I want to figure out what is right and not listen to these people just because "they already said it."
I thought something, and supposedly since they know they are applying weird British rules of socialization. Other people can hate on me. They think since they were mean to people like someone that they can just dump all the blame on me after all these years of me being polite. It's like their racism, they think they just have something unspoken that makes them better, like an aura, a spark, or something inside of them. It's really tacky and annoying. So, they are saying if all these bad people simply were mistreated that it's time to come out and say nice people like me need to deal with their *beep* as though someone has to be the true bad guy under it all but not the people who were dubbed as in trouble for things before. Why not just accept everyone?
I wonder if they think I came out bad and other people came out good, tho it may be because they stopped having people bother them. Then, they thought it was in me to be bad all along, like I was a puppet. If I was a puppet before, I am a puppet now.
Other people I have been friendly to to what I can considering my mixed race are stealing my relationships. Why can't they just have a relationship, too, and not steal what others have? Is everyone offset the same interests and only some people seemed like that on the outside all along?
Did you know sometimes a lotta people are hot who aren't skinny as rails, too? Like, the people you replace me with?
Why are people saying I am bad to begin with? No one "beat" me. They just want me punished. They probably aren't even treating others right or are just spoiling others I know. Who knows if it could end before I die. I don't have a life. I don't have like an "attaboy" and don't have work. I'm just a sloth in the rainforest.
So, I'm sorry, what precisely did you fine tune about my private thoughts? Every time someone looks bad, I get in trouble. I simply am not all there. People don't want to listen to me, esp. if I seem unpopular from past relationships they don't even know about. They want me to like kill myself or something, it seems in a way.
Why am I in trouble about someone else who does not wish to have to do with my life anything but taking my relationships? It is something people do in general. Why not let me still or later have my relationships, too, and then they have one, as well? My idea was already that it's important that it's about everyone, not just me and my relationships. See, you weren't ready. I'm right, you're wrong. Admit that. I know it's what's wrong. People "let it out" when something was going for me, tried to make me seem bad. So, why is other people a threat? How, anyway? Everyone thinks it's like a football game to see me lose in my relationships. What about all the mean things people think about me?