My mom made a noise like hurting and I went with it.
I don't know how to control my temper, anymore. My life never recharges at 100%. It just keeps getting worse. Even if I'm positive, I get attacked. They find some way to really bother me. Why does everyone laugh at me when I say I want anger pills and I don't get them? I don't need thought disorder pills. I ended up being found out for being upset, not my original way of having thought disorder when I was depressed. I can get used to it, maybe, but this *beep* is eating too much outta my life already! I know everyone else is very sensitive to these things and so people let them alone cuz they're white or don't try to act white if they're not.
They just came in and made fun of me like I don't deserve anything as an Aryan person. They acted pathetically, too, like, "Ugh, really.. you say that now?" I don't believe in that as being right! How would you like to be another race that is considered exterminable?
Anyway, I don't think I meant for it to go 100%. I was mad tho at how my mom supposedly had to act. They are putting the brunt on her, just so it looks like no one really did it.
So, I'm very sorry for anything that may have happened. Hopefully, I make it thru supper. Fine, pretend to hurt me! I just want things okay, but if you need anything, I mean if it's okay help yourself to it.
Maybe, zoning out the world with earplugs helps..
Well, as for hurting me, I guess that'd make you feel like a bad person, so that won't fix anything.