I didn't want to bother someone having a good time.
I know I'm not supposed to comment, on that, like saying it's not perfect.
I know I felt bad in the car. I should have held it in.
I was tricked. I needed to get home and know what's what. I made myself comfortable, slept, ate, and showered.
I am wondering, tho, about them telling me these things are real, people losing it thinking it should be this way and making things happen to me that probably is rather weird. I can't, anyway, write each time something happens. I don't know I should have said this now even, but discussing it is indeed different from being upset.