I do want Bella to be #1, as I do anyone. It's only right.. :| I'm not #1, but I can be #1 to myself.
Anyway, what happened was it was like something was for me and then it wasn't but for Bella. She was pointing her finger on the DUFF poster to the bottom of her thigh looking like she deserved all the attention because maybe she didn't get enough. You know, that's a good thing to know. She doesn't talk to people, tho, so. I just felt like I did something wrong and guess the next steo is to know what it is. I do want Bella to be #1. I don't mean her #1 me #2. One of many #1s, I guess, but she thinks she needs to be the only #1 and push me down "deep inside."