mad on the inside and seemed like they could tell my sadness of not feeling well on the outside but don't care cuz they did it and that therefore something big is what I don't deserve.
Technically, they can't do it, but they just strung together the meaning and did it.
This has went on a relatively long time if not for good. They wrongly wanna play safe by being mean to me and acting like they didn't just do it but I deserve it.
I don't know if I can deal with this misfortune and the juggling of who did what. If it's someone I know, I have a problem cuz it's not for them to decide. I think I sorta know who started what with the big picture. They think they can "punish" me for no good reason in my 20s. I'm 29. Like, if I did poor in school cuz something happened, if I used a store card and want to pay it back with allowance.. hard to think of much else that relates to this.
Someone in my life has gone insane, too, and they keep rubbing them in.
They've supposedly convinced other to be mean to me.