They keep saying I did something new as a problem or are just hacking at me for an old issue. They keep being mean to me. I wake up fresh every day, and I'm in trouble. I want to blank my mind out and not get out of bed.
They are a disappointment..
They gave a subtle ear into understanding they "cannot love me" but give what is mine to someone else.
There was more I forget.
I was wondering if someone would give me a ride, and my dad is mean and negative to me and he perked up, excited but to torture me in the ride cuz he's always mean to me. It came across that way. I think he was looking for me to perk up to his torturing me. He was so adamant but in general cross. I don't know why, guess it's nice he's excited, but don't most dads like to bug their daughters and cancel out their original dreams?
People keep opening me up and "including" my dad. What if your dad was involved every time you did things with others? I am not my dad! He sorta doesn't converse the way I do. I don't want my life to slowly go downhill.
Also, why is my aunt in my life like this, "punishing" me thru secret message? She keeps feeling she has to ruin something, and people listen. I don't. This is serious. I don't think even my therapist understands and doesn't fix it. You know, I don't see what the big deal really must be. It is like she does it, and then it's like she doesn't. It's a big game with her and others like Ellen DeGeneres playing tug a war. Ellen DeGeneres acts like it's not okay to talk to her and maybe others, but then I find she is only using them against me! Is this true?
My dad must be excited to see my mom and I so he can slowly put us down more and more. That's what they do at church here, and they pick on us for liking the pastor.
So, childless people like my aunt and Ellen DeGeneres keep being mean to me.
Disclaimer: I mean no offense. I'm concerned for my life. If people want to talk to someone else innocently is fine with me. I guess I am worried they do it with a hating spirit for me from those I like. I'm sorry about the people I mentioned, but that's what I was getting as a message. So, this post went off with the problem I had for my dad from talking about how they are actually messing around listening to my grandma that they should make other people closer to those I like just to hurt me. It's been awhile, and I have no promise for the future for sure that this will stop soon like it matters. The problems just go on! Why does this keep being so degenerate!? My life is shit like this! Yea, there's another idea in this post to post about.