Problem

I don't want to put anyone in danger, but it seems they did something to my family on purpose because of things I did.

I have said things by accident I hope I can leave behind, but apparently it's a favorite blaming tool.. sad.  I don't tell people to their face mean things.  It's on my blog or the IMDb message boards, mostly.. not much tho, not too many of those repeated mistakes..  I thought we were "supposed to let it out" etc.  I guess not!!  How utterly confusing.  Why wasn't I warned?  I am just around constant meanness!!  I just like used the word "m********ing" but not in the attack way.  I realize it seems inappropriate.  It was on a message board.  I've seen inappropriate things go by unchecked.  It was just how I was feeling, but after I found it was bad like that I haven't done that.  I was stuck cursing about the noises in my room and was upset at who might have promoted it.  I guess the worst was I used my dad to curse at rather than someone else?  Or when I did use curse words with someone else?  I dunno, maybe I was just half asleep.  I don't think I'm a bad person.  I wanted to be acceptable in the world.  I don't think it's my mom's fault.