I just got a sign like someone else that I will be forgotten in something I do by someone I look up to.
I was walking and the cars were crazy to me, like, the whole time. I felt disturbed, but they did not care.
They are misinterpreting me because a word came up that I did not apply to what I said I think. I just didn't like how they kept acting like I was in trouble and lost something I need. I came home and the same experience. My dad kept getting at me and hurting me like a dare. I can't even see something big in the same way.
So, they made it sound like I thought badly of some important thing on purpose. It's complicated. I just don't need this experience. I'm not stupid!
I don't think that them all acting like someone I look up to is inappropriately stimulated so much to not care about me and then that I take care of them like they look up to me instead is wrong. I know some people do it who are younger. I wasn't supposed to be in whatever situation I'm in, like I'm pushing a mental/emotional wheelchair or someone who once carried me. Like they're about to die and are in an infantile state! Get the picture? So, yea, I accidentally thought of a certain word but did not mean it. Now, they are solidifying this even like it's my fault.