They are acting like I dissed someone.
I was reexplaining something before, tho, that I said I didn't mean like. Maybe, they are hypersensitive to that kinda stuff. That's not how it went down, tho. I feel they are tossing me aside as different racially but a a totally lesser race. To go further, I know people do experience jealousy who are all white. They need to learn to get out and have fun and take care of their needs and not to forget classic forms of love such as of family, people at church, "real" "friends," etc. Other races are very open, I thought, to whites learning about them, but whites sometimes seem shy about that. Just to make sure there was no misunderstanding/blame on me, should not be necessary if I didn't have people watching me cuz I would never mean anything bad about that I'd think.
So, why can't I apologize and get forgiven for whatever hurt them in their take on what was suggested that really wasn't and sorry if it was not fully explained. I did go back and edit it soon after to be more clear. They keep thinking I mean something bad, but maybe they want me to seem bad, not sure who, but it seems like one explanation.
It's funny I meet people and they think I'll be okay, but I won't. I even tried getting more sleep so I don't act stupid. Stuff that if people weren't watching would be okay.. it's not. And what did it supposedly even was something else, me reporting the info. impersonally, as they kept making me take things in stride, which doesn't seem right. I tried to stop, but they are just counting posts, not caring what they say nor don't really say. They twist possibilities in things, too. They won't admit what they're doing, like just punishing me, pretending it's science and has to happen.
If something really has to be seen as suggestive, I suggest we see whose fault it really is and help the person it is suggested to, if at all. We need to be nice, no matter what. Life is not a sport of getting at others and being mean to them like it's okay. We need to set good examples.
So, let's see if anything's really wrong to fix, not just like say it has something to do with my other relationships and to continue to say I can't have them for no related reason. I even give it a rest like everyone else, but you said you wanted to talk about it. I do have other things I can do that I do. It just seems a bit imposing otherwise. Anyway, people can be interested, too, sometimes or however often they want, too, of course.
So, so sorry if anything is gone wrong cuza me. I didn't want it to. I shoulda known to delete this and not just edit this. It just seemed like clear water, something that hadn't been done. Guess I just went off. It was just a statement probably more geared towards the mother than the daughter. I just meant she seemed extra "protective." I guess they'd take that as a suggestion. I do wanna talk about it in general, but people probably hint at it behind their back. You know, I get random secret mean messages, too, myself, not putting anything up that I am very aware of that much. About hinting, I just mean people do that to everyone.