..I was mad in the bathtub splashing and spinning and stretching around, probably a crime.
One thing I realized was I didn't wanna be told what to do, like that I can't release anger in private. Why is my oldest aunt an adopted mother for me? I'm 29. I already have a mom, dead or alive, which she is alive and I live with her. I find that suggestive. She always thought the most of me, for whatever reason. Did someone tell her to change??
Earlier today-I forget, they were a distraction.
I also wonder why they ruined my life. My parents, the experiment. Why was my hair so f****in' black? No one sees me for who I am because my hair is not blonde. They separated us as babies and decided whose hair to lighten and whose hair to darken. Well, there was no reward for what they said was good as black when we were not even fully conscious and stuff as babies. I could only wonder why some people have black hair and why non-white people only like the white people with blonde hair.