Why is Ellen messing with people's families? We are already working towards a better time. She has bad reasons for some of the "changes." I didn't pin down quite the angle I was looking at it as. If she thinks it's so bad that my aunt uses curse words with her niece, what is she doing now being all vicious to me? I think my cousin curses, too, but maybe she simply didn't like my aunt bossing her around. Ellen almost seems too fascinated by the whole thing and it's slowing her down. If she's so fascinated with it, what's she really doing in spirit? Wouldn't her kind of answer be to stand on a pedestal at a podium and either lengthily or shortly say, "Do not curse, at kids." Then, put it on her TV show when she talks about "what she did this summer" and make it a feature online.
I'm not here to take the *beep*. All I can say is tell all the families how important it is that they don't curse at their kids. I kinda want to see the reaction. I think the proper topic is that you should never get mad at your kids cuz then you wouldn't curse. I don't like seeing parents disciplining their kids and losing it. I'd rather discipline the parents cuz they're in the responsible position. When they discipline their kids, they are nasty looking and sounding. They are being nasty. In other countries, other words exist. People from England use curse words and are still respected, but maybe they just use words like "bloody" around "children." Perhaps kids like cursing as long as it's not at them, too.
I'm not here to do a watch nor take part in a visitation vigil on how I feel about a bossy aunt cursing out someone she claims to have supported or raised. Which, I would think her mom would raise her. I wasn't really that close.
You know, Ellen has been so mean to me I don't see why she thinks that's okay. You don't make it hard for people because they weren't hurt before. You had your chance to have your say. You can't chose that you're on top and can toss people around for bad reasons if this ever makes sense in the action.
I do wonder about my aunt cursing out her niece. What did my cousin even do wrong? I might be guilty cuz I feel fat around her and maybe that's why we fought. I don't remember much of it, tho. I don't know why she couldn't just calm down, tho, and I don't curse not then/in real life much. I held a record. (Do you hold any records?) I felt like her mom was gonna literally k*** me. She holds her daughter being as a person more precious to the world. That may be inappropriate (to say but don't mean it in a mean, weird way..) but she seems to not be as much of a relative but maybe there's something of a sister to my dad. I think people were also mad I flunked out of college. Why get mad about that? My great uncle wasn't much for school, but he's a good man who believes in nature and things. I wonder why my dad and his sisters and sometimes his mom are so cutting and vicious for no reason. Sometimes, they are mean, and they don't really own up to that in particular.
I tried not to say anything wrong. Maybe, I will regret this. Let me know somehow online if you know or think I should change this post. I feel threatened.
I don't think my parents think I'm precious now. They don't really respect me that much, sometimes. They're working hard on making me less precious to the world. I'm trying to explain the experience is all, maybe don't mean it in the way you think. I don't see why this nonsense is in my life, people I don't see much, like having to feed the poor instead of Ellen. If Ellen were to come to my extended family, it might be very happy, but we can't have that so need to figure other things like to "pass time." Maybe, meeting someone like Ellen is what my relatives want, and they would not be so snotty. Maybe, they are lonely. I'm sad my aunt with a daughter wants nothing to come up. Before her daughter was born, I was more important it seems, tho, and before that she was with my parents having fun sometimes even. But, she did come into my life, my cousin, because of Ellen. Ellen and others are complaining to me about my aunt cursing out my cousin when she was "being bad," but that's not my problem/fault. The part about being precious is how my cousin's mom feels about her daughter fighting me. My Gramma said about someone, maybe her, bothering me that "she's just a kid."
Maybe, I will even message this to the aunt who was cursing.
You know, my aunts pretend to think I'm important to their family, but my dad and them just mess it up. I'm available to talk. It doesn't happen, even with computers. It's always about my cousin or something, too. I feel they hate who I am.
You know, Ellen also went far in I hear tell that my cousin is by birth worth "more" than me. She would like my mom but not me I know, tho, too, in a way. She also thinks my parents need to crack down on me at age 30, what a baby.
So, I'm sorry if what I wrote on my blog about what happened to my life is not liked, but I don't mean anything bad. I'm just spitting out the truth, you might say. I didn't say anything bad nor make up things.
Why is it so hard to be attractive with my dad in the family plus my aunt who seems to have an unhappy daughter, not unlike myself unfortunately now, looking like she's the attractive one and my dad doesn't care but keeps being mean to me when my life is spit? I feel I am fat, short, hunched over, and short-legged because of his overbearing presence and "secrets." If I do something that's not too bad or weird, he acts like nothing is wrong and then I find something happens later for no reason like I am actually bad when I actually am nice and deserve to be a princess who is attractive. Seems as tho my dad doesn't care about my reputation. He thinks I am a detriment to his reputation. He thinks I need a stricter more energetic mom. However, he waltzes and trots and wobbles up "attractively" trying to punish me. I know where you all came from. I don't forget. You had older parents than I have. This new way of life for these "new" little kids is *beep*. I didn't know my life was over cuz I wasn't 1 of a few movie stars.
I hope what I wrote helps someone analyze the important things going on in my life, the kind of thing I'd tell my therapist. It's important. I don't believe in mum. I justified what I wrote to being a topic and not whiny sarcasm. Some things just kinda seem to pop up. If you are offended, then forget about it it's not for you. People think bad and worse things. You know, it shouldn't be a game of being too dodgy and too careful around someone in check and under the radar.
If you think it's about being nice, well, people aren't nice to me. Why? I always say that. People were mean to me, and some of them still are. They try to annoy me, and I'm not gonna do what they want. Maybe, it's not really everyone's fault. I know people involved, tho. Maybe, you took something I mentioned the wrong way. I already explained. If I bring it up again, I'd be adding more, it seems, or drawing incessant attention to it.
You know, you all are the ones being mean.
BTW, I just like to say some things. This is my problems blog. I just said something/s that have different connotations and didn't mean it in a bad way. See, it's the same idea, again. Being overly protective of someone who you get mad at a lot, like we have to put up with it and only you can get mad. Maybe, you don't have the right to be mad. We're getting older. We don't need to help you, in some ways. No one's being nice to me. You all are probably just uppity.
There, settles that "responsibility." Why help those who don't need to take away our attention?
We need to solve this. I'm not doing this for attention.