Someone I look up to is being reduced to basically being r**ed into submission from me.
The thought is still lingering on.
Before, I said, so any good ideas for how to be stimulated?
I'm kinda sad, I must admit.
I feel I'm waiting to blow up. That still means you're supposed to talk about it. I think Ellen tried mentioning it, and I wanted to say something about it on my blog, and she's dwindling the idea. It doesn't really make sense. I'm not doing it, so why is she? In saying this last sentence, I mean what is going on? I'm not trying to act "Disgusted." I'm just acting serious.
I also think it's like jumping to conclusions. They do this to most all attractive adults once looked up to and hopefully still.
It feels like everything she does means she can do anything she wants that hurts me.