I had to start a new blog cuz they made me mad and say to stop it a lot.
This morning, they tried to make it so that I was only gonna talk to my dad, but he's disagreeable and it's disheartening, to have only him as my #1 or only anyone. I have many #1s. I am not a sheltered girl in a bubble and am not highly compatible with mom and dad. I put up with a lotta time alone.
Another problem is he did something annoying he recreated with symbols. Now, a lotta people were looking like him, like the shape of his legs. One day recently, he curled his hand pointing it to himself saying everything from me is all to him, like his saying "to me." He was thinking about the large, chunky, slicked nature of his own hand, "Did you see it?" Now, I'm not one to get close to my dad. I felt the symbol of his big, chunky hands again today with symbols around the house like he gets to talk to me when he's the one who ruined my day. I had a perfectly good day, but he wouldn't have it. I like someone, and I don't want my dad involved like that. He kept bugging me and in the end knocked out some of my brain with a noise while I wanted to show him something on the computer right after I read a part where Bella Thorne gets picked up by someone.
This is not yer party just because I met someone I like to constantly insult me when I made up such a good day and act like something went wrong when I'm upset.
I feel my hands affected by what he did this morning, at the top or my wrists. I find what he did highly tacky and annoying.
I did get some violent ideas but not on purpose and not that much. I need to keep things even keep but at the same time get him and his oldest sister off my back. I'm 28, and they never did this when I was younger.
My dad thinks things can't be happy and smooth, like he can tell me what to do and make me feel bad and not enjoy things, like "What're you doing!?" Really. He wants me to constantly be that way.
I don't appreciate this just because I like someone new. You all can't do this. I don't need your constant insults and annoying symbols that affected my wrists! I don't need your incessant, lazy insults to the point I have to jump off my butt in your presence. What about my wrists, now? I don't need this pressure. I don't need a symbolic ambush. I don't wanna be like my dad, and that's final, not in that way! You have no right to be doing this. I see Ellen DeGeneres made people look like my dad. That's not nice. She did something foolish, and I was thinking of my dad when I thought of it, and she did this.
They just said they did it. No, I don't want to. You have no right to do this. Did I just say nothing to you? You can't control me in my room!
My wrists are irritating me. I don't wanna be susceptible to the world.
Now, this is affecting things like my being able to go to school. I made a few typing errors.
I don't care if you all are scared. You can't do this to me. You make my life worse and worse.
Stop taking that person away! That's my favorite person! Or one of them. And I'm not gonna listen to my dad when he bugs me! It's confusing when he changes for the better. I am nice to him and accepting. He is mean to me and wants to m***** me.
Now, I have to worry about what superstitions they have next that I actually even talked about it. They are going on. I am not listening. I am not the product of my dad. I am nice to him, already.