Like, who cares?

The people experimenting on me seem like they "don't have a heart."  I think that person I like cares about me.  If I am off in some big way, I just figure maybe it wasn't important, like someone else the things they did maybe they're not as much to me as before.  They might be making fun of me like I think of people like all the time if I like them.  They won't let me off in security.  I was mad for a reason!  I just got home.  People put something bad in my throat.  It came out, and my mom was just sitting there staring at me bemusedly.  I did fine there.  What is this?  What do you expect?  I know already sometimes I do not feel comfortable, and it might not be a racial issue.  I know comfortable, I do well and they don't say I did something wrong as much.  What happened?  People are making fun of me like I'm not all that, like I have some personal issue with my identity.  I think I was made to not feel as white, like it had to be some way I didn't like and then they think I shoulda done it.  The people experimenting on me are bringing up people a lot when I say it's not a good idea, and then they take them away like they should never be in my life.  I just got the feeling they were someone else, too.  I'm sorry, but I cannot know to agree with things you say, like fully believing it, like something about race.  I just was talking about what could be wrong!  I do care.  I do not wish to be ugly or something silly like that, but my parents haven't lately lectured the new times into my ears.  So, I'm not really pumped with a lotta intelligence.  I'm sorry, whatever they said I cannot handle it.