My dad is always a bastard around me. Even if I talk to him for fun, he's condescending and finds some way of "disturbing" me.
My mom always has something bad to say to me, as well, in part of her attitude.
They are acting like I've done something to deserve this, all these people who know about me and might even be consulting with my less than confident dad. Here are the things I've basically done:
I didn't write my younger cousin in Indonesia since I was about 8 years old just because I forgot and had no one remind me. I wrote her when I was about 25. A lotta weird things happened to my life, tho.There are some other things I could add: flunking out of college cuz my junior hi's didn't prepare me and using store cards which annoyed my parents who gave me allowance.
When I was 11, I said, "Oh, no," when I was doing my homework my dad came home from work. It sorta just came out in a hurry as a joke, but no one inquired and I kept doing it until my mom said to stop in private.
I thought someone wanted me to call their daughter the N word to make race seem more friendly, like saying it in a fun way.
I cursed at the noises someone put in my room to bother me. I ended up cursing in a way at my dad because I didn't want to curse at the other person by mistake I was so frustrated.
They harass me and say if a feeling sounds like it's true, then it is. They make fun of me when they use that way of lying to poke fun at me.
I feel sometimes people call my neighbors or hire people to come out when I go for a walk. Like, there are too many coincidences of running into my neighbors. They push me to get stimulated by it in inappropriate ways.
I find out about people I like online who are famous etc., and it seems my parents have been in contact with them to send me hateful, secret messages.
I swear there are little ticking noises in my room that sound like words that hit me and startle me to understand, probably making fun of me trying to stimulate me inappropriately on that note. There are other noises where I stay in the garage and in my house, too.
I cannot seem to reiterate enough how my dad is mean to me. Also, everyone assumes I'm in trouble with him and spite at me if I don't agree with beating me around, like it's just okay, but, no, no one would think it okay, like, if I did it to them. So, yes, this is affecting my life very much negatively.
I admit, my dad cools off, but every day he has an itch against me. He thinks he should pursue me with things like hinted secret death threats. He's an animal. Like, he started down a great aunt in law after being upset he went up north with me with a ticket from my aunt, who now is doing something weird cuza it partly possibly. That great aunt died a year or so after, tho she was already doing badly. But he actually jokes now using that against me, like I'm just bad. My dad won't stop telling me I'm bad in how he acts. I always am good. Some time, I may have slipped a bit but not really. Why should anyone have to deal with this b.s. anyway? I can't get these people to stop, like I say, who have been in contact with my family to be mean to me, my favorite people I look up to and if they met anyone or wanted to know anyone I'd then have a chance and it would be a fun thing. I might become famous, myself. I've been wanting to act in movies since I was about 21.
People around Orlando can be very nice or very mean. They keep acting like they're nice and I'm bad, when it's the exact opposite. Rumors spread about me and they rub in that I'm bad so they look good. I have a right to feel upset at people making me mad!