..but I felt m*****ed and thought badly. Whenever I saw someone, I felt m*****ed. Some thoughts just came. DO I mean them, well, it's too late, but no, they weren't real violent thoughts, just bad influence from cartoons. I couldn't get the feeling to wear off. I'm about to have a job interview, and I know people make me feel good and I'm ready to have a good time. Instead, they programmed me to be this way.